第 13 节
作者:九十八度      更新:2021-02-21 16:18      字数:9321
  conscience rather than the demands of social law。 In her; nobility of
  feeling and action would ever be spontaneous; her judgment would
  confirm the impulse of her heart。 She was destined to do right as a
  pleasure before doing it as an obligation。 This distinction is the
  peculiar sign of Christian education。 These principles; altogether
  different from those that are taught to men; were suitable for a
  woman;the spirit and the conscience of the home; the beautifier of
  domestic life; the queen of her household。 All three of these old
  preceptors followed the same method with Ursula。 Instead of recoiling
  before the bold questions of innocence; they explained to her the
  reasons of things and the best means of action; taking care to give
  her none but correct ideas。 When; apropos of a flower; a star; a blade
  of grass; her thoughts went straight to God; the doctor and the
  professor told her that the priest alone could answer her。 None of
  them intruded on the territory of the others; the doctor took charge
  of her material well…being and the things of life; Jordy's department
  was instruction; moral and spiritual questions and the ideas
  appertaining to the higher life belonged to the abbe。 This noble
  education was not; as it often is; counteracted by injudicious
  servants。 La Bougival; having been lectured on the subject; and being;
  moreover; too simple in mind and character to interfere; did nothing
  to injure the work of these great minds。 Ursula; a privileged being;
  grew up with good geniuses round her; and her naturally fine
  disposition made the task of each a sweet and easy one。 Such manly
  tenderness; such gravity lighted by smiles; such liberty without
  danger; such perpetual care of soul and body made little Ursula; when
  nine years of age; a well…trained child and delightful to behold。
  Unhappily; this paternal trinity was broken up。 The old captain died
  the following year; leaving the abbe and the doctor to finish his
  work; of which; however; he had accomplished the most difficult part。
  Flowers will bloom of themselves if grown in a soil thus prepared。 The
  old gentleman had laid by for ten years past one thousand francs a
  year; that he might leave ten thousand to his little Ursula; and keep
  a place in her memory during her whole life。 In his will; the wording
  of which was very touching; he begged his legatee to spend the four or
  five hundred francs that came of her little capital exclusively on her
  dress。 When the justice of the peace applied the seals to the effects
  of his old friend; they found in a small room; which the captain had
  allowed no one to enter; a quantity of toys; many of them broken;
  while all had been used;toys of a past generation; reverently
  preserved; which Monsieur Bongrand was; according to the captain's
  last wishes; to burn with his own hands。
  About this time it was that Ursula made her first communion。 The abbe
  employed one whole year in duly instructing the young girl; whose mind
  and heart; each well developed; yet judiciously balancing one another;
  needed a special spiritual nourishment。 The initiation into a
  knowledge of divine things which he gave her was such that Ursula grew
  into the pious and mystical young girl whose character rose above all
  vicissitudes; and whose heart was enabled to conquer adversity。 Then
  began a secret struggle between the old man wedded to unbelief and the
  young girl full of faith;long unsuspected by her who incited it;
  the result of which had now stirred the whole town; and was destined
  to have great influence on Ursula's future by rousing against her the
  antagonism of the doctor's heirs。
  During the first six months of the year 1824 Ursula spent all her
  mornings at the parsonage。 The old doctor guessed the abbe's secret
  hope。 He meant to make Ursula an unanswerable argument against him。
  The old unbeliever; loved by his godchild as though she were his own
  daughter; would surely believe in such artless candor; he could not
  fail to be persuaded by the beautiful effects of religion on the soul
  of a child; where love was like those trees of Eastern climes; bearing
  both flowers and fruit; always fragrant; always fertile。 A beautiful
  life is more powerful than the strongest argument。 It is impossible to
  resist the charms of certain sights。 The doctor's eyes were wet; he
  knew not how or why; when he saw the child of his heart starting for
  the church; wearing a frock of white crape; and shoes of white satin;
