第 24 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:47      字数:9294
  nape of her neck。 As she was so short; the blow fell on the very top
  of her skull。 She cried out; but very faintly; and suddenly sank all
  of a heap on the floor; raising her hands to her head。 In one hand she
  still held 〃the pledge。〃 Then he dealt her another and another blow
  with the blunt side and on the same spot。 The blood gushed as from
  an overturned glass; the body fell back。 He stepped back; let it fall;
  and at once bent over her face; she was dead。 Her eyes seemed to be
  starting out of their sockets; the brow and the whole face were
  drawn and contorted convulsively。
  He laid the axe on the ground near the dead body and felt at once in
  her pocket (trying to avoid the streaming body)… the same right hand
  pocket from which she had taken the key on his last visit。 He was in
  full possession of his faculties; free from confusion or giddiness;
  but his hands were still trembling。 He remembered afterwards that he
  had been particularly collected and careful; trying all the time not
  to get smeared with blood。。。。 He pulled out the keys at once; they
  were all; as before; in one bunch on a steel ring。 He ran at once into
  the bedroom with them。 It was a very small room with a whole shrine of
  holy images。 Against the other wall stood a big bed; very clean and
  covered with a silk patchwork wadded quilt。 Against a third wall was a
  chest of drawers。 Strange to say; so soon as he began to fit the
  keys into the chest; so soon as he heard their jingling; a
  convulsive shudder passed over him。 He suddenly felt tempted again
  to give it all up and go away。 But that was only for an instant; it
  was too late to go back。 He positively smiled at himself; when
  suddenly another terrifying idea occurred to his mind。 He suddenly
  fancied that the old woman might be still alive and might recover
  her senses。 Leaving the keys in the chest; he ran back to the body;
  snatched up the axe and lifted it once more over the old woman; but
  did not bring it down。 There was no doubt that she was dead。 Bending
  down and examining her again more closely; he saw clearly that the
  skull was broken and even battered in on one side。 He was about to
  feel it with his finger; but drew back his hand and indeed it was
  evident without that。 Meanwhile there was a perfect pool of blood。 All
  at once he noticed a string on her neck; he tugged at it; but the
  string was strong and did not snap and besides; it was soaked with
  blood。 He tried to pull it out from the front of the dress; but
  something held it and prevented its coming。 In his impatience he
  raised the axe again to cut the string from above on the body; but did
  not dare; and with difficulty; smearing his hand and the axe in the
  blood; after two minutes' hurried effort; he cut the string and took
  it off without touching the body with the axe; he was not mistaken… it
  was a purse。 On the string were two crosses; one of Cyprus wood and
  one of copper; and an image in silver filigree; and with them a
  small greasy chamois leather purse with a steel rim and ring。 The
  purse was stuffed very full; Raskolnikov thrust it in his pocket
  without looking at it; flung the crosses on the old woman's body and
  rushed back into the bedroom; this time taking the axe with him。
  He was in terrible haste; he snatched the keys; and began trying
  them again。 But he was unsuccessful。 They would not fit in the
  locks。 It was not so much that his hands were shaking; but that he
  kept making mistakes; though he saw for instance that a key was not
  the right one and would not fit; still he tried to put it in。 Suddenly
  he remembered and realised that the big key with the deep notches;
  which was hanging there with the small keys could not possibly
  belong to the chest of drawers (on his last visit this had struck
  him); but to some strong box; and that everything perhaps was hidden
  in that box。 He left the chest of drawers; and at once felt under
  the bedstead; knowing that old women usually keep boxes under their
  beds。 And so it was; there was a good…sized box under the bed; at
  least a yard in length; with an arched lid covered with red leather
  and studded with steel nails。 The notched key fitted at once and
  unlocked it。 At the top; under a white sheet; was a coat of red
  brocade lined with hareskin; under it was a silk dress; then a shawl
  and it seemed as though there was nothing below but clothes。 The first
  thing he did was to wipe his blood…stained hands on the red brocade。
  〃It's red; and on red blood will be less noticeable;〃 the thought
  passed through his mind; then he suddenly came to himself。 〃Good
  God; am I going out of my senses?〃 he thought with terror。
  But no sooner did he touch the clothes than a gold watch slipped
  from under the fur coat。 He made haste to turn them all over。 There
  turned out to be various articles made of gold among the
  clothes…probably all pledges; unredeemed or waiting to be redeemed…
  bracelets; chains; ear…rings; pins and such things。 Some were in
  cases; others simply wrapped in newspaper; carefully and exactly
  folded; and tied round with tape。 Without any delay; he began
  filling up the pockets of his trousers and overcoat without
  examining or undoing the parcels and cases; but he had not time to
  take many。。。。
  He suddenly heard steps in the room where the old woman lay。 He
  stopped short and was still as death。 But all was quiet; so it must
  have been his fancy。 All at once he heard distinctly a faint cry; as
  though some one had uttered a low broken moan。 Then again dead silence
  for a minute or two。 He sat squatting on his heels by the box and
  waited holding his breath。 Suddenly he jumped up; seized the axe and
  ran out of the bedroom。
  In the middle of the room stood Lizaveta with a big bundle in her
  arms。 She was gazing in stupefaction at her murdered sister; white
  as a sheet and seeming not to have the strength to cry out。 Seeing him
  run out of the bedroom; she began faintly quivering all over; like a
  leaf; a shudder ran down her face; she lifted her hand; opened her
  mouth; but still did not scream。 She began slowly backing away from
  him into the corner; staring intently; persistently at him; but
  still uttered no sound; as though she could not get breath to
  scream。 He rushed at her with the axe; her mouth twitched piteously;
  as one sees babies' mouths; when they begin to be frightened; stare
  intently at what frightens them and are on the point of screaming。 And
  this hapless Lizaveta was so simple and had been so thoroughly crushed
  and scared that she did not even raise a hand to guard her face;
  though that was the most necessary and natural action at the moment;
  for the axe was raised over her face。 She only put up her empty left
  hand; but not to her face; slowly holding it out before her as
  though motioning him away。 The axe fell with the sharp edge just on
  the skull and split at one blow all the top of the head。 She fell
  heavily at once。 Raskolnikov completely lost his head; snatched up her
  bundle; dropped it again and ran into the entry。
  Fear gained more and more mastery over him; especially after this
  second; quite unexpected murder。 He longed to run away from the
  place as fast as possible。 And if at that moment he had been capable
  of seeing and reasoning more correctly; if he had been able to realise
  all the difficulties of his position; the hopelessness; the
  hideousness and the absurdity of it; if he could have understood how
  many obstacles and; perhaps; crimes he had still to overcome or to
  commit; to get out of that place and to make his way home; it is
  very possible that he would have flung up everything; and would have
  gone to give himself up; and not from fear; but from simple horror and
  loathing of what he had done。 The feeling of loathing especially
  surged up within him and grew stronger every minute。 He would not
  now have gone to the box or even into the room for anything in the
  world。