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作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9322
  (who is in the community now) was blamed because when she left her
  family and。。。 devoted。。。 herself; she wrote to her father and mother
  that she wouldn't go on living conventionally and was entering on a
  free marriage and it was said that that was too harsh; that she
  might have spared them and have written more kindly。 I think that's
  all nonsense and there's no need of softness; on the contrary;
  what's wanted is protest。 Varents had been married seven years; she
  abandoned her two children; she told her husband straight out in a
  letter: 'I have realised that I cannot be happy with you。 I can
  never forgive you that you have deceived me by concealing from me that
  there is another organisation of society by means of the
  communities。 I have only lately learned it from a great…hearted man to
  whom I have given myself and with whom I am establishing a
  community。 I speak plainly because I consider it dishonest to
  deceive you。 Do as you think best。 Do not hope to get me back; you are
  too late。 I hope you will be happy。' That's how letters like that
  ought to be written!〃
  〃Is that Terebyeva the one you said had made a third free marriage?〃
  〃No; it's only the second; really! But what if it were the fourth;
  what if it were the fifteenth; that's all nonsense! And if ever I
  regretted the death of my father and mother; it is now; and I
  sometimes think if my parents were living what a protest I would
  have aimed at them! I would have done something on purpose。。。 I
  would have shown them! I would have astonished them! I am really sorry
  there is no one!〃
  〃To surprise! He…he! Well; be that as you will;〃 Pyotr Petrovitch
  interrupted; 〃but tell me this; do you know the dead man's daughter;
  the delicate…looking little thing? It's true what they say about
  her; isn't it?〃
  〃What of it? I think; that is; it is my own personal conviction;
  that this is the normal condition of women。 Why not? I mean;
  distinguons。 In our present society; it is not altogether normal;
  because it is compulsory; but in the future society; it will be
  perfectly normal; because it will be voluntary。 Even as it is; she was
  quite right: she was suffering and that was her asset; so to speak;
  her capital which she had a perfect right to dispose of。 Of course; in
  the future society; there will be no need of assets; but her part will
  have another significance; rational and in harmony with her
  environment。 As to Sofya Semyonovna personally; I regard her action as
  a vigorous protest against the organization of society; and I
  respect her deeply for it; I rejoice indeed when I look at her!〃
  〃I was told that you got her turned out of these lodgings。〃
  Lebeziatnikov was enraged。
  〃That's another slander;〃 he yelled。 〃It was not so at all! That was
  all Katerina Ivanovna's invention; for she did not understand! And I
  never made love to Sofya Semyonovna! I was simply developing her;
  entirely disinterestedly; trying to rouse her to protest。。。。 All I
  wanted was her protest and Sofya Semyonovna could not have remained
  here anyway!〃
  〃Have you asked her to join your community?〃
  〃You keep on laughing and very inappropriately; allow me to tell
  you。 You don't understand! There is no such role in a community。 The
  community is established that there should be no such roles。 In a
  community; such a role is essentially transformed and what is stupid
  here is sensible there; what; under present conditions; is unnatural
  becomes perfectly natural in the community。 It all depends on the
  environment。 It's all the environment and man himself is nothing。
  And I am on good terms with Sofya Semyonovna to this day; which is a
  proof that she never regarded me as having wronged her。 I am trying
  now to attract her to the community; but on quite; quite a different
  footing。 What are you laughing at? We are trying to establish a
  community of our own; a special one; on a broader basis。 We have
  gone further in our convictions。 We reject more! And meanwhile I'm
  still developing Sofya Semyonovna。 She has a beautiful; beautiful
  character!〃
  〃And you take advantage of her fine character; eh? He…he!〃
  〃No; no! Oh; no! On the contrary。〃
  〃Oh; on the contrary! He…he…he! A queer thing to say!〃
  〃Believe me! Why should I disguise it? In fact; I feel it strange
  myself how timid; chaste and modern she is with me!〃
  〃And you; of course; are developing her。。。 he…he! trying to prove to
  her that all that modesty is nonsense?〃
  〃Not at all; not at all! How coarsely; how stupidly… excuse me
  saying so… you misunderstand the word development! Good heavens;
  how。。。 crude you still are! We are striving for the freedom of women
  and you have only one idea in your head。。。。 Setting aside the
  general question of chastity and feminine modesty as useless in
  themselves and indeed prejudices; I fully accept her chastity with me;
  because that's for her to decide。 Of course if she were to tell me
  herself that she wanted me; I should think myself very lucky;
  because I like the girl very much; but as it is; no one has ever
  treated her more courteously than I; with more respect for her
  dignity。。。 I wait in hopes; that's all!〃
  〃You had much better make her a present of something。 I bet you
  never thought of that。〃
  〃You don't understand; as I've told you already! Of course; she is
  in such a position; but it's another question。 Quite another question!
  You simply despise her。 Seeing a fact which you mistakenly consider
  deserving of contempt; you refuse to take a humane view of a fellow
  creature。 You don't know what a character she is! I am only sorry that
  of late she has quite given up reading and borrowing books。 I used
  to lend them to her。 I am sorry; too; that with all the energy and
  resolution in protesting… which she has already shown once… she has
  little self…reliance; little; so to say; independence; so as to
  break free from certain prejudices and certain foolish ideas。 Yet
  she thoroughly understands some questions; for instance about
  kissing of hands; that is; that it's an insult to a woman for a man to
  kiss her hand; because it's a sign of inequality。 We had a debate
  about it and I described it to her。 She listened attentively to an
  account of the workmen's associations in France; too。 Now I am
  explaining the question of coming into the room in the future
  society。〃
  〃And what's that; pray?〃
  〃We had a debate lately on the question: Has a member of the
  community the right to enter another member's room; whether man or
  woman at any time。。。 and we decided that he has!〃
  〃It might be at an inconvenient moment; he…he!〃
  Lebeziatnikov was really angry。
  〃You are always thinking of something unpleasant;〃 he cried with
  aversion。 〃Tfoo! How vexed I am that when I was expounding our system;
  I referred prematurely to the question of personal privacy! It's
  always a stumbling…block to people like you; they turn into ridicule
  before they understand it。 And how proud they are of it; too! Tfoo!
  I've often maintained that that question should not be approached by a
  novice till he has a firm faith in the system。 And tell me; please;
  what do you find so shameful even in cesspools? I should be the
  first to be ready to clean out any cesspool you like。 And it's not a
  question of self…sacrifice; it's simply work; honourable; useful
  work which is as good as any other and much better than the work of
  a Raphael and a Pushkin; because i