第 91 节
作者:散发弄舟      更新:2021-02-21 16:20      字数:9321
  At length; one day; she came into the room where Hugh was more busy
  in teaching than his pupils were in learning; and seated herself by
  the fire to watch for an opportunity。  This was soon found。  For the
  boys; rendered still more inattentive by the presence of their
  mother; could not be induced to fix the least thought upon the
  matter in hand; so that Hugh was compelled to go over the same thing
  again and again; without success。  At last he said:
  〃I am afraid; Mrs。 Appleditch; I must ask you to interfere; for I
  cannot get any attention from the boys to…day。〃
  〃And how could it be otherwise; Mr。 Sutherland; when you keep
  wearing them out with going over and over the same thing; till they
  are sick of it?  Why don't you go on?〃
  〃How can I go on when they have not learned the thing they are at?
  That would be to build the chimneys before the walls。〃
  〃It is very easy to be witty; sir; but I beg you will behave more
  respectfully to me in the presence of my children; innocent lambs!〃
  Looking round at the moment; Hugh caught in his face what the elder
  lamb had intended for his back; a grimace hideous enough to have
  procured him instant promotion in the kingdom of apes。  The mother
  saw it too; and added:
  〃You see you cannot make them respect you。  Really; Mr。 Sutherland!〃
  Hugh was about to reply; to the effect that it was useless; in such
  circumstances; to attempt teaching them at all; some utterance of
  which sort was watched for as the occasion for his instant
  dismission; but at that very moment a carriage and pair pulled
  sharply up at the door; with more than the usual amount of
  quadrupedation; and mother and sons darted simultaneously to the
  window。
  〃My!〃 cried Johnnie; 〃what a rum go!  Isn't that a jolly carriage;
  Peetie?〃
  〃Papa's bought a carriage!〃 shouted Peetie。
  〃Be quiet; children;〃 said their mother; as she saw a footman get
  down and approach the door。
  〃Look at that buffer;〃 said Johnnie。 〃Do come and see this grand
  footman; Mr。 Sutherland。  He's such a gentleman!〃
  A box on the ear from his mother silenced him。  The servant entering
  with some perturbation a moment after; addressed her mistress; for
  she dared not address any one else while she was in the room:
  〃Please 'm; the carriage is astin' after Mr。 Sutherland。〃
  〃Mr。 Sutherland?〃
  〃Yes 'm。〃
  The lady turned to Mr。 Sutherland; who; although surprised as well;
  was not inclined to show his surprise to Mrs。 Appleditch。
  〃I did not know you had carriage…friends; Mr。 Sutherland;〃 said she;
  with a toss of her head。
  〃Neither did I;〃 answered Hugh。 〃But I will go and see who it is。〃
  When he reached the street; he found Harry on the pavement; who
  having got out of the carriage; and not having been asked into the
  house; was unable to stand still for impatience。  As soon as he saw
  his tutor; he bounded to him; and threw his arms round his neck;
  standing as they were in the open street。  Tears of delight filled
  his eyes。
  〃Come; come; come;〃 said Harry; 〃we all want you。〃
  〃Who wants me?〃
  〃Mrs。 Elton and Euphra and me。  Come; get in。〃
  〃And he pulled Hugh towards the carriage。
  〃I cannot go with you now。  I have pupils here。〃
  Harry's face fell。
  〃When will you come?〃
  〃In half…an…hour。〃
  〃Hurrah!  I shall be back exactly in half…an…hour then。  Do be
  ready; please; Mr。 Sutherland。〃
  〃I will。〃
  Harry jumped into the carriage; telling the coachman to drive where
  he pleased; and be back at the same place in half…an…hour。  Hugh
  returned into the house。
  As may be supposed; Margaret was the means of this happy meeting。
  Although she saw plainly enough that Euphra would like to see Hugh;
  she did not for some time make up her mind to send for him。  The
  circumstances which made her resolve to do so were these。
  For some days Euphra seemed to be gradually regaining her health and
  composure of mind。  One evening; after a longer talk than usual;
  Margaret had left her in bed; and had gone to her own room。  She was
  just preparing to get into bed herself; when a knock at her door
  startled her; and going to it; she saw Euphra standing there; pale
  as death; with nothing on but her nightgown; notwithstanding the
  bitter cold of an early and severe frost。  She thought at first she
  must be walking in her sleep; but the scared intelligence of her
  open eyes; soon satisfied her that it was not so。
  〃What is the matter; dear Miss Cameron?〃 she said; as calmly as she
  could。
  〃He is coming。  He wants me。  If he calls me; I must go。〃
  〃No; you shall not go;〃 rejoined Margaret; firmly。
