第 19 节
作者:浮游云中      更新:2021-02-24 23:06      字数:9322
  slashers; mule spinners; beamers; French…Canadians; Irish; Scotch; Welsh and
  English; Germans; with only an occasional Italian; Lithuanian; or Jew。  Peanut
  and popcorn men; venders of tamales and Chile…con…carne hoarsely shouted their
  wares; while from afar could be heard the muffled booming of a band。  Janet's
  heart beat faster。  She regarded with a tinge of awe the vast expanse of tent
  that rose before her eyes; the wind sending ripples along the heavy canvas from
  circumference to tent pole。  She bought the tickets; they entered the circular
  enclosure where the animals were kept; where the strong beams of the sun; in
  trying to force their way through the canvas roof; created an unnatural;
  jaundiced twilight; the weirdness of which was somehow enhanced by the hoarse;
  amazingly penetrating growls of beasts。  Suddenly a lion near them raised a
  shaggy head; emitting a series of undulating; soul…shaking roars。
  〃Ah; what's eatin' you?〃 demanded a thick…necked youth; pretending not to be
  awestricken by this demonstration。
  〃Suppose he'd get out!〃 cried Eda; drawing Janet away。
  〃I wouldn't let him hurt you; dearie;〃 the young man assured her。
  〃You!〃 she retorted contemptuously; but grinned in spite of herself; showing
  her gums。
  The vague feeling of terror inspired by this tent was a part of its
  fascination; for it seemed pregnant with potential tragedies suggested by the
  juxtaposition of helpless babies and wild beasts; the babies crying or staring
  in blank amazement at padding tigers whose phosphorescent eyes never left these
  morsels beyond the bars。  The two girls wandered about; their arms closely
  locked; but the strange atmosphere; the roars of the beasts; the ineffable;
  pungent odour of the circus; of sawdust mingled with the effluvia of animals;
  had aroused an excitement that was slow in subsiding。  Some time elapsed before
  they were capable of taking a normal interest in the various exhibits。
  〃‘Adjutant Bird;'〃 Janet read presently from a legend on one of the
  compartments of a cage devoted to birds; and surveying the somewhat dissolute
  occupant。  〃Why; he's just like one of those tall mashers who stay at the
  Wilmot and stand on the sidewalk;travelling men; you know。〃
  〃Say…isn't he?〃 Eda agreed。  〃Isn't he pleased with himself; and his feet
  crossed!〃
  〃And see this one; Edahe's a 'Harpy Eagle。'  There's somebody we know looks
  just like that。  Wait a minuteI'll tell youit's the woman who sits in the
  cashier's cage at Grady's。〃
  〃If it sure isn't!〃 said Eda。
  〃She has the same fluffy; light hairhairpins can't keep it down; and she
  looks at you in that same sort of surprised way with her head on one side when
  you hand in your check。〃
  〃Why; it's true to the life!〃 cried Eda enthusiastically。  〃She thinks she's
  got all the men cinched;she does and she's forty if she's a day。〃
  These comparisons brought them to a pitch of risible enjoyment amply sustained
  by the spectacle in the monkey cage; to which presently they turned。  A
  chimpanzee; with a solicitation more than human; was solemnly searching a
  friend for fleas in the midst of a pandemonium of chattering and screeching and
  chasing; of rattling of bars and trapezes carried on by their companions。
  〃Well; young ladies;〃 said a voice; 〃come to pay a call on your relationshave
  ye?〃
  Eda giggled hysterically。  An elderly man was standing beside them。  He was
  shabbily dressed; his own features were wizened; almost simian; and by his
  friendly and fatuous smile Janet recognized one of the harmless obsessed in
  which Hampton abounded。
  〃Relations!〃 Eda exclaimed。
  〃You and me; yes; and her;〃 he answered; looking at Janet; though at first he
  had apparently entertained some doubt as to this inclusion; 〃we're all
  descended from them。〃  His gesture triumphantly indicated the denizens of the
  cage。
  〃What are you giving us?〃 said Eda。
  〃Ain't you never read Darwin?〃  he demanded。  〃If you had; you'd know they're
  our ancestors; you'd know we came from them instead of Adam and Eve。  That
  there's a fable。〃
  〃I'll never believe I came from them;〃 cried Eda; vehement in her disgust。
  But Janet laughed。  〃What's the difference?  Some of us aren't any better than
  monkeys; anyway。〃
  〃That's so;〃 said the man approvingly。  〃That's so。〃  He wanted to continue the
  conversation; but they left him rather ruthlessly。  And when; from the entrance
  to the performance tent; they glanced back over their shoulders; he was still
  gazing at his cousins behind the bars; seemingly deriving an acute pleasure
  from his consciousness of the connection。。。。
