第 71 节
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  Yes! as my foot was the first that stepped on this rock at the
  landing;
  So; with the blessing of God; shall it be the last at the
  leaving!〃
  Meanwhile the Master alert; but with dignified air and
  important;
  Scanning with watchful eye the tide and the wind and the weather;
  Walked about on the sands; and the people crowded around him
  Saying a few last words; and enforcing his careful remembrance。
  Then; taking each by the hand; as if he were grasping a tiller;
  Into the boat he sprang; and in haste shoved off to his vessel;
  Glad in his heart to get rid of all this worry and flurry;
  Glad to be gone from a land of sand and sickness and sorrow;
  Short allowance of victual; and plenty of nothing but Gospel!
  Lost in the sound of the oars was the last farewell of the
  Pilgrims。
  O strong hearts and true! not one went back in the Mayflower!
  No; not one looked back; who had set his hand to this ploughing!
  Soon were heard on board the shouts and songs of the sailors
  Heaving the windlass round; and hoisting the ponderous anchor。
  Then the yards were braced; and all sails set to the west…wind;
  Blowing steady and strong; and the Mayflower sailed from the
  harbor;
  Rounded the point of the Gurnet; and leaving far to the southward
  Island and cape of sand; and the Field of the First Encounter;
  Took the wind on her quarter; and stood for the open Atlantic;
  Borne on the send of the sea; and the swelling hearts of the
  Pilgrims。
  Long in silence they watched the receding sail of the vessel;
  Much endeared to them all; as something living and human;
  Then; as if filled with the spirit; and wrapt in a vision
  prophetic;
  Baring his hoary head; the excellent Elder of Plymouth
  Said; 〃Let us pray!〃 and they prayed; and thanked the Lord and
  took courage。
  Mournfully sobbed the waves at the base of the rock; and above
  them
  Bowed and whispered the wheat on the hill of death; and their
  kindred
  Seemed to awake in their graves; and to join in the prayer that
  they uttered。
  Sun…illumined and white; on the eastern verge of the ocean
  Gleamed the departing sail; like a marble slab in a graveyard;
  Buried beneath it lay for ever all hope of escaping。
  Lo! as they turned to depart; they saw the form of an Indian;
  Watching them from the hill; but while they spake with each
  other;
  Pointing with outstretched hands; and saying; 〃Look!〃 he had
  vanished。
  So they returned to their homes; but Alden lingered a little;
  Musing alone on the shore; and watching the wash of the billows
  Round the base of the rock; and the sparkle and flash of the
  sunshine;
  Like the spirit of God; moving visibly over the waters。
  VI
  PRISCILLA
  Thus for a while he stood; and mused by the shore of the ocean;
  Thinking of many things; and most of all of Priscilla;
  And as if thought had the power to draw to itself; like the
  loadstone;
  Whatsoever it touches; by subtile laws of its nature;
  Lo! as he turned to depart; Priscilla was standing beside him。
  〃Are you so much offended; you will not speak to me?〃 said she。
  〃Am I so much to blame; that yesterday; when you were pleading
  Warmly the cause of another; my heart; impulsive and wayward;
  Pleaded your own; and spake out; forgetful perhaps of decorum?
