第 8 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:46      字数:9299
  part of a room; but their room was practically a passage。 The door
  leading to the other rooms; or rather cupboards; into which Amalia
  Lippevechsel's flat was divided stood half open; and there was
  shouting; uproar and laughter within。 People seemed to be playing
  cards and drinking tea there。 Words of the most unceremonious kind
  flew out from time to time。
  Raskolnikov recognised Katerina Ivanovna at once。 She was a rather
  tall; slim and graceful woman; terribly emaciated; with magnificent
  dark brown hair and with a hectic flush in her cheeks。 She was
  pacing up and down in her little room; pressing her hands against
  her chest; her lips were parched and her breathing came in nervous
  broken gasps。 Her eyes glittered as in fever and looked about with a
  harsh immovable stare。 And that consumptive and excited face with
  the last flickering light of the candle…end playing upon it made a
  sickening impression。 She seemed to Raskolnikov about thirty years old
  and was certainly a strange wife for Marmeladov。。。。 She had not
  heard them and did not notice them coming in。 She seemed to be lost in
  thought; hearing and seeing nothing。 The room was close; but she had
  not opened the window; a stench rose from the staircase; but the
  door on to the stairs was not closed。 From the inner rooms clouds of
  tobacco smoke floated in; she kept coughing; but did not close the
  door。 The youngest child; a girl of six; was asleep; sitting curled up
  on the floor with her head on the sofa。 A boy a year older stood
  crying and shaking in the corner; probably he had just had a
  beating。 Beside him stood a girl of nine years old; tall and thin;
  wearing a thin and ragged chemise with an ancient cashmere pelisse
  flung over her bare shoulders; long outgrown and barely reaching her
  knees。 Her arm; as thin as a stick; was round her brother's neck。
  She was trying to comfort him; whispering something to him; and
  doing all she could to keep him from whimpering again。 At the same
  time her large dark eyes; which looked larger still from the
  thinness of her frightened face; were watching her mother with
  alarm。 Marmeladov did not enter the door; but dropped on his knees
  in the very doorway; pushing Raskolnikov in front of him。 The woman
  seeing a stranger stopped indifferently facing him; coming to
  herself for a moment and apparently wondering what he had come for。
  But evidently she decided that he was going into the next room; as
  he had to pass through hers to get there。 Taking no further notice
  of him; she walked towards the outer door to close it and uttered a
  sudden scream on seeing her husband on his knees in the doorway。
  〃Ah!〃 she cried out in a frenzy; 〃he has come back! The criminal!
  the monster!。。。 And where is the money? What's in your pocket; show
  me! And your clothes are all different! Where are your clothes?
  Where is the money! speak!〃
  And she fell to searching him。 Marmeladov submissively and
  obediently held up both arms to facilitate the search。 Not a
  farthing was there。
  〃Where's the money?〃 she cried… 〃Mercy on us; can he have drunk it
  all? There were twelve silver roubles left in the chest!〃 and in a
  fury she seized him by the hair and dragged him into the room。
  Marmeladov seconded her efforts by meekly crawling along on his knees。
  〃And this is a consolation to me! This does not hurt me; but is a
  positive con…so…la…tion; ho…nou…red sir;〃 he called out; shaken to and
  fro by his hair and even once striking the ground with his forehead。
  The child asleep on the floor woke up; and began to cry。 The boy in
  the corner losing all control began trembling and screaming and rushed
  to his sister in violent terror; almost in a fit。 The eldest girl
  was shaking like a leaf。
  〃He's drunk it! he's drunk it all;〃 the poor woman screamed in
  despair… 〃and his clothes are gone! And they are hungry; hungry!〃… and
  wringing her hands she pointed to the children。 〃Oh; accursed life!
  And you; are you not ashamed?〃… she pounced all at once upon
  Raskolnikov… 〃from the tavern! Have been drinking with him? You have
  been drinking with him; too! Go away!〃
  The young man was hastening away without uttering a word。 The
  inner door was thrown wide open and inquisitive faces were peering
  in at it。 Coarse laughing faces with pipes and cigarettes and heads
  wearing caps thrust themselves in at the doorway。 Further in could
  be seen figures in dressing gowns flung open; in costumes of
  unseemly scantiness; some of them with cards in their hands。 They were
  particularly diverted; when Marmeladov; dragged about by his hair;
  shouted that it was a consolation to him。 They even began to come into
  the room; at last a sinister shrill outcry was heard: this came from
  Amalia Lippevechsel herself pushing her way amongst them and trying to
  restore order after her own fashion and for the hundredth time to
  frighten the poor woman by ordering her with coarse abuse to clear out
  of the room next day。 As he went out; Raskolnikov had time to put
  his hand into his pocket; to snatch up the coppers he had received
  in exchange for his rouble in the tavern and to lay them unnoticed
  on the window。 Afterwards on the stairs; he changed his mind and would
  have gone back。
  〃What a stupid thing I've done;〃 he thought to himself; 〃they have
  Sonia and I want it myself。〃 But reflecting that it would be
  impossible to take it back now and that in any case he would not
  have taken it; he dismissed it with a wave of his hand and went back
  to his lodging。 〃Sonia wants pomatum too;〃 he said as he walked
  along the street; and he laughed malignantly… 〃such smartness costs
  money。。。。 Hm! And maybe Sonia herself will be bankrupt to…day; for
  there is always a risk; hunting big game。。。 digging for gold。。。 then
  they would all be without a crust to…morrow except for my money。
  Hurrah for Sonia! What a mine they've dug there! And they're making
  the most of it! Yes; they are making the most of it! They've wept over
  it and grown used to it。 Man grows used to everything; the scoundrel!〃
  He sank into thought。
  〃And what if I am wrong;〃 he cried suddenly after a moment's
  thought。 〃What if man is not really a scoundrel; man in general; I
  mean; the whole race of mankind… then all the rest is prejudice;
  simply artificial terrors and there are no barriers and it's all as it
  should be。〃
  Chapter Three
  HE WAKED up late next day after a broken sleep。 But his sleep had
  not refreshed him; he waked up bilious; irritable; ill…tempered; and
  looked with hatred at his room。 It was a tiny cupboard of a room about
  six paces in length。 It had a poverty…stricken appearance with its
  dusty yellow paper peeling off the walls; and it was so low…pitched
  that a man of more than average height was ill at ease in it and
  felt every moment that he would knock his head against the ceiling。
  The furniture was in keeping with the room: there were three old
  chairs; rather rickety; a painted table in the corner on which lay a
  few manuscripts and books; the dust that lay thick upon them showed
  that they had been long untouched。 A big clumsy sofa occupied almost
  the whole of one wall and half the floor space of the room; it was
  once covered with chintz; but was now in rags and served Raskolnikov
  as a bed。 Often he went to sleep on it; as he was; without undressing;
  without sheets; wrapped in his old student's overcoat; with his head
  on one little pillow; under which he heaped up all the linen he had;
  clean and dirty; by way of a bolster。 A little table stood in front of
  the sofa。