第 105 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9322
  he had made in temper; through impulsiveness and irritability。。。。
  Moreover; all that morning one unpleasantness followed another。 He
  even found a hitch awaiting him in his legal case in the Senate。 He
  was particularly irritated by the owner of the flat which had been
  taken in view of his approaching marriage and was being redecorated at
  his own expense; the owner; a rich German tradesman; would not
  entertain the idea of breaking the contract which had just been signed
  and insisted on the full forfeit money; though Pyotr Petrovitch
  would be giving him back the flat practically redecorated。 In the same
  way the upholsterers refused to return a single rouble of the
  instalment paid for the furniture purchased but not yet removed to the
  flat。
  〃Am I to get married simply for the sake of the furniture?〃 Pyotr
  Petrovitch ground his teeth and at the same time once more he had a
  gleam of desperate hope。 〃Can all that be really so irrevocably
  over? Is it no use to make another effort?〃 The thought of Dounia sent
  a voluptuous pang through his heart。 He endured anguish at that
  moment; and if it had been possible to slay Raskolnikov instantly by
  wishing it; Pyotr Petrovitch would promptly have uttered the wish。
  〃It was my mistake; too; not to have given them money;〃 he
  thought; as he returned dejectedly to Lebeziatnikov's room; 〃and why
  on earth was I such a Jew? It was false economy! I meant to keep
  them without a penny so that they should turn to me as their
  providence; and look at them! Foo! If I'd spent some fifteen hundred
  roubles on them for the trousseau and presents; on knick…knacks;
  dressing…cases; jewellery; materials; and all that sort of trash
  from Knopp's and the English shop; my position would have been
  better and。。。 stronger! They could not have refused me so easily! They
  are the sort of people that would feel bound to return money and
  presents if they broke it off; and they would find it hard to do it!
  And their consciences would prick them: how can we dismiss a man who
  has hitherto been so generous and delicate?。。。。 H'm! I've made a
  blunder。〃
  And grinding his teeth again; Pyotr Petrovitch called himself a
  fool… but not aloud; of course。
  He returned home; twice as irritated and angry as before。 The
  preparations for the funeral dinner at Katerina Ivanovna's excited his
  curiosity as he passed。 He had heard about it the day before; he
  fancied; indeed; that he had been invited; but absorbed in his own
  cares he had paid no attention。 Inquiring of Madame Lippevechsel who
  was busy laying the table while Katerina Ivanovna was away at the
  cemetery; he heard that the entertainment was to be a great affair;
  that all the lodgers had been invited; among them some who had not
  known the dead man; that even Andrey Semyonovitch Lebeziatnikov was
  invited in spite of his previous quarrel with Katerina Ivanovna;
  that he; Pyotr Petrovitch; was not only invited; but was eagerly
  expected as he was the most important of the lodgers。 Amalia
  Ivanovna herself had been invited with great ceremony in spite of
  the recent unpleasantness; and so she was very busy with
  preparations and was taking a positive pleasure in them; she was
  moreover dressed up to the nines; all in new black silk; and she was
  proud of it。 All this suggested an idea to Pyotr Petrovitch and he
  went into his room; or rather Lebeziatnikov's; somewhat thoughtful。 He
  had learnt that Raskolnikov was to be one of the guests。
  Andrey Semyonovitch had been at home all the morning。 The attitude
  of Pyotr Petrovitch to this gentleman was strange; though perhaps
  natural。 Pyotr Petrovitch had despised and hated him from the day he
  came to stay with him and at the same time he seemed somewhat afraid
  of him。 He had not come to stay with him on his arrival in
  Petersburg simply from parsimony; though that had been perhaps his
  chief object。 He had heard of Andrey Semyonovitch; who had once been
  his ward; as a leading young progressive who was taking an important
  part in certain interesting circles; the doings of which were a legend
  in the provinces。 It had impressed Pyotr Petrovitch。 These powerful
  omniscient circles who despised every one and showed every one up
  had long inspired in him a peculiar but quite vague alarm。 He had not;
  of course; been able to form even an approximate notion of what they
  meant。 He; like every one; had heard that there were; especially in
  Petersburg; progressives of some sort; nihilists and so on; and;
  like many people; he exaggerated and distorted the significance of
  those words to an absurd degree。 What for many years past he had
  feared more than anything was being shown up and this was the chief
  ground for his continual uneasiness at the thought of transferring his
  business to Petersburg。 He was afraid of this as little children are
  sometimes panic…stricken。 Some years before; when he was just entering
  on his own career; he had come upon two cases in which rather
  important personages in the province; patrons of his; had been cruelly
  shown up。 One instance had ended in great scandal for the person
  attacked and the other had very nearly ended in serious trouble。 For
  this reason Pyotr Petrovitch intended to go into the subject as soon
  as he reached Petersburg and; if necessary; to anticipate
  contingencies by seeking the favour of 〃our younger generation。〃 He
  relied on Andrey Semyonovitch for this and before his visit to
  Raskolnikov he had succeeded in picking up some current phrases。 He
  soon discovered that Andrey Semyonovitch was a commonplace
  simpleton; but that by no means reassured Pyotr Petrovitch。 Even if he
  had been certain that all the progressives were fools like him; it
  would not have allayed his uneasiness。 All the doctrines; the ideas;
  the systems with which Andrey Semyonovitch pestered him had no
  interest for him。 He had his own object… he simply wanted to find
  out at once what was happening here。 Had these people any power or
  not? Had he anything to fear from them? Would they expose any
  enterprise of his? And what precisely was now the object of their
  attacks? Could he somehow make up to them and get round them if they
  really were powerful? Was this the thing to do or not? Couldn't he
  gain something through them? In fact hundreds of questions presented
  themselves。
  Andrey Semyonovitch was an anaemic; scrofulous little man; with
  strangely flaxen mutton…chop whiskers of which he was very proud。 He
  was a clerk and had almost always something wrong with his eyes。 He
  was rather soft…hearted; but self…confident and sometimes extremely
  conceited in speech which had an absurd effect; incongruous with his
  little figure。 He was one of the lodgers most respected by Amalia
  Ivanovna; for he did not get drunk and paid regularly for his
  lodgings。 Andrey Semyonovitch really was rather stupid; he attached
  himself to the cause of progress and 〃our younger generation〃 from
  enthusiasm。 He was one of the numerous and varied legion of
  dullards; of half…animate abortions; conceited; half…educated
  coxcombs; who attach themselves to the idea most in fashion only to
  vulgarise it and who caricature every cause they serve; however
  sincerely。
  Though Lebeziatnikov was so good…natured; he; too; was beginning
  to dislike Pyotr Petrovitch。 This happened on both sides
  unconsciously。 However simple Andrey Semyonovitch might be; he began
  to see that Pyotr Petrovitch was duping him and secretly despising
  him; and that 〃he was not the right sort of man。〃 He had tried
  expounding to him the system of Fourier and the Darwinian theory;
  but of late Pyotr Petrovitch began to listen too sarcastically and
  even to be rude。 The fact was he had begun instinctively to guess that
  Lebeziatnikov was not merely a com