第 10 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:46      字数:9322
  your sister be insulted。 I was in despair myself; but what could I do?
  And; besides; I did not know the whole truth myself then。 What made it
  all so difficult was that Dounia received a hundred roubles in advance
  when she took the place as governess in their family; on condition
  of part of her salary being deducted every month; and so it was
  impossible to throw up the situation without repaying the debt。 This
  sum (now I can explain it all to you; my precious Rodya) she took
  chiefly in order to send you sixty roubles; which you needed so
  terribly then and which you received from us last year。 We deceived
  you then; writing that this money came from Dounia's savings; but that
  was not so; and now I tell you all about it; because; thank God;
  things have suddenly changed for the better; and that you may know how
  Dounia loves you and what a heart she has。 At first indeed Mr。
  Svidrigailov treated her very rudely and used to make disrespectful
  and jeering remarks at table。。。。 But I don't want to go into all those
  painful details; so as not to worry you for nothing when it is now all
  over。 In short; in spite of the kind and generous behaviour of Marfa
  Petrovna; Mr。 Svidrigailov's wife; and all the rest of the
  household; Dounia had a very hard time; especially when Mr。
  Svidrigailov; relapsing into his old regimental habits; was under
  the influence of Bacchus。 And how do you think it was all explained
  later on? Would you believe that the crazy fellow had conceived a
  passion for Dounia from the beginning; but had concealed it under a
  show of rudeness and contempt。 Possibly he was ashamed and horrified
  himself at his own flighty hopes; considering his years and his
  being the father of a family; and that made him angry with Dounia。 And
  possibly; too; he hoped by his rude and sneering behaviour to hide the
  truth from others。 But at last he lost all control and had the face to
  make Dounia an open and shameful proposal; promising her all sorts
  of inducements and offering; besides; to throw up everything and
  take her to another estate of his; or even abroad。 You can imagine all
  she went through! To leave her situation at once was impossible not
  only on account of the money debt; but also to spare the feelings of
  Marfa Petrovna; whose suspicions would have been aroused; and then
  Dounia would have been the cause of a rupture in the family。 And it
  would have meant a terrible scandal for Dounia too; that would have
  been inevitable。 There were various other reasons owing to which
  Dounia could not hope to escape from that awful house for another
  six weeks。 You know Dounia; of course; you know how clever she is
  and what a strong will she has。 Dounia can endure a great deal and
  even in the most difficult cases she has the fortitude to maintain her
  firmness。 She did not even write to me about everything for fear of
  upsetting me; although we were constantly in communication。 It all
  ended very unexpectedly。 Marfa Petrovna accidentally overheard her
  husband imploring Dounia in the garden; and; putting quite a wrong
  interpretation on the position; threw the blame upon her; believing
  her to be the cause of it all。 An awful scene took place between
  them on the spot in the garden; Marfa Petrovna went so far as to
  strike Dounia; refused to hear anything and was shouting at her for
  a whole hour and then gave orders that Dounia should be packed off
  at once to me in a plain peasant's cart; into which they flung all her
  things; her linen and her clothes; all pell…mell; without folding it
  up and packing it。 And a heavy shower of rain came on; too; and
  Dounia; insulted and put to shame; had to drive with a peasant in an
  open cart all the seventeen versts into town。 Only think now what
  answer could I have sent to the letter I received from you two
  months ago and what could I have written? I was in despair; I dared
  not write to you the truth because you would have been very unhappy;
  mortified and indignant; and yet what could you do? You could only
  perhaps ruin yourself; and; besides; Dounia would not allow it; and
  fill up my letter with trifles when my heart was so full of sorrow;
  I could not。 For a whole month the town was full of gossip about
  this scandal; and it came to such a pass that Dounia and I dared not
  even go to church on account of the contemptuous looks; whispers;
  and even remarks made aloud about us。 All our acquaintances avoided
  us; nobody even bowed to us in the street; and I learnt that some
  shopmen and clerks were intending to insult us in a shameful way;
  smearing the gates of our house with pitch; so that the landlord began
  to tell us we must leave。 All this was set going by Marfa Petrovna who
  managed to slander Dounia and throw dirt at her in every family。 She
  knows every one in the neighbourhood; and that month she was
  continually coming into the town; and as she is rather talkative and
  fond of gossiping about her family affairs and particularly of
  complaining to all and each of her husband… which is not at all right…
  so in a short time she had spread her story not only in the town;
  but over the whole surrounding district。 It made me ill; but Dounia
  bore it better than I did; and if only you could have seen how she
  endured it all and tried to comfort me and cheer me up! She is an
  angel! But by God's mercy; our sufferings were cut short: Mr。
  Svidrigailov returned to his senses and repented and; probably feeling
  sorry for Dounia; he laid before Marfa Petrovna a complete and
  unmistakable proof of Dounia's innocence; in the form of a letter
  Dounia had been forced to write and give to him; before Marfa Petrovna
  came upon them in the garden。 This letter; which remained in Mr。
  Svidrigailov's hands after her departure; she had written to refuse
  personal explanations and secret interviews; for which he was
  entreating her。 In that letter she reproached him with great heat
  and indignation for the baseness of his behaviour in regard to Marfa
  Petrovna; reminding him that he was the father and head of a family
  and telling him how infamous it was of him to torment and make unhappy
  a defenceless girl; unhappy enough already。 Indeed; dear Rodya; the
  letter was so nobly and touchingly written that I sobbed when I read
  it and to this day I cannot read it without tears。 Moreover; the
  evidence of the servants; too; cleared Dounia's reputation; they had
  seen and known a great deal more than Mr。 Svidrigailov had himself
  supposed… as indeed is always the case with servants。 Marfa Petrovna
  was completely taken aback; and 'again crushed' as she said herself to
  us; but she was completely convinced of Dounia's innocence。 The very
  next day; being Sunday; she went straight to the Cathedral; knelt down
  and prayed with tears to Our Lady to give her strength to bear this
  new trial and to do her duty。 Then she came straight from the
  Cathedral to us; told us the whole story; wept bitterly and; fully
  penitent; she embraced Dounia and besought her to forgive her。 The
  same morning without any delay; she went round to all the houses in
  the town and everywhere; shedding tears; she asserted in the most
  flattering terms Dounia's innocence and the nobility of her feelings
  and her behavior。 What was more; she showed and read to every one
  the letter in Dounia's own handwriting to Mr。 Svidrigailov and even
  allowed them to take copies of it… which I must say I think was
  superfluous。 In this way she was busy for several days in driving
  about the whole town; because some people had taken offence through
  precedence having been given to others。 And therefore they had to take
  turns; so that in every house she was expected before she arrived; and
  every one knew that on such and such a day Marfa Petrovna would be
  reading the letter in such and such a place and people assembled for
  every reading of it; even many who had heard it several times
  already both in their own houses and in other people's。 In my
  opinion a great deal; a very great deal of all this was unnecessary;
  but that's Marfa Petrovna's character。 Anyway she succeeded in
  completely re…establishing Dounia'