第 110 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9321
  anxious that every one should be aware of it。 For every trifle he
  ran to Katerina Ivanovna; even hunting her out at the bazaar; at every
  instant called her 〃Pani。〃 She was heartily sick of him before the
  end; though she had declared at first that she could not have got on
  without this 〃serviceable and magnanimous man。〃 It was one of Katerina
  Ivanovna's characteristics to paint every one she met in the most
  glowing colours。 Her praises were so exaggerated as sometimes to be
  embarrassing; she would invent various circumstances to the credit
  of her new acquaintance and quite genuinely believe in their
  reality。 Then all of a sudden she would be disillusioned and would
  rudely and contemptuously repulse the person she had only a few
  hours before been literally adoring。 She was naturally of a gay;
  lively and peace…loving disposition; but from continual failures and
  misfortunes she had come to desire so keenly that all should live in
  peace and joy and should not dare to break the peace; that the
  slightest jar; the smallest disaster reduced her almost to frenzy; and
  she would pass in an instant from the brightest hopes and fancies to
  cursing her fate and raving; and knocking her head against the wall。
  Amalia Ivanovna; too; suddenly acquired extraordinary importance
  in Katerina Ivanovna's eyes and was treated by her with
  extraordinary respect; probably only because Amalia Ivanovna had
  thrown herself heart and soul into the preparations。 She had
  undertaken to lay the table; to provide the linen; crockery; &c。;
  and to cook the dishes in her kitchen; and Katerina Ivanovna had
  left it all in her hands and gone herself to the cemetery。
  Everything had been well done。 Even the tablecloth was nearly clean;
  the crockery; knives; forks and glasses were; of course; of all shapes
  and patterns; lent by different lodgers; but the table was properly
  laid at the time fixed; and Amalia Ivanovna; feeling she had done
  her work well; had put on a black silk dress and a cap with new
  mourning ribbons and met the returning party with some pride。 This
  pride; though justifiable; displeased Katerina Ivanovna for some
  reason: 〃as though the table could not have been laid except by Amalia
  Ivanovna!〃 She disliked the cap with new ribbons; too。 〃Could she be
  stuck up; the stupid German; because she was mistress of the house;
  and had consented as a favour to help her poor lodgers! As a favour!
  Fancy that! Katerina Ivanovna's father who had been a colonel and
  almost a governor had sometimes had the table set for forty persons;
  and then any one like Amalia Ivanovna; or rather Ludwigovna; would not
  have been allowed into the kitchen。〃
  Katerina Ivanovna; however; put off expressing her feelings for
  the time and contented herself with treating her coldly; though she
  decided inwardly that she would certainly have to put Amalia
  Ivanovna down and set her in her proper place; for goodness only
  knew what she was fancying herself。 Katerina Ivanovna was irritated
  too by the fact that hardly any of the lodgers invited had come to the
  funeral; except the Pole who had just managed to run into the
  cemetery; while to the memorial dinner the poorest and most
  insignificant of them had turned up; the wretched creatures; many of
  them not quite sober。 The older and more respectable of them all; as
  if by common consent; stayed away。 Pyotr Petrovitch Luzhin; for
  instance; who might be said to be the most respectable of all the
  lodgers; did not appear; though Katerina Ivanovna had the evening
  before told all the world; that is Amalia Ivanovna; Polenka; Sonia and
  the Pole; that he was the most generous; noble…hearted man with a
  large property and vast connections; who had been a friend of her
  first husband's; and a guest in her father's house; and that he had
  promised to use all his influence to secure her a considerable
  pension。 It must be noted that when Katerina Ivanovna exalted any
  one's connections and fortune; it was without any ulterior motive;
  quite disinterestedly; for the mere pleasure of adding to the
  consequence of the person praised。 Probably 〃taking his cue〃 from
  Luzhin; 〃that contemptible wretch Lebeziatnikov had not turned up
  either。 What did he fancy himself? He was only asked out of kindness
  and because he was sharing the same room with Pyotr Petrovitch and was
  a friend of his; so that it would have been awkward not to invite
  him。〃
  Among those who failed to appear were 〃the genteel lady and her
  old…maidish daughter;〃 who had only been lodgers in the house for
  the last fortnight; but had several times complained of the noise
  and uproar in Katerina Ivanovna's room; especially when Marmeladov had
  come back drunk。 Katerina Ivanovna heard this from Amalia Ivanovna
  who; quarrelling with Katerina Ivanovna; and threatening to turn the
  whole family out of doors; had shouted at her that they 〃were not
  worth the foot〃 of the honourable lodgers whom they were disturbing。
  Katerina Ivanovna determined now to invite this lady and her daughter;
  〃whose foot she was not worth;〃 and who had turned away haughtily when
  she casually met them; so that they might know that 〃she was more
  noble in her thoughts and feelings and did not harbour malice;〃 and
  might see that she was not accustomed to her way of living。 She had
  proposed to make this clear to them at dinner with allusions to her
  late father's governorship; and also at the same time to hint that
  it was exceedingly stupid of them to turn away on meeting her。 The fat
  colonel…major (he was really a discharged officer of low rank) was
  also absent; but it appeared that he had been 〃not himself〃 for the
  last two days。 The party consisted of the Pole; a wretched looking
  clerk with a spotty face and a greasy coat; who had not a word to
  say for himself; and smelt abominably; a deaf and almost blind old man
  who had once been in the post office and who had been from
  immemorial ages maintained by some one at Amalia Ivanovna's。
  A retired clerk of the commissariat department came; too; he was
  drunk; had a loud and most unseemly laugh and only fancy… was
  without a waistcoat! One of the visitors sat straight down to the
  table without even greeting Katerina Ivanovna。 Finally one person
  having no suit appeared in his dressing gown; but this was too much;
  and the efforts of Amalia Ivanovna and the Pole succeeded in
  removing him。 The Pole brought with him; however; two other Poles
  who did not live at Amalia Ivanovna's and whom no one had seen here
  before。 All this irritated Katerina Ivanovna intensely。 〃For whom
  had they made all these preparations then?〃 To make room for the
  visitors the children had not even been laid for at the table; but the
  two little ones were sitting on a bench in the furthest corner with
  their dinner laid on a box; while Polenka as a big girl had to look
  after them; feed them; and keep their noses wiped like well…bred
  children's。
  Katerina Ivanovna; in fact; could hardly help meeting her guests
  with increased dignity; and even haughtiness。 She stared at some of
  them with special severity; and loftily invited them to take their
  seats。 Rushing to the conclusion that Amalia Ivanovna must be
  responsible for those who were absent; she began treating her with
  extreme nonchalance; which the latter promptly observed and
  resented。 Such a beginning was no good omen for the end。 All were
  seated at last。
  Raskolnikov came in almost at the moment of their return from the
  cemetery。 Katerina Ivanovna was greatly delighted to see him; in the
  first place; because he was the one 〃educated visitor; and; as every
  one knew; was in two years to take a professorship in the university;〃
  and secondly because he immediately and respectfully apologised for
  having been unable to be at the funeral。 She positively pounced upon
  him; and made him sit on her left