第 9 节
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  vanity and triumph; the happiness in the happiness she had
  caused; all this was better than sleep。  But still from all this;
  again and again her thoughts flew to those haunting eyes; to that
  smile with which forever the memory of the triumph; of the
  happiness; was to be united。  Her feelings; like her own
  character; were strange and peculiar。  They were not those of a
  girl whose heart; for the first time reached through the eye;
  sighs its natural and native language of first love。  It was not
  so much admiration; though the face that reflected itself on
  every wave of her restless fancies was of the rarest order of
  majesty and beauty; nor a pleased and enamoured recollection that
  the sight of this stranger had bequeathed:  it was a human
  sentiment of gratitude and delight; mixed with something more
  mysterious; of fear and awe。  Certainly she had seen before those
  features; but when and how?  Only when her thoughts had sought to
  shape out her future; and when; in spite of all the attempts to
  vision forth a fate of flowers and sunshine; a dark and chill
  foreboding made her recoil back into her deepest self。  It was a
  something found that had long been sought for by a thousand
  restless yearnings and vague desires; less of the heart than
  mind; not as when youth discovers the one to be beloved; but
  rather as when the student; long wandering after the clew to some
  truth in science; sees it glimmer dimly before him; to beckon; to
  recede; to allure; and to wane again。  She fell at last into
  unquiet slumber; vexed by deformed; fleeting; shapeless phantoms;
  and; waking; as the sun; through a veil of hazy cloud; glinted
  with a sickly ray across the casement; she heard her father
  settled back betimes to his one pursuit; and calling forth from
  his Familiar a low mournful strain; like a dirge over the dead。
  〃And why;〃 she asked; when she descended to the room below;
  〃why; my father; was your inspiration so sad; after the joy of
  last night?〃
  〃I know not; child。  I meant to be merry; and compose an air in
  honour of thee; but he is an obstinate fellow; this;and he
  would have it so。〃
  CHAPTER 1。IV。
  E cosi i pigri e timidi desiri
  Sprona。
  〃Gerusal。 Lib。;〃 cant。 iv。 lxxxviii。
  (And thus the slow and timid passions urged。)
  It was the custom of Pisani; except when the duties of his
  profession made special demand on his time; to devote a certain
  portion of the mid…day to sleep;a habit not so much a luxury as
  a necessity to a man who slept very little during the night。  In
  fact; whether to compose or to practice; the hours of noon were
  precisely those in which Pisani could not have been active if he
  would。  His genius resembled those fountains full at dawn and
  evening; overflowing at night; and perfectly dry at the meridian。
  During this time; consecrated by her husband to repose; the
  signora generally stole out to make the purchases necessary for
  the little household; or to enjoy (as what woman does not?) a
  little relaxation in gossip with some of her own sex。  And the
  day following this brilliant triumph; how many congratulations
  would she have to receive!
  At these times it was Viola's habit to seat herself without the
  door of the house; under an awning which sheltered from the sun
  without obstructing the view; and there now; with the prompt…book
  on her knee; on which her eye roves listlessly from time to time;
  you may behold her; the vine…leaves clustering from their arching
  trellis over the door behind; and the lazy white…sailed boats
  skimming along the sea that stretched before。
  As she thus sat; rather in reverie than thought; a man coming
  from the direction of Posilipo; with a slow step and downcast
  eyes; passed close by the house; and Viola; looking up abruptly;
  started in a kind of terror as she recognised the stranger。  She
  uttered an involuntary exclamation; and the cavalier turning;
  saw; and paused。
  He stood a moment or two between her and the sunlit ocean;
  contemplating in a silence too serious and gentle for the
  boldness of gallantry; the blushing face and the young slight
  form before him; at length he spoke。
  〃Are you happy; my child;〃 he said; in almost a paternal tone;
  〃at the career that lies before you?  From sixteen to thirty; the
  music in the breath of applause is sweeter than all the music
  your voice can utter!〃
  〃I know not;〃 replied Viola; falteringly; but encouraged by the
  liquid softness of the accents that addressed her;〃I know not
  whether I am happy now; but I was last night。  And I feel; too;
  Excellency; that I have you to thank; though; perhaps; you scarce
  know why!〃
  〃You deceive yourself;〃 said the cavalier; with a smile。  〃I am
  aware that I assisted to your merited success; and it is you who
  scarce know how。  The WHY I will tell you:  because I saw in your
  heart a nobler ambition than that of the woman's vanity; it was
  the daughter that interested me。  Perhaps you would rather I
  should have admired the singer?〃
  〃No; oh; no!〃
  〃Well; I believe you。  And now; since we have thus met; I will
  pause to counsel you。  When next you go to the theatre; you will
  have at your feet all the young gallants of Naples。  Poor infant!
