第 97 节
作者:套牢      更新:2021-02-20 15:34      字数:9322
  pagan horror given by obscene mutes; frightful hearse; horses; and
  feathers。  As soon as; in the beautiful phrase of the Old Testament;
  John Anderson was thus gathered to his fathers; Robert went to pay a
  visit to his grandmother。
  Dressed to a point in the same costume in which he had known her
  from childhood; he found her little altered in appearance。  She was
  one of those who instead of stooping with age; settle downwards: she
  was still as erect as ever; though shorter。  Her step was feebler;
  and when she prayed; her voice quavered more。  On her face sat the
  same settled; almost hard repose; as ever; but her behaviour was
  still more gentle than when he had seen her last。  Notwithstanding;
  however; that time had wrought so little change in her appearance;
  Robert felt that somehow the mist of a separation between her world
  and his was gathering; that she was; as it were; fading from his
  sight and presence; like the moon towards 'her interlunar cave。'
  Her face was gradually turning from him towards the land of light。
  'I hae buried my best frien' but yersel'; grannie;' he said; as he
  took a chair close by her side; where he used to sit when he read
  the Bible and Boston to her。
  'I trust he's happy。  He was a douce and a weel…behaved man; and ye
  hae rizzon to respec' his memory。  Did he dee the deith o' the
  richteous; think ye; laddie?'
  'I do think that; grannie。  He loved God and his Saviour。'
  'The Lord be praised!' said Mrs。 Falconer。 'I had guid houps o' 'im
  in 's latter days。  And fowk says he's made a rich man o' ye;
  Robert?'
  'He's left me ilka thing; excep' something till 's servan'swha hae
  weel deserved it。'
  'Eh; Robert! but it's a terrible snare。  Siller 's an awfu' thing。
  My puir Anerew never begud to gang the ill gait; till he began to
  hae ower muckle siller。  But it badena lang wi' 'im。'
  'But it's no an ill thing itsel'; grannie; for God made siller as
  weel 's ither things。'
  'He thinksna muckle o' 't; though; or he wad gie mair o' 't to some
  fowk。  But as ye say; it's his; and gin ye hae grace to use 't
  aricht; it may be made a great blessin' to yersel' and ither fowk。
  But eh; laddie! tak guid tent 'at ye ride upo' the tap o' 't; an'
  no lat it rise like a muckle jaw (billow) ower yer heid; for it's an
  awfu' thing to be droont in riches。'
  'Them 'at prays no to be led into temptation hae a chancehaena
  they; grannie?'
  'That hae they; Robert。  And to be plain wi' ye; I haena that muckle
  fear o' ye; for I hae heard the kin' o' life 'at ye hae been
  leadin'。  God's hearkent to my prayers for you; and gin ye gang on
  as ye hae begun; my prayers; like them o' David the son o' Jesse;
  are endit。  Gang on; my dear lad; gang on to pluck brands frae the
  burnin'。  Haud oot a helpin' han' to ilka son and dauchter o' Adam
  'at will tak a grip o' 't。  Be a burnin' an' a shinin' licht; that
  men may praise; no you; for ye're but clay i' the han's o' the
  potter; but yer Father in heaven。  Tak the drunkard frae his whusky;
  the deboshed frae his debosh; the sweirer frae his aiths; the leear
  frae his lees; and giena ony o' them ower muckle o' yer siller at
  ance; for fear 'at they grow fat an' kick an' defy God and you。
  That's my advice to ye; Robert。'
  'And I houp I'll be able to haud gey and near till 't; grannie; for
  it's o' the best。  But wha tellt ye what I was aboot in Lonnon?'
  'Himsel'。'
  'Dr。 Anderson?'
  'Ay; jist himsel'。  I hae had letter upo' letter frae 'im aboot you
  and a' 'at ye was aboot。  He keepit me acquant wi' 't a'。'
  This fresh proof of his friend's affection touched Robert deeply。
  He had himself written often to his grandmother; but he had never
  entered into any detail of his doings; although the thought of her
  was ever at hand beside the thought of his father。
  'Do ye ken; grannie; what's at the hert o' my houps i' the meesery
  an' degradation that I see frae mornin' to nicht; and aftener yet
  frae nicht to mornin' i' the back closes and wynds o' the great
  city?'
  'I trust it's the glory o' God; laddie。'
  'I houp that's no a'thegither wantin'; grannie。  For I love God wi'
  a' my hert。  But I doobt it's aftener the savin' o' my earthly
  father nor the glory o' my heavenly ane that I'm thinkin' o'。'
  Mrs。 Falconer heaved a deep sigh。
  'God grant ye success; Robert;' she said。 'But that canna be richt。'
  'What canna be richt?'
