第 9 节
作者:风格1      更新:2021-02-20 15:32      字数:9322
  turning a corner; fear took hold on me from head to foot … slavish;
  superstitious fear; and though I did not stop in my advance; yet I
  went on slowly; like a man who should have passed a bourne
  unnoticed; and strayed into the country of the dead。  For there;
  upon the narrow new…made road; between the stripling pines; was a
  mediaeval friar; fighting with a barrowful of turfs。  Every Sunday
  of my childhood I used to study the Hermits of Marco Sadeler …
  enchanting prints; full of wood and field and mediaeval landscapes;
  as large as a county; for the imagination to go a…travelling in;
  and here; sure enough; was one of Marco Sadeler's heroes。  He was
  robed in white like any spectre; and the hood falling back; in the
  instancy of his contention with the barrow; disclosed a pate as
  bald and yellow as a skull。  He might have been buried any time
  these thousand years; and all the lively parts of him resolved into
  earth and broken up with the farmer's harrow。
  I was troubled besides in my mind as to etiquette。  Durst I address
  a person who was under a vow of silence?  Clearly not。  But drawing
  near; I doffed my cap to him with a far…away superstitious
  reverence。  He nodded back; and cheerfully addressed me。  Was I
  going to the monastery?  Who was I?  An Englishman?  Ah; an
  Irishman; then?
  'No;' I said; 'a Scotsman。'
  A Scotsman?  Ah; he had never seen a Scotsman before。  And he
  looked me all over; his good; honest; brawny countenance shining
  with interest; as a boy might look upon a lion or an alligator。
  From him I learned with disgust that I could not be received at Our
  Lady of the Snows; I might get a meal; perhaps; but that was all。
  And then; as our talk ran on; and it turned out that I was not a
  pedlar; but a literary man; who drew landscapes and was going to
  write a book; he changed his manner of thinking as to my reception
  (for I fear they respect persons even in a Trappist monastery); and
  told me I must be sure to ask for the Father Prior; and state my
  case to him in full。  On second thoughts he determined to go down
  with me himself; he thought he could manage for me better。  Might
  he say that I was a geographer?
  No; I thought; in the interests of truth; he positively might not。
  'Very well; then' (with disappointment); 'an author。'
  It appeared he had been in a seminary with six young Irishmen; all
  priests long since; who had received newspapers and kept him
  informed of the state of ecclesiastical affairs in England。  And he
  asked me eagerly after Dr。 Pusey; for whose conversion the good man
  had continued ever since to pray night and morning。
  'I thought he was very near the truth;' he said; 'and he will reach
  it yet; there is so much virtue in prayer。'
  He must be a stiff; ungodly Protestant who can take anything but
  pleasure in this kind and hopeful story。  While he was thus near
  the subject; the good father asked me if I were a Christian; and
  when he found I was not; or not after his way; he glossed it over
  with great good…will。
  The road which we were following; and which this stalwart father
  had made with his own two hands within the space of a year; came to
  a corner; and showed us some white buildings a little farther on
  beyond the wood。  At the same time; the bell once more sounded
  abroad。  We were hard upon the monastery。  Father Apollinaris (for
  that was my companion's name) stopped me。
  'I must not speak to you down there;' he said。  'Ask for the
  Brother Porter; and all will be well。  But try to see me as you go
  out again through the wood; where I may speak to you。  I am charmed
  to have made your acquaintance。'
  And then suddenly raising his arms; flapping his fingers; and
  crying out twice; 'I must not speak; I must not speak!' he ran away
  in front of me; and disappeared into the monastery door。
  I own this somewhat ghastly eccentricity went a good way to revive
  my terrors。  But where one was so good and simple; why should not
  all be alike?  I took heart of grace; and went forward to the gate
  as fast as Modestine; who seemed to have a disaffection for
  monasteries; would permit。  It was the first door; in my
  acquaintance of her; which she had not shown an indecent haste to
  enter。  I summoned the place in form; though with a quaking heart。
  Father Michael; the Father Hospitaller; and a pair of brown…robed
  brothers came to the gate and spoke with me a while。  I think my