  her hair bound with a fillet fastened at the side with a knot of white
  ribbon; and rippling upon her shoulders; her eyes lighted by the star
  of a first hope; hurrying; tall and beautiful; to a first union; and
  loving her godfather better since her soul had risen towards God。 When
  the doctor perceived that the thought of immortality was nourishing
  that spirit (until then within the confines of childhood) as the sun
  gives life to the earth without knowing why; he felt sorry that he
  remained at home alone。
  Sitting on the steps of his portico he kept his eyes fixed on the iron
  railing of the gate through which the child had disappeared; saying as
  she left him: 〃Why won't you come; godfather? how can I be happy
  without you?〃 Though shaken to his very center; the pride of the
  Encyclopedist did not as yet give way。 He walked slowly in a direction
  from which he could see the procession of communicants; and
  distinguish his little Ursula brilliant with exaltation beneath her
  veil。 She gave him an inspired look; which knocked; in the stony
  regions of his heart; on the corner closed to God。 But still the old
  deist held firm。 He said to himself: 〃Mummeries! if there be a maker
  of worlds; imagine the organizer of infinitude concerning himself with
  such trifles!〃 He laughed as he continued his walk along the heights
  which look down upon the road to the Gatinais; where the bells were
  ringing a joyous peal that told of the joy of families。
  The noise of backgammon is intolerable to persons who do not know the
  game; which is really one of the most difficult that was ever
  invented。 Not to annoy his godchild; the extreme delicacy of whose
  organs and nerves could not bear; he thought; without injury the noise
  and the exclamations she did not know the meaning of; the abbe; old
  Jordy while living; and the doctor always waited till their child was
  in bed before they began their favorite game。 Sometimes the visitors
  came early when she was out for a walk; and the game would be going on
  when she returned; then she resigned herself with infinite grace and
  took her seat at the window with her work。 She had a repugnance to the
  game; which is really in the beginning very hard and unconquerable to
  some minds; so that unless it be learned in youth it is almost
  impossible to take it up in after life。
  The night of her first communion; when Ursula came into the salon
  where her godfather was sitting alone; she put the backgammon…board
  before him。
  〃Whose throw shall it be?〃 she asked。
  〃Ursula;〃 said the doctor; 〃isn't it a sin to make fun of your
  godfather the day of your first communion?〃
  〃I am not making fun of you;〃 she said; sitting down。 〃I want to give
  you some pleasureyou who are always on the look…out for mine。 When
  Monsieur Chaperon was pleased with me he gave me a lesson in
  backgammon; and he has given me so many that now I am quite strong
  enough to beat youyou shall not deprive yourself any longer for me。
  I have conquered all difficulties; and now I like the noise of the
  game。〃
  Ursula won。 The abbe had slipped in to enjoy his triumph。 The next
  day Minoret; who had always refused to let Ursula learn music; sent to
  Paris for a piano; made arrangements at Fontainebleau for a teacher;
  and submitted to the annoyance that her constant practicing was to
  him。 One of poor Jordy's predictions was fulfilled;the girl became
  an excellent musician。 The doctor; proud of her talent; had lately
  sent to Paris for a master; an old German named Schmucke; a
  distinguished professor who came once a week; the doctor willingly
  paying for an art which he had formerly declared to be useless in a
  household。 Unbelievers do not like musica celestial language;
  developed by Catholicism; which has taken the names of the seven notes
  from one of the church hymns; every note being the first syllable of
  the seven first lines in the hymn to Saint John。
  The impression produced on the doctor by Ursula's first communion
  though keen was not lasting。 The calm and sweet contentment which
  prayer and the exercise of resolution produced in that young soul had
  not their due influence upon him。 Having no reasons for remorse or
  repentance himself; he enjoyed a serene peace。 Doing his own
  benefactions without hope of a celestial harvest; he thought himself
  on a nobler plane than religious men whom he always accused for
  making; as he called it; terms with God。
  〃But;〃 the abbe would say to him; 〃if all men would be so; you must