第 10 节
作者:点绛唇      更新:2021-02-20 16:44      字数:9322
  He got the one glance at the foe…swarming field in front of him; and
  instantly ceased to de… bate the question of his piece being loaded。                    Be…
  fore he was ready to beginbefore he had an… nounced to himself that he
  was     about   to   fight  he   threw    the  obedient;    well…balanced       rifle  into
  position     and   fired  a  first  wild  shot。    Directly   he    was   working     at  his
  weapon like an automatic affair。
  He    suddenly     lost  concern     for  himself;    and   for…  got   to  look   at  a
  menacing       fate。  He     became     not  a  man    but   a  member。      He    felt  that
  something   of   which   he   was   a   parta   regiment;   an   army;   a   cause;   or   a
  countrywas       in  a  crisis。  He    was    welded    into  a  common       personality
  which was dominated by a single desire。               For some mo… ments he could
  not flee no more than a little finger can commit a revolution from a hand。
  If he had thought the regiment was about to be annihilated perhaps he
  could have amputated himself from it。             But its noise gave him assur… ance。
  The regiment was like a firework that; once ignited; proceeds superior to
  circumstances   until   its   blazing   vitality   fades。     It   wheezed   and   banged
  with a mighty power。         He pictured the ground before it as strewn with the
  discom… fited。
  There was a consciousness always of the pres… ence of his comrades
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  about him。       He felt the subtle battle brotherhood more potent even than
  the   cause   for   which   they   were   fighting。   It   was   a   mysterious   fraternity
  born of the smoke and dan… ger of death。
  He was at a task。       He was like a carpenter who has made many boxes;
  making still another box; only there was furious haste in his move… ments。
  He; in his thought; was careering off in other places; even as the carpenter
  who as he works whistles and thinks of his friend or his enemy; his home
  or a saloon。     And these jolted dreams were never perfect to him afterward;
  but remained a mass of blurred shapes。
  Presently     he   began    to  feel   the  effects   of   the  war    atmospherea
  blistering sweat; a sensation that his eyeballs were about to crack like hot
  stones。     A burning roar filled his ears。
  Following       this  came     a   red   rage。     He     devel…    oped    the   acute
  exasperation of a pestered animal; a well…meaning cow worried by dogs。
  He had a mad feeling against his rifle; which could only be used against
  one   life   at   a   time。 He   wished   to   rush   forward   and   strangle   with   his
  fingers。     He   craved   a   power   that   would   enable   him   to   make   a   world…
  sweeping   gesture   and   brush   all   back。     His   impotency   appeared   to   him;
  and made his rage into that of a driven beast。
  Buried in the smoke of many rifles his anger was directed not so much
  against the men whom he knew were rushing toward him as against the
  swirling   battle   phantoms   which   were   choking   him;   stuffing   their   smoke
  robes down his parched throat。            He fought frantically for respite for his
  senses; for air; as a babe being smothered attacks the deadly blankets。
  There was a blare of heated rage mingled with a certain expression of
  intentness on all faces。 Many of the men were   making low…toned   noises
  with their mouths; and these subdued cheers; snarls; imprecations; prayers;
  made   a    wild;   bar…  baric   song    that  went   as   an  undercurrent     of  sound;
  strange and chantlike with the resounding chords of the war march。                      The
  man at   the youth's   elbow was   babbling。          In it there was something   soft
  and tender like the monologue of a babe。               The tall soldier was swearing
  in a loud voice。       From his lips came a black procession of curious oaths。
  Of   a   sudden   another   broke   out   in   a   querulous   way   like   a   man   who   has
  mislaid his hat。      〃Well; why don't they support us?            Why don't they send
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  supports?      Do they think〃
  The youth in his battle sleep heard this as one who dozes hears。
  There was a singular absence of heroic poses。 The men bending and
  surging   in   their  haste   and   rage   were   in   every  impossible   attitude。    The
  steel ramrods clanked and clanged with incessant din as the men pounded
  them furiously into the hot rifle barrels。           The flaps of the cartridge boxes
  were   all   unfastened;   and   bobbed   idiotically   with   each   movement。         The
  rifles; once loaded; were jerked to the shoulder and fired without apparent
  aim   into   the   smoke   or   at   one   of   the   blurred   and   shift…   ing   forms   which
  upon the   field   before   the   regi…   ment   had   been growing larger   and   larger
  like puppets under a magician's hand。
  The    officers;   at  their   intervals;   rearward;    neg…    lected   to  stand   in
  picturesque   attitudes。      They   were   bobbing   to   and   fro   roaring   directions
  and encouragements。           The dimensions of their howls were extraordinary。
  They   expended   their   lungs   with   prodigal   wills。      And   often   they   nearly
  stood upon their heads in their anxiety to observe the enemy on the other
  side of the tumbling smoke。
  The lieutenant of the youth's company had en… countered a soldier who
  had fled screaming at the first volley of his comrades。                 Behind the lines
  these   two   were   acting   a   little   isolated   scene。 The   man   was   blubbering
  and staring with sheeplike eyes at the lieutenant; who had seized him by
  the   collar   and   was   pommeling   him。      He   drove   him  back   into   the   ranks
  with    many     blows。    The     sol…  dier   went    mechanically;     dully;   with   his
  animal… like eyes upon the officer。            Perhaps there was to him a divinity
  expressed in the voice of the other stern; hard; with no reflection of fear
  in it。   He tried to reload his gun; but his shaking hands pre… vented。                 The
  lieutenant was obliged to assist him。
  The   men   dropped   here   and   there   like   bundles。   The   captain   of   the
  youth's company had been killed in an early part of the action。                  His body
  lay stretched out in the position of a tired man resting; but upon his face
  there was an astonished and sorrowful look; as if he thought some friend
  had done him an ill turn。           The babbling man was grazed by a shot that
  made the blood stream widely down his face。                  He clapped both hands to
  his head。     〃Oh!〃 he said; and ran。        Another grunted suddenly as if he had
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  been struck by a club in the stomach。             He sat down and gazed ruefully。
  In his eyes there was mute; indefinite reproach。             Farther up the line a man;
  standing     behind    a  tree;  had   had    his  knee   joint   splintered   by   a  ball。
  Immediately he had dropped his rifle and gripped the tree with both arms。
  And there he remained; clinging desperately and crying for assistance that
  he might withdraw his hold upon the tree。
  At   last   an   exultant   yell   went   along the   quiver…   ing   line。 The   firing
  dwindled   from   an   uproar   to   a   last   vindictive   popping。     As   the   smoke
  slowly   eddied   away;   the   youth   saw   that   the   charge   had   been   repulsed。
  The enemy were scattered into reluctant groups。                He saw a man climb to
  the top of the fence; straddle the rail; and fire a part… ing shot。           The waves
  had receded; leaving bits of dark debris upon the ground。
  Some in the regiment began to whoop fren… ziedly。                Many were silent。
  Apparently they were trying to contemplate themselves。
  After the fever had left his veins; the youth thought that at last he was
  going to suffocate。 He became aware of the foul atmosphere in which he
  had   been   struggling。     He   was   grimy   and   dripping   like   a   laborer   in   a
  foundry。     He grasped his canteen and took a long swallow of the warmed
  water。
  A sentence with variations went up and down the line。                 〃Well; we 've
  helt 'em back。       We 've helt 'em back; derned if we haven't。〃               The men
  said it blissfully; leering at each other with dirty smiles。
  The youth turned to look behi