第 126 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9322
  a brush; his wife; a woman with an everlastingly scared expression;
  and several open…mouthed children with wonder…struck faces。 Among
  these; Svidrigailov suddenly made his appearance。 Raskolnikov looked
  at him with surprise; not understanding where he had come from and not
  having noticed him in the crowd。 A doctor and priest wore spoken of。
  The official whispered to Raskolnikov that he thought it was too
  late now for the doctor; but he ordered him to be sent for。
  Kapernaumov ran himself。
  Meanwhile Katerina Ivanovna had regained her breath。 The bleeding
  ceased for a time。 She looked with sick but intent and penetrating
  eyes at Sonia; who stood pale and trembling; wiping the sweat from her
  brow with a handkerchief。 At last she asked to be raised。 They sat her
  up on the bed; supporting her on both sides。
  〃Where are the children?〃 she said in a faint voice。 〃You've brought
  them; Polenka? Oh the sillies! Why did you run away。。。。 Och!〃
  Once more her parched lips were covered with blood。 She moved her
  eyes; looking about her。
  〃So that's how you live; Sonia! Never once have I been in your
  room。〃
  She looked at her with a face of suffering。
  〃We have been your ruin; Sonia。 Polenka; Lida; Kolya; come here!
  Well; here they are; Sonia; take them all! I hand them over to you;
  I've had enough! The ball is over。 (Cough!) Lay me down; let me die in
  peace。〃
  They laid her back on the pillow。
  〃What; the priest? I don't want him。 You haven't got a rouble to
  spare。 I have no sins。 God must forgive me without that。 He knows
  how I have suffered。。。。 And if He won't forgive me; I don't care!〃
  She sank more and more into uneasy delirium。 At times she shuddered;
  turned her eyes from side to side; recognised every one for a
  minute; but at once sank into delirium again。 Her breathing was hoarse
  and difficult; there was a sort of rattle in her throat。
  〃I said to him; your excellency;〃 she ejaculated; gasping after each
  word。 〃That Amalia Ludwigovna; ah! Lida; Kolya; hands on your hips;
  make haste! Glissez; glissez! pas de basque! Tap with your heels; be a
  graceful child!
  …
  Du hast Diamanten und Perlen
  …
  What next? That's the thing to sing。
  …
  Du hast die schonsten Augen
  Madchen; was willst du mehr?
  …
  〃What an idea! Was willst du mehr。 What things the fool invents! Ah;
  yes!
  …
  In the heat of midday in the vale of Dagestan。
  …
  〃Ah; how I loved it! I loved that song to distraction; Polenka! Your
  father; you know; used to sing it when we were engaged。。。。 Oh those
  days! Oh that's the thing for us to sing! How does it go? I've
  forgotten。 Remind me! How was it?〃
  She was violently excited and tried to sit up。 At last; in a
  horribly hoarse; broken voice; she began; shrieking and gasping at
  every word; with a look of growing terror。
  〃In the heat of midday!。。。 in the vale!。。。 of Dagestan!。。。 With lead
  in my breast!。。。〃
  〃Your excellency!〃 she wailed suddenly with a heartrending scream
  and a flood of tears; 〃protect the orphans! You have been their
  father's guest。。。 one may say aristocratic。。。。〃 She started; regaining
  consciousness; and gazed at all with a sort of terror; but at once
  recognised Sonia。
  〃Sonia; Sonia!〃 she articulated softly and caressingly; as though
  surprised to find her there。 〃Sonia darling; are you here; too?〃
  They lifted her up again。
  〃Enough! It's over! Farewell; poor thing! I am done for! I am
  broken!〃 she cried with vindictive despair; and her head fell
  heavily back on the pillow。
  She sank into unconsciousness again; but this time it did not last
  long。 Her pale; yellow; wasted face dropped back; her mouth fell open;
  her leg moved convulsively; she gave a deep; deep sigh and died。
  Sonia fell upon her; flung her arms about her; and remained
  motionless with her head pressed to the dead woman's wasted bosom。
  Polenka threw herself at her mother's feet; kissing them and weeping
  violently。 Though Kolya and Lida did not understand what had happened;
  they had a feeling that it was something terrible; they put their
  hands on each other's little shoulders; stared straight at one another
  and both at once opened their mouths and began screaming。 They were
  both still in their fancy dress; one in a turban; the other in the cap
  with the ostrich feather。
  And how did 〃the certificate of merit〃 come to be on the bed
  beside Katerina Ivanovna? It lay there by the pillow: Raskolnikov
  saw it。
  He walked away to the window。 Lebeziatnikov skipped up to him。
  〃She is dead;〃 he said。
  〃Rodion Romanovitch; I must have two words with you;〃 said
  Svidrigailov; coming up to them。
  Lebeziatnikov at once made room for him and delicately withdrew。
  Svidrigailov drew Raskolnikov further away。
  〃I will undertake all the arrangements; the funeral and that。 You
  know it's a question of money and; as I told you; I have plenty to
  spare。 I will put those two little ones and Polenka into some good
  orphan asylum; and I will settle fifteen hundred roubles to be paid to
  each on coming of age; so that Sofya Semyonovna need have no anxiety
  about them。 And I will pull her out of the mud too; for she is a
  good girl; isn't she? So tell Avdotya Romanovna that that is how I
  am spending her ten thousand。〃
  〃What is your motive for such benevolence?〃 asked Raskolnikov。
  〃Ah! you sceptical person!〃 laughed Svidrigailov。 〃I told you I
  had no need of that money。 Won't you admit that it's simply done
  from humanity? She wasn't 'a louse;' you know〃 (he pointed to the
  corner where the dead woman lay); 〃was she; like some old pawnbroker
  woman? Come; you'll agree; is Luzhin to go on living; and doing wicked
  things or is she to die? And if I didn't help them; Polenka would go
  the same way。〃
  He said this with an air of a sort of gay winking slyness; keeping
  his eyes fixed on Raskolnikov; who turned white and cold; hearing
  his own phrases; spoken to Sonia。 He quickly stepped back and looked
  wildly at Svidrigailov。
  〃How do you know?〃 he whispered; hardly able to breathe。
  〃Why; I lodge here at Madame Resslich's; the other side of the wall。
  Here is Kapernaumov; and there lives Madame Resslich; an old and
  devoted friend of mine。 I am a neighbour。〃
  〃You?〃
  〃Yes;〃 continued Svidrigailov; shaking with laughter。 〃I assure
  you on my honour; dear Rodion Romanovitch; that you have interested me
  enormously。 I told you we should become friends; I foretold it。
  Well; here we have。 And you will see what an accommodating person I
  am。 You'll see that you can get on