第 97 节
作者:散发弄舟      更新:2021-02-21 16:20      字数:9319
  had seen for a moment in the library at Arnsteadthe glorified face
  of Margaret Elginbrod; shimmering faintly in the dull light。
  Instinctively he pressed his hands together; palm to palm; as if he
  had been about to kneel before Madonna herself。  Delight; mingled
  with hope; and tempered by shame; flushed his face。  Ghost or none;
  she brought no fear with her; only awe。
  She stood still。
  〃Margaret!〃 he said; with trembling voice。
  〃Mr。 Sutherland!〃 she responded; sweetly。
  〃Are you a ghost; Margaret?〃
  She smiled as if she were all spirit; and; advancing slowly; took
  his joined hands in both of hers。
  〃Forgive me; Margaret;〃 sighed he; as if with his last breath; and
  burst into an agony of tears。
  She waited motionless; till his passion should subside; still
  holding his hands。  He felt that her hands were so good。
  〃He is dead!〃 said Hugh; at last; with all effort; followed by a
  fresh outburst of weeping。
  〃Yes; he is dead;〃 rejoined Margaret; calmly。 〃You would not weep so
  if you had seen him die as I diddie with a smile like a summer
  sunset。  Indeed; it was the sunset to me; but the moon has been up
  for a long time now。〃
  She sighed a gentle; painless sigh; and smiled again like a saint。
  She spoke nearly as Scotch as ever in tone; though the words and
  pronunciation were almost pure English。This lapse into so much of
  the old form; or rather garment; of speech; constantly recurred; as
  often as her feelings were moved; and especially when she talked to
  children。
  〃Forgive me;〃 said Hugh; once more。
  〃We are the same as in the old days;〃 answered Margaret; and Hugh
  was satisfied。
  〃How do you come to be here?〃 said Hugh; at last; after a silence。
  〃I will tell you all about that another time。  Now I must give you
  Miss Cameron's message。  She is very sorry she cannot see you; but
  she is quite unable。  Indeed; she is not out of bed。  But if you
  could call to…morrow morning; she hopes to be better and to be able
  to see you。  She says she can never thank you enough。〃
  The lamp burned yet fainter。  Margaret went; and proceeded to trim
  it。  The virgins that arose must have looked very lovely; trimming
  their lamps。  It is a deed very fair and womanlythe best for a
  womanto make the lamp burn。  The light shone up in her face; and
  the hands removing the globe handled it delicately。  He saw that the
  good hands were very beautiful hands; not small; but admirably
  shaped; and very pure。  As she replaced the globe;
  〃That man;〃 she said; 〃will not trouble her any more。〃
  〃I hope not;〃 said Hugh; 〃but you speak confidently: why?〃
  〃Because she has behaved gloriously。  She has fought and conquered
  him on his own ground; and she is a free; beautiful; and good
  creature of God for ever。〃
  〃You delight me;〃 rejoined Hugh 〃Another time; perhaps; you will be
  able to tell me all about it。〃
  〃I hope so。  I think she will not mind my telling you。〃
  They bade each other good night; and Hugh went away with a strange
  feeling; which he had never experienced before。  To compare great
  things with small; it was something like what he had once felt in a
  dream; in which; digging in his father's garden; he had found a
  perfect marble statue; young as life; and yet old as the hills。  To
  think of the girl he had first seen in the drawing…room at
  Turriepuffit; idealizing herself into such a creature as that; so
  grand; and yet so womanly! so lofty; and yet so lovely; so strong;
  and yet so graceful!
