第 74 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9322
  that is of the murder; you beg to inform the lawyer in charge of the
  case that such and such things belong to you; and that you desire to
  redeem them。。。 or。。。 but they will write to you。〃
  〃That's just the point; that at the present moment;〃 Raskolnikov
  tried his utmost to feign embarrassment; 〃I am not quite in funds。。。
  and even this trifling sum is beyond me。。。 I only wanted; you see; for
  the present to declare that the things are mine; and that when I
  have money。。。。〃
  〃That's no matter;〃 answered Porfiry Petrovitch; receiving his
  explanation of his pecuniary position coldly; 〃but you can; if you
  prefer; write straight to me; to say; that having been informed of the
  matter; and claiming such and such as your property; you beg。。。〃
  〃On an ordinary sheet of paper?〃 Raskolnikov interrupted eagerly;
  again interested in the financial side of the question。
  〃Oh; the most ordinary;〃 and suddenly Porfiry Petrovitch looked with
  obvious irony at him; screwing up his eyes and as it were winking at
  him。 But perhaps it was Raskolnikov's fancy; for it all lasted but a
  moment。 There was certainly something of the sort; Raskolnikov could
  have sworn he winked at him; goodness knows why。
  〃He knows;〃 flashed through his mind like lightning。
  〃Forgive my troubling you about such trifles;〃 he went on; a
  little disconcerted; 〃the things are only worth five roubles; but I
  prize them particularly for the sake of those from whom they came to
  me; and I must confess that I was alarmed when I heard。。。〃
  〃That's why you were so much struck when I mentioned to Zossimov
  that Porfiry was inquiring for every one who had pledges!〃 Razumihin
  put in with obvious intention。
  This was really unbearable。 Raskolnikov could not help glancing at
  him with a flash of vindictive anger in his black eyes; but
  immediately recollected himself。
  〃You seem to be jeering at me; brother?〃 he said to him; with a
  well…feigned irritability。 〃I dare say I do seem to you absurdly
  anxious about such trash; but you mustn't think me selfish or grasping
  for that; and these two things may be anything but trash in my eyes。 I
  told you just now that the silver watch; though it's not worth a cent;
  is the only thing left us of my father's。 You may laugh at me; but
  my mother is here;〃 he turned suddenly to Porfiry; 〃and if she
  knew;〃 he turned again hurriedly to Razumihin; carefully making his
  voice tremble; 〃that the watch was lost; she would be in despair!
  You know what women are!〃
  〃Not a bit of it! I didn't mean that at all! Quite the contrary!〃
  shouted Razumihin distressed。
  〃Was it right? Was it natural? Did I overdo it?〃 Raskolnikov asked
  himself in a tremor。 〃Why did I say that about women?〃
  〃Oh; your mother is with you?〃 Porfiry Petrovitch inquired。
  〃Yes。〃
  〃When did she come?〃
  〃Last night。〃
  Porfiry paused as though reflecting。
  〃Your things would not in any case be lost;〃 he went on calmly and
  coldly。 〃I have been expecting you here for some time。〃
  And as though that was a matter of no importance; he carefully
  offered the ash…tray to Razumihin; who was ruthlessly scattering
  cigarette ash over the carpet。 Raskolnikov shuddered; but Porfiry
  did not seem to be looking at him; and was still concerned with
  Razumihin's cigarette。
  〃What? Expecting him? Why; did you know that he had pledges
  there?〃 cried Razumihin。
  Porfiry Petrovitch addressed himself to Raskolnikov。
  〃Your things; the ring and the watch; were wrapped up together;
  and on the paper your name was legibly written in pencil; together
  with the date on which you left them with her。。。〃
  〃How observant you are!〃 Raskolnikov smiled awkwardly; doing his
  very utmost to look him straight in the face; but he failed; and
  suddenly added:
  〃I say that because I suppose there were a great many pledges。。。
  that it must be difficult to remember them all。。。。 But you remember
  them all so clearly; and。。。 and。。。〃
  〃Stupid! Feeble!〃 he thought。 〃Why did I add that?〃
  〃But we know all who had pledges; and you are the only one who
  hasn't come forward;〃 Porfiry answered with hardly perceptible irony。
  〃I haven't been quite well。〃
  〃I heard that too。 I heard; indeed; that you were in great
  distress about something。 You look pale still。〃
  〃I am not pale at all。。。。 No; I am quite well;〃 Raskolnikov
  snapped out rudely and angrily; completely changing his tone。 His
  anger was mounting; he could not repress it。 〃And in my anger I
  shall betray myself;〃 flashed through his mind again。 〃Why are they
  torturing me?〃
  〃Not quite well!〃 Razumihin caught him up。 〃What next! He was
  unconscious and delirious all yesterday。 Would you believe; Porfiry;
  as soon as our backs were turned; he dressed; though he could hardly
  stand; and gave us the slip and went off on a spree somewhere till
  midnight; delirious all the time! Would you believe it!
  Extraordinary!〃
  〃Really delirious? You don't say so!〃 Porfiry shook his head in a
  womanish way。
  〃Nonsense! Don't you believe it! But you don't believe it anyway;〃
  Raskolnikov let slip in his anger。 But Porfiry Petrovitch did not seem
  to catch those strange words。
  〃But how could you have gone out if you hadn't been delirious?〃
  Razumihin got hot suddenly。 〃What did you go out for? What was the
  object of it? And why on the sly? Were you in your senses when you did
  it? Now that all danger is over I can speak plainly。〃
  〃I was awfully sick of them yesterday。〃 Raskolnikov addressed
  Porfiry suddenly with a smile of insolent defiance; 〃I ran away from
  them to take lodgings where they wouldn't find me; and took a lot of
  money with me。 Mr。 Zametov there saw it。 I say; Mr。 Zametov; was I
  sensible or delirious yesterday; settle our dispute。〃
  He could have strangled Zametov at that moment; so hated were his
  expression and his silence to him。
  〃In my opinion you talked sensibly and even artfully; but you were
  extremely irritable;〃 Zametov pronounced dryly。
  〃And Nikodim Fomitch was telling me to…day;〃 put in Porfiry
  Petrovitch; 〃that he met you very late last night in the lodging of
  a man who had been run over。〃
  〃And there;〃 said Razumihin; 〃weren't you mad then? You gave your
  last penny to the widow for the funeral。 If you wanted to help; give
  fifteen or twenty even; but keep three roubles for yourself at
  least; but he flung away all the twenty…five at once!〃
  〃Maybe I found a treasure somewhere and you know nothing of it? So
  that's why I was liberal yesterday。。。。 Mr。 Zametov knows I've found
  a treasure! Excuse us; please; for disturbing you for half an hour
  with such trivialities;〃 he said turning to Porfiry Petrovitch; with
  trembling lips。 〃We are boring you; aren't we?〃
  〃Oh no; quite the contrary; quite the contrary! If only you knew how
  you interest me! It's interesting to look on and listen。。。 and I am
  really glad you have come forward at last。〃
  〃But you might give us some tea! My throat's dry;〃 cried Razumihin。
  〃Capital idea! Perhaps we will a