  Certainly you can forgive me for speaking so frankly; for saying
  What I ought not to have said; yet now I can never unsay it;
  For there are moments in life; when the heart is so full of
  emotion;
  That if by chance it be shaken; or into its depths like a pebble
  Drops some careless word; it overflows; and its secret;
  Spilt on the ground like water; can never be gathered together。
  Yesterday I was shocked; when I heard you speak of Miles
  Standish;
  Praising his virtues; transforming his very defects into virtues;
  Praising his courage and strength; and even his fighting in
  Flanders;
  As if by fighting alone you could win the heart of a woman;
  Quite overlooking yourself and the rest; in exalting your hero。
  Therefore I spake as I did; by an irresistible impulse。
  You will forgive me; I hope; for the sake of the friendship
  between us;
  Which is too true and too sacred to be so easily broken!〃
  Thereupon answered John Alden; the scholar; the friend of Miles
  Standish:
  〃I was not angry with you; with myself alone I was angry;
  Seeing how badly I managed the matter I had in my keeping。〃
  〃No!〃 interrupted the maiden; with answer prompt and decisive;
  〃No; you were angry with me; for speaking so frankly and freely。
  It was wrong; I acknowledge; for it is the fate of a woman
  Long to be patient and silent; to wait like a ghost that is
  speechless;
  Till some questioning voice dissolves the spell of its silence。
  Hence is the inner life of so many suffering women
  Sunless and silent and deep; like subterranean rivers
  Running through caverns of darkness; unheard; unseen; and
  unfruitful;
  Chafing their channels of stone; with endless and profitless
  murmurs。〃
  Thereupon answered John Alden; the young man; the lover of women:
  〃Heaven forbid it; Priscilla; and truly they seem to me always
  More like the beautiful rivers that watered the garden of Eden;
  More like the river Euphrates; through deserts of Havilah
  flowing;
  Filling the land with delight; and memories sweet of the garden!〃
  〃Ah; by these words; I can see;〃 again interrupted the maiden;
  〃How very little you prize me; or care for what I am saying。
  When from the depths of my heart; in pain and with secret
  misgiving;
  Frankly I speak to you; asking for sympathy only and kindness;
  Straightway you take up my words; that are plain and direct and
  in earnest;
  Turn them away from their meaning; and answer with flattering
  phrases。
  This is not right; is not just; is not true to the best that is
  in you;
  For I know and esteem you; and feel that your nature is noble;
  Lifting mine up to a higher; a more ethereal level。
  Therefore I value your friendship; and feel it perhaps the more
  keenly
  If you say aught that implies I am only as one among many;
  If you make use of those common and complimentary phrases
  Most men think so fine; in dealing and speaking with women;
  But which women reject as insipid; if not as insulting。〃
  Mute and amazed was Alden; and listened and looked at
  Priscilla;
  Thinking he never had seen her more fair; more divine in her
  beauty。
  He who but yesterday pleaded so glibly the cause of another;
  Stood there embarrassed and silent; and seeking in vain for an
  answer。
  So the maiden went on; and little divined or imagined
  What was at work in his heart; that made him so awkward and
  speechless。
  〃Let us; then; be what we are; and speak what we think; and in
  all things
  Keep ourselves loyal to truth; and the sacred professions of
  friendship。
  It is no secret I tell you; nor am I ashamed to declare it:
  I have liked to be with you; to see you; to speak with you
  always。
  So I was hurt at your words; and a little affronted to hear you
  Urge me to marry your friend; though he were the Captain Miles
  Standish。
  For I must tell you the truth: much more to me is your friendship
  Than all the love he could give; were he twice the hero you think
  him。〃
  Then she extended her hand; and Alden; who eagerly grasped it;
  Felt all the wounds in his heart; that were aching and bleeding
  so sorely;
  Healed by the touch of that hand; and he said; with a voice full
  of feeling:
  〃Yes; we must ever be friends; and of all who offer you
  friendship
  Let me be ever the first; the truest; the nearest and dearest!〃
  Casting a farewell look at the glimmering sail of the
  Mayflower;
  Distant; but still in sight; and sinking below the horizon;
  Homeward together they walked; with a strange; indefinite
  feeling;
  That all the rest had departed and left them alone in the desert。
  But; as they went through the fields in the blessing and smile of
  the sunshine;
  Lighter grew their hearts; and Priscilla said very archly:
  〃Now that our terrible Captain has gone in pursuit of the
  Indians;
  Where he is happier far than he would be commanding a household;
  You may speak boldly; and tell me of all that happened between
  you;
  When you returned last night; and said how ungrateful you found
  me。〃
  Thereupon answered John Alden; and told her the whole of the
  story;
  Told her his own despair; and the direful wrath of Miles
  Standish。
  Whereat the maiden smiled; and said between laughing and earnest;
  〃He is a little chimney; and heated hot in a moment!〃
  But as he gently rebuked her; and told her how much he had
  suffered;
  How he had even determined to sail that day in the Mayflower;
  And had remained for her sake; on hearing the dangers that
  threatened;
  All her manner was changed; and she said with a faltering accent;
  〃Truly I thank you for this: how good you have been to me
  always!〃
  Thus; as a pilgrim devout; who toward Jerusalem journeys;
  Taking three steps in advance; and one reluctantly back