  Would that every woman believed in the ideal of herself; and hoped
  for it as the will of God; not merely as the goal of her own purest
  ambition!  But even if the lower development of the hope were all
  she possessed; it would yet be well; for its inevitable failure
  would soon develope the higher and triumphant hope。
  He thought about her till he fell asleep; and dreamed about her till
  he woke。  Not for a moment; however; did he fancy he was in love
  with her: the feeling was different from any he had hitherto
  recognized as embodying that passion。  It was the recognition and
  consequent admiration of a beauty which everyone who beheld it must
  recognize and admire; but mingled; in his case; with old and
  precious memories; doubly dear now in the increased earnestness of
  his nature and aspirations; and with a deep personal interest from
  the fact that; however little; he had yet contributed a portion of
  the vital food whereby the gracious creature had become what she
  was。
  In the so…called morning he went to Mrs。 Elton's。  Euphra was
  expecting his visit; and he was shown up into her room; where she
  was lying on a couch by the fire。  She received him with the warmth
  of gratitude added to that of friendship。  Her face was pale and
  thin; but her eyes were brilliant。  She did not appear at first
  sight to be very ill: but the depth and reality of her sickness grew
  upon him。  Behind her couch stood Margaret; like a guardian angel。
  Margaret could bear the day; for she belonged to it; and therefore
  she looked more beautiful still than by the lamp…light。  Euphra held
  out a pale little hand to Hugh; and before she withdrew it; led
  Hugh's towards Margaret。  Their hands joined。  How different to Hugh
  was the touch of the two hands!  Life; strength; persistency in the
  one: languor; feebleness; and fading in the other。
  〃I can never thank you enough;〃 said Euphra; 〃therefore I will not
  try。  It is no bondage to remain your debtor。〃
  〃That would be thanks indeed; if I had done anything。〃
  〃I have found out another mystery;〃 Euphra resumed; after a pause。
  〃I am sorry to hear it;〃 answered he。 〃I fear there will be no
  mysteries left by…and…by。〃
  〃No fear of that;〃 she rejoined; 〃so long as the angels come down to
  men。〃  And she turned towards Margaret as she spoke。
  Margaret smiled。  In the compliment she felt only the kindness。
  Hugh looked at her。  She turned away; and found something to do at
  the other side of the room。
  〃What mystery; then; have you destroyed?〃
  〃Not destroyed it; for the mystery of courage remains。  I was the
  wicked ghost that night in the Ghost's Walk; you knowthe white
  one: there is the good ghost; the nun; the black one。〃
  〃Who?  Margaret?〃
  〃Yes; indeed。  She has just been confessing it to me。  I had my two
  angels; as one whose fate was undetermined; my evil angel in the
  countmy good angel in Margaret。  Little did I think then that the
  holy powers were watching me in her。  I knew the evil one; I knew
  nothing of the good。  I suppose it is so with a great many people。〃
  Hugh sat silent in astonishment。  Margaret; then; had been at
  Arnstead with Mrs。 Elton all the time。  It was herself he had seen
  in the study。
  〃Did you suspect me; Margaret?〃 resumed Euphra; turning towards her
  where she sat at the window。
  〃Not in the least。  I only knew that something was wrong about the
  house; that some being was terrifying the servants; and poor Harry;
  and I resolved to do my best to meet it; especially if it should be
  anything of a ghostly kind。〃
  〃Then you do believe in such appearances?〃 said Hugh。
  〃I have never met anything of the sort yet。  I don't know。〃
  〃And you were not afraid?〃
  〃Not much。  I am never really afraid of anything。  Why should I be?〃
  No justification of fear was suggested either by Hugh or by Euphra。
  They felt the dignity of nature that lifted Margaret above the
  region of fear。
  〃Come and see me again soon;〃 said Euphra; as Hugh rose to go。
  He promised。
  Next day he dined by invitation with Mrs。 Elton and Harry。  Euphra
  was unable to see him; but sent a kind message by Margaret as he was
  taking his leave。  He had been fearing that he should not see
  Margaret; and when she did appear he was the more delighted; but the
  interview was necessarily short。
  He called the next day; and saw neither Euphra nor Margaret。  She
  was no better。  Mrs。 Elton said the physicians could discover no
  definite disease either of the lungs or of any other organ。  Yet
  life seemed sinking。  Margaret thought that the conflict which she
  had passed through; had exhausted her vitality; that; had she
  yielded; she might have lived a slave; but that now; perhaps; she
  must die a free woman。
  Her continued illness made Hugh still more anxious to find the ring;
  for he knew it would please her much。  Falconer would have applied
  to the police; but he feared that the man would vanish from London;
  upon the least suspicion that he was watched。  They held many
  consultations on the subject。
  CHAPTER XX。
  A NEW GUIDE。
  Das Denken ist nur ein Traum des F黨lens; ein erstorbenes F黨len;
  ein blass…graues; schwaches Leben。
  Thinking is only a dream of feeling; a dead feeling; a pale…grey;
  feeble life。
  NOVALIS。Die Lehrlinge zu Sais。
  For where's no courage; there's no ruth nor mone。
  Faerie Queene: vi。 7; 18。
  One morning; as soon as she waked; Euphra said:
  〃Have I been still all the night; Margaret?〃
  〃Quite still。  Why do you ask?〃
  〃Because I have had such a strange and vivid dream; that I feel as
  if I must have been to the place。  It was a foolish question;
  though; because; of course; you would not have let me go。〃
  〃I hope it did not trouble you much。〃
  〃No; not much; for though I was with