  〃I must; I must;〃 answered Euphra; wringing her hands。
  〃Do come in;〃 said Margaret; 〃you must not stand there in the cold。〃
  〃Let me get into your bed。〃
  〃Better let me go with you to yours。  That will be more comfortable
  for you。〃
  〃Oh! yes; please do。〃
  Margaret threw a shawl round Euphra; and went back with her to her
  room。
  〃He wants me。  He wants me。  He will call me soon;〃 said Euphra; in
  an agonised whisper; as soon as the door was shut。 〃What shall I
  do!〃
  〃Come to bed first; and we will talk about it there。〃
  As soon as they were in bed; Margaret put her arm round Euphra; who
  was trembling with cold and fear; and said:
  〃Has this man any right to call you?〃
  〃No; no;〃 answered Euphra; vehemently。
  〃Then don't go。〃
  〃But I am afraid of him。〃
  〃Defy him in God's name。〃
  〃But besides the fear; there is something that I can't describe;
  that always keeps telling meno; not telling me; pushing meno;
  drawing me; as if I could not rest a moment till I go。  I cannot
  describe it。  I hate to go; and yet I feel that if I were cold in my
  grave; I must rise and go if he called me。  I wish I could tell you
  what it is like。  It is as if some demon were shaking my soul till I
  yielded and went。  Oh! don't despise me。  I can't help it。〃
  〃My darling; I don't; I can't despise you。  You shall not go to
  him。〃
  〃But I must;〃 answered she; with a despairing faintness more
  convincing than any vehemence; and then began to weep with a slow;
  hopeless weeping; like the rain of a November eve。
  Margaret got out of bed。  Euphra thought she was offended。  Starting
  up; she clasped her hands; and said:
  〃Oh Margaret!  I won't cry。  Don't leave me。  Don't leave me。〃
  She entreated like a chidden child。
  〃No; no; I didn't mean to leave you for a moment。  Lie down again;
  dear; and cry as much as you like。  I am going to read a little bit
  out of the New Testament to you。〃
  〃I am afraid I can't listen to it。〃
  〃Never mind。  Don't try。  I want to read it。〃
  Margaret got a New Testament; and read part of that chapter of St。
  John's Gospel which speaks about human labour and the bread of life。
  She stopped at these words:
  〃For I came down from heaven; not to do mine own will; but the will
  of him that sent me。〃
  Euphra's tears had ceased。  The sound of Margaret's voice; which; if
  it lost in sweetness by becoming more Scotch when she read the
  Gospel; yet gained thereby in pathos; and the power of the blessed
  words themselves; had soothed the troubled spirit a little; and she
  lay quiet。
  〃The count is not a good man; Miss Cameron?〃
  〃You know he is not; Margaret。  He is the worst man alive。〃
  〃Then it cannot be God's will that you should go to him。〃
  〃But one does many things that are not God's will。〃
  〃But it is God's will that you should not go to him。〃
  Euphra lay silent for a few moments。  Suddenly she exclaimed:
  〃Then I must not go to him;〃got out of bed; threw herself on her
  knees by the bedside; and holding up her clasped hands; said; in low
  tones that sounded as if forced from her by agony:
  〃I won't!  I won't!  O God; I will not。  Help me; help me!〃
  Margaret knelt beside her; and put her arm round her。  Euphra spoke
  no more; but remained kneeling; with her extended arms and clasped
  hands lying on the bed; and her head laid between them。  At length
  Margaret grew alarmed; and looked at her。  But she found that she
  was in a sweet sleep。  She gently disengaged herself; and covering
  her up soft and warm; left her to sleep out her God…sent sleep
  undisturbed; while she sat beside; and watched for her waking。
  She slept thus for an hour。  Then lifting her head; and seeing
  Margaret; she rose quietly; as if from her prayers; and said with a
  smile:
  〃Margaret; I was dreaming that I had a mother。〃
  〃So you have; somewhere。〃
  〃Yes; so I have; somewhere;〃 she repeated; and crept into bed like a
  child; lay down; and was asleep again in a moment。
  Margaret watched her for another hour; and then seeing no signs of
  restlessness; but that on the contrary her sleep was profound; lay
  down beside her; and soon shared in that repose which to weary women
  and men is God's best gift。
  She rose at her usual hour the next day; and was dressed before
  Euphra awoke。  It was a cold grey December morning; with the
  hoar…frost lying thick on the roofs of the houses。  Euphra opened
  her eyes while Margaret was busy lighting the fire。  Seeing that she
  was there; she closed them again; and fell once more fast asleep。
  Before she woke again; Margaret had some tea ready for her; after
  taking which; she felt able to get up。  She rose looking more bright