第 3 节
作者:漂亮格子      更新:2021-02-24 22:06      字数:9322
  family first came from; and particularly; I had an only sister in
  Lincolnshire; very willing to receive and entertain me。
  My brother; who had already sent his wife and two children into
  Bedfordshire; and resolved to follow them; pressed my going very
  earnestly; and I had once resolved to comply with his desires; but at
  that time could get no horse; for though it is true all the people did not
  go out of the city of London; yet I may venture to say that in a manner
  all the horses did; for there was hardly a horse to be bought or hired in
  the whole city for some weeks。  Once I resolved to travel on foot with
  one servant; and; as many did; lie at no inn; but carry a soldier's tent
  with us; and so lie in the fields; the weather being very warm; and no
  danger from taking cold。  I say; as many did; because several did so at
  last; especially those who had been in the armies in the war which had
  not been many years past; and I must needs say that; speaking of
  second causes; had most of the people that travelled done so; the plague
  had not been carried into so many country towns and houses as it was;
  to the great damage; and indeed to the ruin; of abundance of people。
  But then my servant; whom I had intended to take down with me;
  deceived me; and being frighted at the increase of the distemper; and
  not knowing when I should go; he took other measures; and left me;
  so I was put off for that time; and; one way or other; I always found
  that to appoint to go away was always crossed by some accident or
  other; so as to disappoint and put it off again; and this brings in
  a story which otherwise might be thought a needless digression; viz。;
  about these disappointments being from Heaven。
  I mention this story also as the best method I can advise any person
  to take in such a case; especially if he be one that makes conscience of
  his duty; and would be directed what to do in it; namely; that he
  should keep his eye upon the particular providences which occur at
  that time; and look upon them complexly; as they regard one another;
  and as all together regard the question before him: and then; I think;
  he may safely take them for intimations from Heaven of what is his
  unquestioned duty to do in such a case; I mean as to going away from
  or staying in the place where we dwell; when visited with an
  infectious distemper。
  It came very warmly into my mind one morning; as I was musing on
  this particular thing; that as nothing attended us without the direction
  or permission of Divine Power; so these disappointments must have
  something in them extraordinary; and I ought to consider whether it
  did not evidently point out; or intimate to me; that it was the will of
  Heaven I should not go。  It immediately followed in my thoughts; that
  if it really was from God that I should stay; He was able effectually to
  preserve me in the midst of all the death and danger that would
  surround me; and that if I attempted to secure myself by fleeing from
  my habitation; and acted contrary to these intimations; which I believe
  to be Divine; it was a kind of flying from God; and that He could
  cause His justice to overtake me when and where He thought fit。
  These thoughts quite turned my resolutions again; and when I came
  to discourse with my brother again I told him that I inclined to stay
  and take my lot in that station in which God had placed me; and that
  it seemed to be made more especially my duty; on the account of what
  I have said。
  My brother; though a very religious man himself; laughed at all I
  had suggested about its being an intimation from Heaven; and told me
  several stories of such foolhardy people; as he called them; as I was;
  that I ought indeed to submit to it as a work of Heaven if I had been
  any way disabled by distempers or diseases; and that then not being
  able to go; I ought to acquiesce in the direction of Him; who; having
  been my Maker; had an undisputed right of sovereignty in disposing
  of me; and that then there had been no difficulty to determine which
  was the call of His providence and which was not; but that I should
  take it as an intimation from Heaven that I should not go out of town;
  only because I could not hire a horse to go; or my fellow was run
  away that was to attend me; was ridiculous; since at the time I had my
  health and limbs; and other servants; and might with ease travel a day
  or two on foot; and having a good certificate of being in perfect health;
  might either hire a horse or take post on the road; as I thought fit。
  Then he proceeded to tell me of the mischievous consequences
  which attended the presumption of the Turks and Mahometans in Asia
  and in other places where he had been (for my brother; being a
  merchant; was a few years before; as I have already observed; returned
  from abroad; coming last from Lisbon); and how; presuming upon
  their professed predestinating notions; and of every man's end being
  predetermined and unalterably beforehand decreed; they would go
  unconcerned into infected places and converse with infected persons;
  by which means they died at the rate of ten or fifteen thousand a
  week; whereas the Europeans or Christian merchants; who kept
  themselves retired and reserved; generally escaped the contagion。
  Upon these arguments my brother changed my resolutions again;
  and I began to resolve to go; and accordingly made all things ready;
  for; in short; the infection increased round me; and the bills were risen
  to almost seven hundred a week; and my brother told me he would
  venture to stay no longer。  I desired him to let me consider of it but till
  the next day; and I would resolve: and as I had already prepared
  everything as well as I could as to MY business; and whom to entrust
  my affairs with; I had little to do but to resolve。
  I went home that evening greatly oppressed in my mind; irresolute;
  and not knowing what to do。  I had set the evening wholly …apart to
  consider seriously about it; and was all alone; for already people had;
  as it were by a general consent; taken up the custom of not going out
  of doors after sunset; the reasons I shall have occasion to say more of
  by…and…by。
  In the retirement of this evening I endeavoured to resolve; first; what
  was my duty to do; and I stated the arguments with which my brother
  had pressed me to go into the country; and I set; against them the
  strong impressions which I had on my mind for staying; the visible
  call I seemed to have from the particular circumstance of my calling;
  and the care due from me for the preservation of my effects; which
  were; as I might say; my estate; also the intimations which I thought I
  had from Heaven; that to me signified a kind of direction to venture;
  and it occurred to me that if I had what I might call a direction to stay;
  I ought to suppose it contained a promise of being preserved if I obeyed。
  This lay close to me; and my mind seemed more and more encouraged
  to stay than ever; and supported with a secret satisfaction
  that I should be kept。  Add to this; that; turning over the Bible which
  lay before me; and while my thoughts were more than ordinarily
  serious upon the question; I cried out; 'Well; I know not what to do;
  Lord; direct me I' and the like; and at that juncture I happened to stop
  turning over the book at the gist Psalm; and casting my eye on the
  second verse; I read on to the seventh verse exclusive; and after that
  included the tenth; as follows: 'I will say of the Lord; He is my refuge
  and my fortress: my God; in Him will I trust。  Surely He shall deliver
  thee from the snare of the fowler; and from the noisome pestilence。
  He shall cover thee with His feathers; and under His wings shalt thou
  trust: His truth shall be thy shield and buckler。  Thou shalt not be
  afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day; nor
  for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that
  wasteth at noonday。  A thousand shall fall at thy side; and ten
  thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee。  Only with
  thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked。
  Because thou hast made the Lord; which is my refuge; even the most
  High; thy habitation; there shall no evil befall thee; neither shall any
  plague come nigh thy dwelling;' &C。
  I scarce need tell the reader that from that moment I resolved that I
  would stay in the town; and casting myself entirely upon the goodness
  and protection of the Almighty; would not seek any other shelter
  whatever; and that; as my times were in His hands; He was as able to
  keep me in a time of the infection as in a time of health; and if He did
  not think fit to deliver me; still I was in His hands; and it was meet He
  should do with me as should seem good to Him。
  With this resolution I went to bed; and I was further confirmed in it
  the next day by the woman being taken ill with whom I had intended
  to entrust my house and all my affairs。  But I had