第 5 节
作者:公主站记      更新:2021-02-20 17:29      字数:9321
  That lives here idle; I am right glad of you;
  I have slept so well and sweet since yesternight
  It seems our dancing put me in glad heart。
  Did you sleep well?
  CHASTELARD。
  Yea; as a man may sleep。
  QUEEN。
  You smile as if I jested; do not men
  Sleep as we do?  Had you fair dreams in the night?
  For me…but I should fret you with my dreams…
  I dreamed sweet things。  You are good at soothsaying:
  Make me a sonnet of my dream。
  CHASTELARD。
  I will;
  When I shall know it。
  QUEEN。
  I thought I was asleep
  In Paris; lying by my lord; and knew
  In somewise he was well awake; and yet
  I could not wake too; and I seemed to know
  He hated me; and the least breath I made
  Would turn somehow to slay or stifle me。
  Then in brief time he rose and went away;
  Saying; Let her dream; but when her dream is out
  I will come back and kill her as she wakes。
  And I lay sick and trembling with sore fear;
  And still I knew that I was deep asleep;
  And thinking I must dream now; or I die;
  God send me some good dream lest I be slain;
  Fell fancying one had bound my feet with cords
  And bade me dance; and the first measure made
  I fell upon my face and wept for pain:
  And my cords broke; and I began the dance
  To a bitter tune; and he that danced with me
  Was clothed in black with long red lines and bars
  And masked down to the lips; but by the chin
  I knew you though your lips were sewn up close
  With scarlet thread all dabbled wet in blood。
  And then I knew the dream was not for good。
  And striving with sore travail to reach up
  And kiss you (you were taller in my dream)
  I missed your lips and woke。
  CHASTELARD。
  Sweet dreams; you said?
  An evil dream I hold it for; sweet love。
  QUEEN。
  You call love sweet; yea; what is bitter; then?
  There's nothing broken sleep could hit upon
  So bitter as the breaking down of love。
  You call me sweet; I am not sweet to you;
  Nor you…O; I would say not sweet to me;
  And if I said so I should hardly lie。
  But there have been those things between us; sir;
  That men call sweet。
  CHASTELARD。
  I know not how There is
  Turns to There hath been; 't is a heavier change
  Than change of flesh to dust。  Yet though years change
  And good things end and evil things grow great;
  The old love that was; or that was dreamed about;
  That sang and kissed and wept upon itself;
  Laughed and ran mad with love of its own face;
  That was a sweet thing。
  QUEEN。
  Nay; I know not well。
  'T is when the man is held fast underground
  They say for sooth what manner of heart he had。
  We are alive; and cannot be well sure
  If we loved much or little:  think you not
  It were convenient one of us should die?
  CHASTELARD。
  Madam; your speech is harsh to understand。
  QUEEN。
  Why; there could come no change then; one of us
  Would never need to fear our love might turn
  To the sad thing that it may grow to be。
  I would sometimes all things were dead asleep
  That I have loved; all buried in soft beds
  And sealed with dreams and visions; and each dawn
  Sung to by sorrows; and all night assuaged
  By short sweet kissed and by sweet long loves
  For old life's sake; lest weeping overmuch
  Should wake them in a strange new time; and arm
  Memory's blind hand to kill forgetfulness。
  CHASTELARD。
  Look; you dream still; and sadly。
  QUEEN。
  Sooth; a dream;
  For such things died or lied in sweet love's face;
  And I forget them not; God help my wit!
  I would the whole world were made up of sleep
  And life not fashioned out of lies and loves。
  We foolish women have such times; you know;
  When we are weary or afraid or sick
  For perfect nothing。
  CHASTELARD。
  'Aside。'
  Now would one be fain
  To know what bitter or what dangerous thing
  She thinks of; softly chafing her soft lip。
  She must mean evil。
  QUEEN。
  Are you sad too; sir;
  That you say nothing?
  CHASTELARD。
  I? not sad a jot…
  Though this your talk might make a blithe man sad。
  QUEEN。
  O me!   I must not let stray sorrows out;
  They are ill to fledge; and if they feel blithe air
  They wail and chirp untunefully。  Would God
  I had been a man! when I was born; men say;
  My father turned his face and wept to think
  I was no man。
  CHASTELARD。
  Will you weep too?
  QUEEN。
  In sooth;
  If I were a man I should be no base man;
  I could have fought; yea; I could fight now too
  If men would show me; I would I were the king!
