第 31 节
作者:一米八      更新:2021-02-20 18:34      字数:9320
  now。  Tears did not seem to afford relief when one shed them into
  handkerchiefs and pillows。  But on that gentle bosom; to let
  loose this brimming flood; to hear the tender voice consoling!
  〃Oh; I say; now!  Please!〃 she heard Johnny Two…Hawks cry out。
  But she rushed on blindly; knocking against the door jamb and almost
  upsetting the nurse; who was returning。  Somehow she managed to
  reach the living room; glad it was dark。  Alter sundry reaching about
  she found the divan and flung herself upon it。  What would he think?
  What would the nurse think?  That Kitty Conover had suddenly gone
  stark; raving crazy!  And now that she was in the dark; alone; the
  desire to weep passed over and she lay quietly with her face buried
  in the pillow。  But not for long。
  She sat up。  Music … violin music!  A gay waltz that made her think
  of flashing water; the laughter of children。  Tschaikowsky。  Thrilled;
  she waited for the finale。  Silence。  Scharwenka's 〃Polish Dance;〃
  with a swing and a fire beyond anything she had ever heard before。
  Another stretch of silence … a silence full of interrogation points。
  Then a tender little sketch; quite unfamiliar。  But all at once she
  understood。  He was imploring her to return。  She smiled in the dark;
  but she knew she was going to remain right where she was。
  〃Miss Conover?〃 It was the voice of the nurse。
  〃Yes。  I'm over here on the divan。〃
  〃Anything wrong?〃
  〃Good gracious; no!  I'm overtired。  A little hysterical; maybe。
  The parade to…day; with all those wounded boys in automobiles; the
  music and colour and excitement … have rather done me up。  And the
  way I rushed up here。  And not finding Cutty 〃
  〃Anything I can get for you?〃
  〃No; thanks。  I'll try to snatch a little sleep before Cutty returns。〃
  〃But he may be gone all night!〃
  〃Will it be so very scandalous if I stay here?〃
  〃You poor child!  Go ahead and sleep。  Don't hesitate to call me if
  you want anything。  I have a mild sedative if you would like it。〃
  〃No; thanks。  I did not know that Mr。 Hawksley played。〃
  〃Wonderfully!  But does it bother you?〃
  〃It kind of makes me choky。〃
  〃I'll tell him。〃
  Kitty; now strangely at peace; snuggled down among the pillows。
  Some great Polish violinist; who had roused the bitter enmity of
  the anarchist?  But no; he was Russian。  Cutty had admitted that。
  It struck her that Cutty knew a great deal more than Kitty Conover;
  and so far as she could see there was no apparent reason for this
  secrecy。  She rather believed she had Cutty。  Either he should tell
  her everything or she would run loose; Bolshevik or no Bolshevik。
  Sheep。  She boosted one over the bars; another and another。  Round
  somewhere in the thirties the bars dissolved。  The next thing she
  knew she was blinking in the light; Cutty; his arms folded; staring
  down at her sombrely。  There was blood on his face and blood on his
  hands。
  CHAPTER XX
  Karlov moodily touched the shoulder of the man on the cot。  Stefani
  Gregor puzzled him。  He came to this room more often than was wise;
  driven by a curiosity born of a cynical philosophy to discover what
  it was that reenforced this fragile body against threats and thirst
  and hunger。  He knew what he wanted of Gregor … the fiddler on his
  knees begging for mercy。  And always Gregor faced him with that
  silent calm which reminded him of the sea; aloof; impervious;
  exasperating。  Only once since the day he had been locked in this
  room had Gregor offered speech。  He; Karlov; had roared at him;
  threatened; baited; but his reward generally had been a twisted
  wintry smile。
  He could not offer physical torture beyond the frequent omissions
  of food and water; the body would have crumbled。  To have planned
  this for months; and then to be balked by something as visible yet
  as elusive as quicksilver!  Born in the same mudhole; and still
  Boris Karlov the avenger could not understand Stefani Gregor the
  fiddler。  Perhaps what baffled him was that so valiant a spirit
  should be housed in so weak a body。  It was natural that he; Boris;
  with the body of a Carpathian bear; should have a soul to match。
  But that Stefani; with his paper body; should mock him!  The
  damned bourgeoisie!
