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  They carried the limp figure in with rough tenderness and laid him in
  the bed。 McWilliams unbuckled the belt and drew off the chaps; then; with
  the   help   of   Denver;   undressed   the   wounded   man   and   covered   him   with
  quilts。   So  Helen   found    him   when    she   came   in   to  attend  his  wounds;
  bringing with her such things as she needed for her task。 Mrs。 Winslow;
  the housekeeper; assisted her; and the foreman stayed to help; but it was on
  the mistress of the ranch that the responsibility of saving him fell。 Missou
  was already galloping to Bear Creek for a doctor; but the girl knew that the
  battle must be fought and the issue decided before he could arrive。
  He had   fallen again into   insensibility  and   she rinsed   and   dressed   his
  wounds; working with the quiet impersonal certainty of touch that did not
  betray the inner turmoil of her soul。 But McWilliams; his eyes following
  her every motion and alert to anticipate her needs; saw that the color had
  washed from her face and that she was controlling herself only to meet the
  demands of the occasion。
  As she was finishing; the sheepman opened his eyes and looked at her。
  〃You are not to speak or ask questions。 You have been wounded and
  we are going to take care of you;〃 she ordered。
  〃That's   right   good   of   y'u。   I   ce'tainly   feet   mighty   trifling。〃   His   wide
  eyes traveled round till they fell on the foreman。 〃Y'u see I came back to
  help fill your hospital。 Am I there now? Where am I?〃 His gaze returned to
  Helen with the sudden irritation of the irresponsible sick。
  〃You   are   at   the   Lazy   D;   in   my   room。   You   are   not   to   worry   about
  anything。 Everything's all right。〃
  He took her at her word and his eyes closed; but presently he began to
  mutter   unconnected   words   and   phrases。  When   his   lids   lifted   again   there
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  was a wilder look in his eyes; and she knew that delirium was beginning。
  At intervals it lasted for long; indeed; until the doctor came next morning
  in   the   small   hours。   He   talked   of   many   things   Helen   Messiter   did   not
  understand;   of   incidents   in   his   past   life;   some   of   them   jerky   with   the
  excitement   of   a   tense   moment;   others   apparently   snatches   of   talk   with
  relatives。   It   was   like   the   babbling   of   a   child;   irrelevant   and   yet   often
  insistent。 He would in one breath give orders connected with the lambing
  of his sheep; in   the  next break into football   talk;  calling out signals  and
  imploring his men to hold them or to break through and get the ball。 Once
  he broke into curses; but his very oaths seemed to come from a clean heart
  and   missed   the   vulgarity   they   might   have   had。   Again   his   talk   rambled
  inconsequently over his youth; and he would urge himself or someone else
  of the same name to better life。
  〃Ned; Ned; remember your mother;〃 he would beseech。 〃She asked me
  to look after you。 Don't go wrong。〃 Or else it would be; 〃Don't disgrace
  the general; Ned。 You'll break his heart if you blacken the old name。〃 To
  this theme he recurred repeatedly; and she noticed that when he imagined
  himself in the East his language was correct and his intonation cultured;
  though still with a suggestion of a Southern softness。
  But when he spoke of her his speech lapsed into the familiar drawl of
  Cattleland。 〃I ain't such a sweep as y'u think; girl。 Some day I'll sure tell
  y'u all about it; and how I have loved y'u ever since y'u scooped me up in
  your car。 You're the gamest little lady! To see y'u come a…sailin' down after
  me;    so   steady    and   businesslike;     not   turning   a   hair  when     the  bullets
  hummedI sure do love y'u; Helen。〃 And then he fell upon her first name
  and called her by it a hundred times softly to himself。
  This   happened   when   she   was   alone   with   him;   just   before   the   doctor
  came。 She heard it with starry eyes and with a heart that flushed for joy a
  warmer color into her cheeks。 Brushing back the short curls; she kissed his
  damp forehead。 It was in the thick of the battle; before he had weathered
