第 89 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9321
  family; and for that object added coarse expressions about the conduct
  of a girl whom you don't know。 All that is mean slander。〃
  〃Excuse me; sir;〃 said Luzhin; quivering with fury。 〃I enlarged upon
  your qualities and conduct in my letter solely in response to your
  sister's and mother's inquiries how I found you and what impression
  you made on me。 As for what you've alluded to in my letter; be so good
  as to point out one word of falsehood; show; that is; that you
  didn't throw away your money; and that there are not worthless persons
  in that family; however unfortunate。〃
  〃To my thinking; you with all your virtues are not worth the
  little finger of that unfortunate girl at whom you throw stones。〃
  〃Would you go so far then as to let her associate with your mother
  and sister?〃
  〃I have done so already; if you care to know。 I made her sit down
  to…day with mother and Dounia。〃
  〃Rodya!〃 cried Pulcheria Alexandrovna。 Dounia crimsoned; Razumihin
  knitted his brows。 Luzhin smiled with lofty sarcasm。
  〃You may see for yourself; Avdotya Romanovna;〃 he said; 〃whether
  it is possible for us to agree。 I hope now that this question is at an
  end; once and for all。 I will withdraw; that I may not hinder the
  pleasures of family intimacy; and the discussion of secrets。〃 He got
  up from his chair and took his hat。 〃But in withdrawing; I venture
  to request that for the future I may be spared similar meetings;
  and; so to say; compromises。 I appeal particularly to you; honoured
  Pulcheria Alexandrovna; on this subject; the more as my letter was
  addressed to you and to no one else。〃
  Pulcheria Alexandrovna was a little offended。
  〃You seem to think we are completely under your authority; Pyotr
  Petrovitch。 Dounia has told you the reason your desire was
  disregarded; she had the best intentions。 And indeed you write as
  though you were laying commands upon me。 Are we to consider every
  desire of yours as a command? Let me tell you on the contrary that you
  ought to show particular delicacy and consideration for us now;
  because we have thrown up everything; and have come here relying on
  you; and so we are in any case in a sense in your hands。〃
  〃That is not quite true; Pulcheria Alexandrovna; especially at the
  present moment; when the news has come of Marfa Petrovna's legacy;
  which seems indeed very apropos; judging from the new tone you take to
  me;〃 he added sarcastically。
  〃Judging from that remark; we may certainly presume that you were
  reckoning on our helplessness;〃 Dounia observed irritably。
  〃But now in any case I cannot reckon on it; and I particularly
  desire not to hinder your discussion of the secret proposals of Arkady
  Ivanovitch Svidrigailov; which he has entrusted to your brother and
  which have; I perceive; a great and possibly a very agreeable interest
  for you。〃
  〃Good heavens!〃 cried Pulcheria Alexandrovna。
  Razumihin could not sit still on his chair。
  〃Aren't you ashamed now; sister?〃 asked Raskolnikov。
  〃I am ashamed; Rodya;〃 said Dounia。 〃Pyotr Petrovitch; go away;〃 she
  turned to him; white with anger。
  Pyotr Petrovitch had apparently not at all expected such a
  conclusion。 He had too much confidence in himself; in his power and in
  the helplessness of his victims。 He could not believe it even now。
  He turned pale; and his lips quivered。
  〃Avdotyo Romanovna; if I go out of this door now; after such a
  dismissal; then; you may reckon on it; I will never come back。
  Consider what you are doing。 My word is not to be shaken。〃
  〃What insolence!〃 cried Dounia; springing up from her seat。 〃I don't
  want you to come back again。〃
  〃What! So that's how it stands!〃 cried Luzhin; utterly unable to the
  last moment to believe in the rupture and so completely thrown out
  of his reckoning now。 〃So that's how it stands! But do you know;
  Avdotya Romanovna; that I might protest?〃
  〃What right have you to speak to her like that?〃 Pulcheria
  Alexandrovna intervened hotly。 〃And what can you protest about? What
  rights have you? Am I to give my Dounia to a man like you? Go away;
  leave us altogether! We are to blame for having agreed to a wrong
  action; and I above all。。。。〃
  〃But you have bound me; Pulcheria Alexandrovna;〃 Luzhin stormed in a
  frenzy; 〃by your promise; and now you deny it and。。。 besides。。。 I have
  been led on account of that into expenses。。。。〃
  This last complaint was so characteristic of Pyotr Petrovitch;
  that Raskolnikov; pale with anger and with the effort of restraining
  it; could not help breaking into laughter。 But Pulcheria
  Alexandrovna was furious。
  〃Expenses? What expenses? Are you speaking of our trunk? But the
  conductor brought it for nothing for you。 Mercy on us; we have bound
  you! What are you thinking about; Pyotr Petrovitch; it was you bound
  us; hand and foot; not we!〃
  〃Enough; mother; no more please;〃 Avdotya Romanovna implored。 〃Pyotr
  Petrovitch; do be kind and go!〃
  〃I am going; but one last word;〃 he said; quite unable to control
  himself。 〃Your mamma seems to have entirely forgotten that I made up
  my mind to take you; so to speak; after the gossip of the town had
  spread all over the district in regard to your reputation。
  Disregarding public opinion for your sake and reinstating your
  reputation; I certainly might very well reckon on a fitting return;
  and might indeed look for gratitude on your part。 And my eyes have
  only now been opened! I see myself that I may have acted very; very
  recklessly in disregarding the universal verdict。。。。〃
  〃Does the fellow want his head smashed?〃 cried Razumihin; jumping
  up。
  〃You are a mean and spiteful man!〃 cried Dounia。
  〃Not a word! Not a movement!〃 cried Raskolnikov; holding Razumihin
  back; then going close up to Luzhin; 〃Kindly leave the room!〃 he
  said quietly and distinctly; 〃and not a word more or。。。〃
  Pyotr Petrovitch gazed at him for some seconds with a pale face that
  worked with anger; then he turned; went out; and rarely has any man
  carried away in his heart such vindictive hatred as he felt against
  Raskolnikov。 Him; and him alone; he blamed for everything。 It is
  noteworthy that as he went downstairs he still imagined that his
  case was perhaps not utterly lost; and that; so far as the ladies were
  concerned; all might 〃very well indeed〃 be set right again。
  Chapter Three
  THE FACT was that up to the last moment he had never expected such
  an ending; he had been overbearing to the last degree; never
  dreaming that two destitute and defenceless women could escape from
  his control。 This conviction was strengthened by his vanity and
  conceit; a conceit to the point of fatuity。 Pyotr Petrovitch; who
  had made his way up from insignificance; was morbidly given to
  self…admiration; had the highest opinion of his intelligence and
  capacities; and sometimes even gloated in solitude over his image in
  the glass。 But what he loved and valued above all was the money he had
  amassed by his labour; and by all sorts of devices: that money made
  him the equal of all who had been his superiors。
  When he had bitterly reminded Dounia that he had decided to take her
  in spite of evil report; Pyotr