  The quality of this unending calm was understandable: Gregor was
  always ready to die。  What to do with a man to whom death was
  release?  To hold the knout and to see it turn to water in the
  hand!  In lying he had overreached。  Gregor; having accepted as
  fact the reported death of Ivan; had nothing to live for。  Having
  brought Gregor here to torture he had; blind fool; taken away the
  fiddler's ability to feel。  The fog cleared。  He himself had given
  his enemy this mysterious calm。  He had taken out Gregor's soul and
  dissipated it。
  No。  Not quite dissipated。  What held the body together was the iron
  residue of the soul。  Venom and blood clogged Karlov's throat。  He
  could kill only the body; as he had killed the fiddle; he could not
  reach the mystery within。  Ah; but he had wrung Stefani's heart there。
  There were pieces of the fiddle on the table where Gregor had placed
  them; doubtless to weep over when he was alone。  Why hadn't he
  thought to break the fiddle a little each day?
  〃Stefani Gregor; sit up。  I have come to talk。〃  This was formula。
  Karlov did not expect speech from Gregor。
  Slowly the thin arms bore up the torso; slowly the legs swung to the
  floor。  But the little gray man's eyes were bright and quick to…night。
  〃Boris; what is it you want?〃
  〃To talk〃 … surprised at this unexpected outburst。
  〃No; no。  I mean; what is it all about … these killings; these
  burnings?〃
  Karlov was ready at all times to expound the theories that appealed
  to his dark yet simple mind … humanity overturned as one overturned
  the sod in the springtime to give it new life。
  〃To give the proletariat what is his。〃
  〃Ha!〃 said the little man on the cot。  〃What is his?〃
  〃That which capitalism has taken away from him。〃
  〃The proletariat。  The lowest in the human scale … and therefore
  the most helpless。  They shall rule; say you。  My poor Russia!
  Beaten and robbed for centuries; and now betrayed by a handful of
  madmen … with brains atrophied on one side!  You are a fool; Boris。
  Your feet are in strange quicksands and your head among chimeras。
  You write some words on a piece of paper; and lo!  you say they are
  facts。  Without first proving your theories correct you would ram
  them down the throat of the world。  The world rejects you。〃
  〃Wait and see; damned bourgeoisie!〃 thundered Karlov; not alive to
  the fact that he was being baited。
  〃Bourgeoisie?  Yes; I am of the middle class; the rogue on top and
  the fool below。  I see。  The rogue and the fool cannot combine
  unless the bourgeoisie is obliterated。  Go on。  I am interested。〃
  〃Under the soviet the government shall be everything。〃
  〃As it was in Prussia。〃
  Karlov ignored this。  〃The individual shall never again become rich
  by exploiting the poor。〃
  Karlov strove to speak calmly。  Gregor's willingness to discuss the
  aims of the proletariat confused him。  He suspected some ulterior
  purpose behind this apparent amiability。  He must hold down his fury
  until this purpose was in the open。
  〃Well; that is good;〃 Gregor admitted。  〃But somehow it sounds
  ancient on my ear。  Was there not a revolution in France?〃
  〃Fool; it is the world that is revolting!〃 Karlov paused。  〃And no
  man in the future shall see his sister or his daughter made into a
  loose woman without redress。〃
  〃Your proletariat's sister and daughter。  But the daughter of the
  noble and the daughter of the
  bourgeoisie … fair game!〃
  Sometimes there enters a man's head what might be called a sick idea;
  when the vitality is at low ebb and the future holds nothing。  Thus
  there was a grim and sick idea behind Gregor's gibes。  It was in his
  mind to die。  All the things he had loved had been destroyed。  So
  then; to goad this madman into a physical frenzy。  Once those
  gorilla…like hands reached out for him Stefani Gregor's neck would
  break。
  〃Be still; fiddler!  You know what I mean。  There will be no upper
  class; which is idleness and wastefulness; no middle class; the
  usurers; the gamblers of necessities; the war makers。  One great
  body of equals shall issue forth。  All shall labour。〃
  〃For what?〃
  〃The common good。〃
  〃Your Lenine offered peace; bread; and work for the overthrow of
  Kerensky。  What you have given … murder and famine and idleness。  Can
  there be common good that is based upon the blood of innocents?  Did
  Ivan ever harm a soul?  Have I?〃
  〃You!〃 Karlov trembled。  〃You … with your damned green stones!  Did
  you not lure Anna to dishonour with the promise to show her the
  drums; the sight of which would make all her dreams come true?  A
  child; with a fairy story in her head!〃
  〃You speak of Anna!  If you hadn't been spouting your twaddle in
  taverns you would have had time to instruct Anna against
  guilelessness and superstition。〃
  〃How much did they pay you?  Did you fiddle for her to dance? 。。。 But
  I left their faces in the mud!〃
  A madman; with two obsessions。  A pitiable Samson with his arms round
  the pillars of society to drag it down upon his head because society