  that point where the issues of life and death pressed closely; and even in
  the midst of her great fears it brought her comfort。 She was to think often
  of   it   later;   and   always   the   memory   was   to   be   music   in   her   heart。   Even
  when she denied her love for him; assured herself it was impossible she
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  could care   for so shameful a   villain;   even then it was   a sweet   torture   to
  allow herself the luxury of recalling his broken delirious phrases。 At the
  very worst he could not be as bad as they said; some instinct told her this
  was     impossible。     His   fearless    devil…may…care       smile;   his   jaunty;   gallant
  bearing;     these   pleaded     against    the  evidence      for  him。   And     yet  was    it
  conceivable that a man of spirit; a gentleman by training at least; would let
  himself lie under the odium of such a charge if he were not guilty? Her
  tangled   thoughts   fought   this   profitless   conflict   for   days。   Nor   could   she
  dismiss it from her mind。 Even after he began to mend she was still on the
  rack。 For in some snatch of good talk; when the fine quality of the man
  seemed   to   glow   in   his   face;   poignant   remembrance   would   stab   her   with
  recollection of the difference between what he was and what he seemed to
  be。
  One of the things that had been a continual surprise to Helen was the
  short time required by these deep…cheated and clean…blooded Westerners to
  recover   from   apparently   serious   wounds。   It   was   scarce   more   than   two
  weeks since Bannister had filled the bunkhouse with wounded men; and
  already two of them were back at work and the third almost fit for service。
  For   perhaps   three   days   the   sheepman's   life   hung   in   the   balance;   after
  which   his   splendid   constitution   and   his   outdoor   life   began   to   tell。   The
  thermometer showed that the fever had slipped down a notch; and he was
  now sleeping wholesomely a good part of his time。 Altogether; unless for
  some   unseen   contingency;   the   doctor   prophesied   that   the   sheepman   was
  going to upset the probabilities and get well。
  〃Which merely shows; ma'am; what is possible when you give a sound
  man   twenty…four   hours   a   day   in   our   hills   for   a   few   years;〃   he   added。
  〃Thanks   to   your   nursing   he's   going   to   shave   through   by   the   narrowest
  margin   possible。   I   told   him   to…day   that   he   owed   his   life   to   you;   Miss
  Messiter。〃
  〃I don't think you need have told him that Doctor;〃 returned that young
  woman;   not   a   little   vexed   at   him;   〃especially   since   you   have   just   been
  telling   me   that   he   owes   it   to   Wyoming   air   and   his   own   soundness   of
  constitution。〃
  When she returned to the sickroom to give her patient his medicine he
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  wanted to tell her what the doctor had said; but she cut him off ruthlessly
  and told him not to talk。
  〃Mayn't I even say 'Thank you?'〃 he wanted to know。
  〃No; you talk far too much as it is。〃
  He   smiled   〃All   right。 Y'u   sit   there   in   that   chair;   where   I   can   see   y'u
  doing that fancywork and I'll not say a word。 It'll keep; all right; what I
  want to say。〃
  〃I notice you keep talking;〃 she told him; dryly。
  〃Yes; ma'am。 Y'u had better have let me say what I wanted to; but I'll
  be good now。〃
  He fell asleep watching her; and when he awoke she was still sitting
  there; though it was beginning to grow dark。 He spoke before she knew he
  was awake。
  〃I'm going to get well; the doctor thinks。〃
  〃Yes; he told me;〃 she answered。
  〃Did he tell y'u it was your nursing saved me?〃
  〃Please don't think about that。〃
  〃What am I to think about? I owe y'u a heap; and it keeps piling up。 I
  reckon y'u do it all because it's your Christian duty?〃 he demanded。
  〃It is my duty; isn't it?〃
  〃I didn't say it wasn't; though I expaict Bighorn County will forget to
  give   y'u   a   unanimous   vote   of   thanks   for   doing   it。   I   asked   if   y'u   did   it
  because it was your duty?〃
  〃The reason doesn't matter so that I do it;〃 she answered; steadily。
  〃Reasons matter some;