  'No to put the glory o' God first and foremost。'
  'Weel; grannie; but a body canna rise to the heicht o' grace a' at
  ance; nor yet in ten; or twenty year。  Maybe gin I do richt; I may
  be able to come to that or a' be dune。  An' efter a'; I'm sure I
  love God mair nor my father。  But I canna help thinkin' this; that
  gin God heardna ae sang o' glory frae this ill…doin' earth o' his;
  he wadna be nane the waur; but'
  'Hoo ken ye that?' interrupted his grandmother。
  'Because he wad be as gude and great and grand as ever。'
  'Ow ay。'
  'But what wad come o' my father wantin' his salvation?  He can waur
  want that; remainin' the slave o' iniquity; than God can want his
  glory。  Forby; ye ken there's nae glory to God like the repentin' o'
  a sinner; justifeein' God; an' sayin' till him〃Father; ye're a'
  richt; an' I'm a' wrang。〃  What greater glory can God hae nor that?'
  'It's a' true 'at ye say。  But still gin God cares for that same
  glory; ye oucht to think o' that first; afore even the salvation o'
  yer father。'
  'Maybe ye're richt; grannie。  An' gin it be as ye sayhe's promised
  to lead us into a' trowth; an' he'll lead me into that trowth。  But
  I'm thinkin' it's mair for oor sakes than his ain 'at he cares aboot
  his glory。  I dinna believe 'at he thinks aboot his glory excep' for
  the sake o' the trowth an' men's herts deein' for want o' 't。'
  Mrs。 Falconer thought for a moment。
  'It may be 'at ye're richt; laddie; but ye hae a way o' sayin'
  things 'at 's some fearsome。'
  'God's nae like a prood man to tak offence; grannie。  There's
  naething pleases him like the trowth; an' there's naething
  displeases him like leein'; particularly whan it's by way o'
  uphaudin' him。  He wants nae sic uphaudin'。  Noo; ye say things
  aboot him whiles 'at soun's to me fearsome。'
  'What kin' o' things are they; laddie?' asked the old lady; with
  offence glooming in the background。
  'Sic like as whan ye speyk aboot him as gin he was a puir prood
  bailey…like body; fu' o' his ain importance; an' ready to be doon
  upo' onybody 'at didna ca' him by the name o' 's officeay
  think…thinkin' aboot 's ain glory; in place o' the quaiet; michty;
  gran'; self…forgettin'; a'…creatin'; a'…uphaudin'; eternal bein';
  wha took the form o' man in Christ Jesus; jist that he micht hae 't
  in 's pooer to beir and be humblet for oor sakes。  Eh; grannie!
  think o' the face o' that man o' sorrows; that never said a hard
  word till a sinfu' wuman; or a despised publican: was he thinkin'
  aboot 's ain glory; think ye?  An' we hae no richt to say we ken God
  save in the face o' Christ Jesus。  Whatever 's no like Christ is no
  like God。'
  'But; laddie; he cam to saitisfee God's justice by sufferin' the
  punishment due to oor sins; to turn aside his wrath an' curse; to
  reconcile him to us。  Sae he cudna be a'thegither like God。'
  'He did naething o' the kin'; grannie。  It's a' a lee that。  He cam
  to saitisfee God's justice by giein' him back his bairns; by garrin'
  them see that God was just; by sendin' them greetin' hame to fa' at
  his feet; an' grip his knees an' say; 〃Father; ye're i' the richt。〃
  He cam to lift the weicht o' the sins that God had curst aff o' the
  shoothers o' them 'at did them; by makin' them turn agen them; an'
  be for God an' no for sin。  And there isna a word o' reconceelin'
  God till 's in a' the Testament; for there was no need o' that: it
  was us that he needed to be reconcilet to him。  An' sae he bore oor
  sins and carried oor sorrows; for those sins comin' oot in the
  multitudesay and in his ain disciples as weel; caused him no en'
  o' grief o' mind an' pain o' body; as a'body kens。  It wasna his ain
  sins; for he had nane; but oors; that caused him sufferin'; and he
  took them awa'they're vainishin' even noo frae the earth; though
  it doesna luik like it in Rag…fair or Petticoat…lane。  An' for oor
  sorrowsthey jist garred him greit。  His richteousness jist
  annihilates oor guilt; for it's a great gulf that swallows up and
  destroys 't。  And sae he gae his life a ransom for us: and he is the
  life o' the world。  He took oor sins upo' him; for he cam into the
  middle o' them an' took them upby no sleicht o' han'; by no
  quibblin' o' the lawyers; aboot imputin' his richteousness to us;
  and sic like; which is no to be found i' the Bible at a'; though I
  dinna say that there's no possible meanin' i' the phrase; but he
  took them and took them awa'; and here am I; grannie; growin' oot o'
  my sins in consequennce; and there are ye; grann