  the flame that dazzles the eye can scorch the wing。  Remember
  that the only homage that does not sully must be that which these
  gallants will not give thee。  And whatever thy dreams of the
  future;and I see; while I speak to thee; how wandering they
  are; and wild;may only those be fulfilled which centre round
  the hearth of home。〃
  He paused; as Viola's breast heaved beneath its robe。  And with a
  burst of natural and innocent emotions; scarcely comprehending;
  though an Italian; the grave nature of his advice; she
  exclaimed;
  〃Ah; Excellency; you cannot know how dear to me that home is
  already。  And my father;there would be no home; signor; without
  him!〃
  A deep and melancholy shade settled over the face of the
  cavalier。  He looked up at the quiet house buried amidst the
  vine…leaves; and turned again to the vivid; animated face of the
  young actress。
  〃It is well;〃 said he。  〃A simple heart may be its own best
  guide; and so; go on; and prosper。  Adieu; fair singer。〃
  〃Adieu; Excellency; but;〃 and something she could not resistan
  anxious; sickening feeling of fear and hope;impelled her to the
  question; 〃I shall see you again; shall I not; at San Carlo?〃
  〃Not; at least; for some time。  I leave Naples to…day。〃
  〃Indeed!〃 and Viola's heart sank within her; the poetry of the
  stage was gone。
  〃And;〃 said the cavalier; turning back; and gently laying his
  hand on hers;〃and; perhaps; before we meet; you may have
  suffered:  known the first sharp griefs of human life;known how
  little what fame can gain; repays what the heart can lose; but be
  brave and yield not;not even to what may seem the piety of
  sorrow。  Observe yon tree in your neighbour's garden。  Look how
  it grows up; crooked and distorted。  Some wind scattered the germ
  from which it sprang; in the clefts of the rock; choked up and
  walled round by crags and buildings; by Nature and man; its life
  has been one struggle for the light;light which makes to that
  life the necessity and the principle:  you see how it has writhed
  and twisted; how; meeting the barrier in one spot; it has
  laboured and worked; stem and branches; towards the clear skies
  at last。  What has preserved it through each disfavour of birth
  and circumstances;why are its leaves as green and fair as those
  of the vine behind you; which; with all its arms; can embrace the
  open sunshine?  My child; because of the very instinct that
  impelled the struggle;because the labour for the light won to
  the light at length。  So with a gallant heart; through every
  adverse accident of sorrow and of fate to turn to the sun; to
  strive for the heaven; this it is that gives knowledge to the
  strong and happiness to the weak。  Ere we meet again; you will
  turn sad and heavy eyes to those quiet boughs; and when you hear
  the birds sing from them; and see the sunshine come aslant from
  crag and housetop to be the playfellow of their leaves; learn the
  lesson that Nature teaches you; and strive through darkness to
  the light!〃
  As he spoke he moved on slowly; and left Viola wondering; silent;
  saddened with his dim prophecy of coming evil; and yet; through
  sadness; charmed。  Involuntarily her eyes followed him;
  involuntarily she stretched forth her arms; as if by a gesture to
  call him back; she would have given worlds to have seen him
  turn;to have heard once more his low; calm; silvery voice; to
  have felt again the light touch of his hand on hers。  As
  moonlight that softens into beauty every angle on which it falls;
  seemed his presence;as moonlight vanishes; and things assume
  their common aspect of the rugged and the mean; he receded from
  her eyes; and the outward scene was commonplace once more。
  The stranger pas