  CHAPTER VI
  Modern business; by reason of the mingling of the sexes it involves; for the
  playwright and the novelist and the sociologist is full of interesting and
  dramatic situations; and in it may be studied; undoubtedly; one phase of the
  evolution tending to transform if not disintegrate certain institutions
  hitherto the corner…stones of society。  Our stage is set。  A young woman;
  conscious of ability; owes her promotion primarily to certain dynamic feminine
  qualities with which she is endowed。  And though she may make an elaborate
  pretense of ignoring the fact; in her heart she knows and resents it; while at
  the same time; paradoxically; she gets a thrill from it;a sustaining and
  inspiring thrill of power!  On its face it is a business arrangement;
  secretly;attempt to repudiate this as one may;it is tinged with the colours
  of high adventure。  When Janet entered into the intimate relationship with Mr。
  Claude Ditmar necessitated by her new duties as his private stenographer her
  attitude; slightly defiant; was the irreproachable one of a strict attention to
  duty。  All unconsciously she was a true daughter of the twentieth century; and
  probably a feminist at heart; which is to say that her conduct was determined
  by no preconceived or handed…down notions of what was proper and lady…like。
  For feminism; in a sense; is a return to atavism; and sex antagonism and sex
  attraction are functions of the same thing。  There were moments when she
  believed herself to hate Mr。 Ditmar; when she treated him with an aloofness; an
  impersonality unsurpassed; moments when he paused in his dictation to stare at
  her in astonishment。  He; who flattered himself that he understood women!
  She would show him!such was her dominating determination。  Her promotion
  assumed the guise of a challenge; of a gauntlet flung down at the feet of her
  sex。  In a certain way; an insult; though incredibly stimulating。  If he
  flattered himself that he had done her a favour; if he entertained the notion
  that he could presently take advantage of the contact with her now achieved to
  make unbusinesslike advanceswell; he would find out。  He had proclaimed his
  desire for an able assistant in Miss Ottway's placehe would get one; and
  nothing more。  She watched narrowly; a l'affut; as the French say; for any
  signs of sentiment; and indeed this awareness of her being on guard may have
  had some influence on Mr。 Ditmar's own attitude; likewise irreproachable。。。。  A
  rather anaemic young woman; a Miss Annie James; was hired for Janet's old
  place。
  In spite of this aloofness and alertness; for the first time in her life Janet
  felt the exuberance of being in touch with affairs of import。  Hitherto the
  mill had been merely a greedy monster claiming her freedom and draining her
  energies in tasks routine; such as the copying of meaningless documents and
  rows of figures; now; supplied with stimulus and a motive; the Corporation
  began to take on significance; and she flung herself into the work with an
  ardour hitherto unknown; determined to make herself so valuable to Ditmar that
  the time would come when he could not do without her。  She strove to memorize
  certain names and addresses; lest time be lost in looking them up; to
  familiarize herself with the ordinary run of his correspondence; to recall what
  letters were to be marked 〃personal;〃 to anticipate matters of routine; in
  order that he might not have the tedium of repeating instructions; she acquired
  the faculty of keeping his engagements in her head; she came early to the
  office; remaining after hours; going through the files; becoming familiar with
  his system; and she learned to sort out his correspondence; sifting the
  important from the unimportant; to protect him; more and more; from numerous
  visitors who called only to waste his time。  Her instinct for the detection of
  book…agents; no matter how brisk and businesslike they might appear; was
  unerringshe remembered faces and the names belonging to them: an individual
  once observed to be persona non grata never succeeded in passing her twice。  On
  one occasion Ditmar came out of his office to see the back of one of these
  visitors disappearing into the corridor。
  〃Who was that?〃 he asked。
  〃His name is McCalla;〃 she said。  〃I thought you didn't want to be bothered。〃
  〃But how in thunder did you get rid of him?〃 he demanded。
  〃Oh; I just wouldn't let him in;〃 she replied demurely。
  And Ditmar went away; wondering。。。。  Thus she gtudied him; without permitting
  him to suspect it; learning his idiosyncrasies; his attitude toward all those
  with whom daily he came in contact;