  I should be all ways better than I am。
  CHASTELARD。
  Nay; would you have more honor; having this…
  Men's hearts and loves and the sweet spoil of souls
  Given you like simple gold to bind your hair?
  Say you were king of thews; not queen of souls;
  An iron headpiece hammered to a head;
  You might fall too。
  QUEEN。
  No; then I would not fall;
  Or God should make me woman back again。
  To be King James…you hear men say King James;
  The word sounds like a piece of gold thrown down;
  Rings with a round and royal note in it…
  A name to write good record of; this king
  Fought here and there; was beaten such a day;
  And came at last to a good end; his life
  Being all lived out; and for the main part well
  And like a king's life; then to have men say
  (As now they say of Flodden; here they broke
  And there they held up to the end) years back
  They saw you…yea; I saw the king's face helmed
  Red in the hot lit foreground of some fight
  Hold the whole war as it were by the bit; a horse
  Fit for his knees' grip…the great rearing war
  That frothed with lips flung up; and shook men's lives
  Off either flank of it like snow; I saw
  (You could not hear as his sword rang); saw him
  Shout; laugh; smite straight; and flaw the riven ranks;
  Move as the wind moves; and his horse's feet
  Stripe their long flags with dust。  Why; if one died;
  To die so in the heart and heat of war
  Were a much goodlier thing than living soft
  And speaking sweet for fear of men。  Woe's me;
  Is there no way to pluck this body off?
  Then I should never fear a man again;
  Even in my dreams I should not; no; by heaven。
  CHASTELARD。
  I never thought you did fear anything。
  QUEEN。
  God knows I do; I could be sick with wrath
  To think what grievous fear I have 'twixt whiles
  Of mine own self and of base men:  last night
  If certain lords were glancing where I was
  Under the eyelid; with sharp lip and brow;
  I tell you; for pure shame and fear of them;
  I could have gone and slain them。
  CHASTELARD。
  Verily;
  You are changed since those good days that fell in France;
  But yet I think you are not so changed at heart
  As to fear man。
  QUEEN。
  I would I had no need。
  Lend me your sword a little; a fair sword;
  I see the fingers that I hold it with
  Clear in the blade; bright pink; the shell…color;
  Brighter than flesh is really; curved all round。
  Now men would mock if I should wear it here;
  Bound under bosom with a girdle; here;
  And yet I have heart enough to wear it well。
  Speak to me like a woman; let me see
  If I can play at man。
  CHASTELARD。
  God save King James!
  QUEEN。
  Would you could change now!  Fie; this will not do;
  Unclasp your sword; nay; the hilt hurts my side;
  It sticks fast here。  Unbind this knot for me:
  Stoop; and you'll see it closer; thank you:  there。
  Now I can breathe; sir。  Ah! it hurts me; though:
  This was fool's play。
  CHASTELARD。
  Yea; you are better so;
  Without the sword; your eyes are stronger things;
  Whether to save or slay。
  QUEEN。
  Alas; my side!
  It hurts right sorely。  Is it not pitiful
  Our souls should be so bound about with flesh
  Even when they leap and smite with wings and feet;
  The least pain plucks them back; puts out their eyes;
  Turns them to tears and words?  Ah my sweet knight;
  You have the better of us that weave and weep
  While the blithe battle blows upon your eyes
  Like rain and wind; yet I remember too
  When this last year the fight at Corrichie
  Reddened the rushes with stained fen…water;
  I rode with my good men and took delight;
  Feeling the sweet clear wind upon my eyes
  And rainy soft smells blown upon my face
  In riding:  then the great fight jarred and joined;
  And the sound stung me right through heart and all;
  For I was here; see; gazing off the hills;
  In the wet air; our housings were all wet;
  And not a plume stood stiffly past the ear
  But flapped between the bridle and the neck;
  And under us we saw the battle go
  Like running water; I could see by fits
  Some helm the rain fell shining off; some flag
  Snap from the staff; shorn through or broken short
  In the man's falling:  yea; one seemed to catch
  The very grasp of tumbled men at men;
  Teeth clenched in throats; hands riveted in hair;
  Tearing the life out with no help of swords。
  And all the clamor seemed to shine; the light
  Seemed to shout as a man doth; twice I laughed
  I tell you; twice my heart swelled out with thirst
  To be into the battle; see; fair lord;
  I