  sack was the great attraction; it had already beguiled the heart of
  poor Apollinaris; who had charged me on my life to show it to the
  Father Prior; But whether it was my address; or the sack; or the
  idea speedily published among that part of the brotherhood who
  attend on strangers that I was not a pedlar after all; I found no
  difficulty as to my reception。  Modestine was led away by a layman
  to the stables; and I and my pack were received into Our Lady of
  the Snows。
  THE MONKS
  FATHER MICHAEL; a pleasant; fresh…faced; smiling man; perhaps of
  thirty…five; took me to the pantry; and gave me a glass of liqueur
  to stay me until dinner。  We had some talk; or rather I should say
  he listened to my prattle indulgently enough; but with an
  abstracted air; like a spirit with a thing of clay。  And truly;
  when I remember that I descanted principally on my appetite; and
  that it must have been by that time more than eighteen hours since
  Father Michael had so much as broken bread; I can well understand
  that he would find an earthly savour in my conversation。  But his
  manner; though superior; was exquisitely gracious; and I find I
  have a lurking curiosity as to Father Michael's past。
  The whet administered; I was left alone for a little in the
  monastery garden。  This is no more than the main court; laid out in
  sandy paths and beds of parti…coloured dahlias; and with a fountain
  and a black statue of the Virgin in the centre。  The buildings
  stand around it four…square; bleak; as yet unseasoned by the years
  and weather; and with no other features than a belfry and a pair of
  slated gables。  Brothers in white; brothers in brown; passed
  silently along the sanded alleys; and when I first came out; three
  hooded monks were kneeling on the terrace at their prayers。  A
  naked hill commands the monastery upon one side; and the wood
  commands it on the other。  It lies exposed to wind; the snow falls
  off and on from October to May; and sometimes lies six weeks on
  end; but if they stood in Eden; with a climate like heaven's; the
  buildings themselves would offer the same wintry and cheerless
  aspect; and for my part; on this wild September day; before I was
  called to dinner; I felt chilly in and out。
  When I had eaten well and heartily; Brother Ambrose; a hearty
  conversible Frenchman (for all those who wait on strangers have the
  liberty to speak); led me to a little room in that part of the
  building which is set apart for MM。 LES RETRAITANTS。  It was clean
  and whitewashed; and furnished with strict necessaries; a crucifix;
  a bust of the late Pope; the IMITATION in French; a book of
  religious meditations; and the LIFE OF ELIZABETH SETON; evangelist;
  it would appear; of North America and of New England in particular。
  As far as my experience goes; there is a fair field for some more
  evangelisation in these quarters; but think of Cotton Mather!  I
  should like to give him a reading of this little work in heaven;
  where I hope he dwells; but perhaps he knows all that already; and
  much more; and perhaps he and Mrs。 Seton are the dearest friends;
  and gladly unite their voices in the everlasting psalm。  Over the
  table; to conclude the inventory of the room; hung a set of
  regulations for MM。 LES RETRAITANTS:  what services they should
  attend; when they were to tell their beads or meditate; and when
  they were to rise and go to rest。  At the foot was a notable N。B。:
  'LE TEMPS LIBRE EST EMPLOYE A L'EXAMEN DE CONSCIENCE; A LA
  CONFESSION; A FAIRE DE BONNES RESOLUTIONS; ETC。'  To make good
  resolutions; indeed!  You might talk as fruitfully of making the
  hair grow on your head。
  I had scarce explored my niche when Brother Ambrose returned。  An
  English boarder; it appeared; would like to speak with me。  I
  professed my willingness; and the friar ushered in a fresh; young;
  little Irishman of fifty; a deacon of the Church; arrayed in strict
  canonicals; and wearing on his head what; in default of knowledge;
  I can only call the ecclesiastical shako。  He had lived seven years
  in retreat at a convent of nuns in Belgium; and now five at Our
  Lady of the Snows; he never saw an English newspaper; he spoke
  French imperfectly; and had he spoken it like a native; there was
  not much chance of conversation where he dwelt。  With this; he was
  a man eminently sociable; greedy of news; and simple…minded like a
  child。  If I was pleased t