第 24 节
作者:击水三千      更新:2021-02-20 15:20      字数:9321
  ate the state of her mind as if it were an affair of mightiest momentwhich; indeed; it was to him。  And presently his doubt strengthened into conviction。  She must be secretly pleased; flattered; responsive。  She had been in the office long enough to be impressed by his position。  Yes; there must be more or less pretense in her apparently complete indifferencemore or less pretense; more or less coquetry; probably not a little timidity。
  She would come down from her high horsewith help and encouragement from him。  He was impatient to get to the office and see just how she would do it what absurd; amusing attractive child's trick she would think out; imagining she could fool him; as lesser intelligences are ever fatuously imagining they can outwit greater。
  He rather thought she would come in to see him on some pretext; would maneuver round like a bird pretending to flutter away from the trap it has every intention of entering。  But eleven o'clock of a wasted morning came and she did not appear。  He went out to see if she was thereshe must be sick; she could not be there or he would have heard from her。 。 。 。  Yes; she was at her desk; exactly as always。  No; not exactly the same。 She was obviously attractive now; the air of insignificance had gone; and not the dullest eyes in that office could fail to see at least something of her beauty。 And Tetlow was hanging over her; while the girls and boys grinned and whispered。  Clearly; the office was 〃on to〃 Tetlow。 。 。 。  Norman; erect and coldly infuriate; called out:
  〃Mr。 Tetlowone moment; please。〃
  He went back to his den; Tetlow startling and following like one on the way to the bar for sentence。 〃Mr。 Tetlow;〃 he said; when they were shut in to… gether; 〃you are making a fool of yourself before the whole office。〃
  〃Be a little patient with me; Mr。 Norman;〃 said the head clerk humbly。  〃I've got another place for her。 She's going to take it to…morrow。  Thenthere'll be no more trouble。〃
  Norman paled。  〃She wishes to leave?〃 he contrived to articulate。
  〃She spoke to me about leaving before I told her I had found her another job。〃
  Norman debatedbut for only a moment。  〃I do not wish her to leave;〃 he said coldly。  〃I find her useful and most trustworthy。〃
  Tetlow's eyes were fixed strangely upon him。
  〃What's the matter with you?〃 asked Norman; the under…note of danger but thinly covered。
  〃Then she was right;〃 said Tetlow slowly。  〃I thought she was mistaken。  I see that she is right。〃
  〃What do you mean?〃 said Normana mere inquiry; devoid of bluster or any other form of nervousness。
  〃You know very well what I mean; Fred Norman;〃 said Tetlow。  〃And you ought to be ashamed of yourself。〃
  〃Don't stand there scowling and grimacing like an idiot;〃 said Norman with an amused smile。  〃What do you mean?〃
  〃She told meabout your coming to see her about your offer to do something for her fatherabout your acting in a way that made her uneasy。〃
  For an instant Norman was panic…stricken。  Then his estimate of her reassured him。  〃I took your advice;〃 said he。  〃I went to see for myself。  How did I act that she was made uneasy?〃
  〃She didn't say。  But a woman can tell what a man has in the back of his headwhen it concerns her。  And she is a good womanso innocent that you ought to be ashamed of yourself for even thinking of her in that way。  God has given innocence instincts; and she felt what you were about。〃
  Norman laugheda deliberate provocation。  〃Love has made a fool of you; old man;〃 he said。
  〃I notice you don't deny;〃 retorted Tetlow shrewdly。
  〃Deny what?  There's nothing to deny。〃  He felt secure now that he knew she had been reticent with Tetlow as to the happenings in the cottage。
  〃Maybe I'm wronging you;〃 said Tetlow; but not in the tone of belief。  〃However that may be; I know you'll not refuse to listen to my appeal。  I love her; Norman。  I'm going to make her my wife if I can。 And I ask youfor the sake of our old friendship to let her alone。  I've no doubt you could dazzle her。 You couldn't make a bad woman of her。  But you could make her very miserable。〃
  Norman pushed about the papers before him。  His face wore a cynical smile; but Tetlow; who knew him in all his moods; saw that he was deeply agitated。
  〃I don't know that I can win her; Fred;〃 he pleaded。 〃But I feel that I might if I had a fair chance。〃
  〃You think she'd refuse YOU?〃 said Norman。
  〃Like a flash; unless I'd made her care for me。 That's the kind she is。〃
  〃That sounds absurd。  Why; there isn't a woman in New York who would refuse a chance to take a high jump up。〃
  〃I'd have said so; too。  But since I've gotten acquainted with her I've learned better。  She may be spoiled some day; but she hasn't been yet。  God knows; I wish I could tempt her。  But I can't。〃
  〃You're entirely too credulous; old man。  She'll make a fool of you。〃
  〃I know better;〃 Tetlow stubbornly maintained。 〃Anyhow; I don't care。  I love her; and I'd marry her; no matter what her reason for marrying me was。〃
  What pitiful infatuation!worse than his own。 Poor Tetlow!he deserved a better fate than to be drawn into this girl's trapfor; of course; she never could care for such a heavy citizenheavy and homely the loosely fat kind of homely that is admired by no one; not even by a woman with no eye at all for the physical points of the male。  It would be a real kindness to save worthy Tetlow。  What a fool she'd make of him!how she'd squander his moneyand torment him with jealousyand unfit him for his career。  Poor Tetlow!  If he could get what he wanted; he'd be well punished for his imprudence in wanting it。  Really; could friendship do him a greater service than to save him?
  Norman gave Tetlow a friendly; humorous glance。 〃You're a hopeless case; Billy;〃 he said。  〃But at least don't rush into trouble。  Take your time。  You can always get in; you know; and you may not get in quite so deep。〃
  〃You promise to let her alone?〃 said Tetlow eagerly。
  Again his distinguished friend laughed。  〃Don't be an ass; old man。  Why imagine that; just because you've taken a fancy to a girl; everyone wants her?〃 He clapped him on the shoulder; gave him a push toward the door。  〃I've wasted enough time on this nonsense。〃
  Tetlow did not venture to disregard a hint so plain。 He went with his doubt still unsolvedhis doubt whether his jealousy was right or his high opinion of his hero friend whose series of ever…mounting successes had filled him with adoration。  He knew the way of success; knew no man could tread it unless he had; or acquired; a certain hardness of heart that made him an uncomfortable not to say dangerous associate。  He regretted his own inability to acquire that indispensable hardness; and envied and admired it in Fred Norman。  But; at the same time that he admired; he could not help distrusting。
  Norman battled with his insanity an hour; then sent for Miss Hallowell。
  The girl had lost her look of strength and vitality。 She seemed frail and dimso unimportant physically that he wondered why her charm for him persisted。 Yet it did persist。  If he could take her in his arms; could make her drooping beauty revive!through love for him if possible; if not; then through anger and hate!  He must make her feel; must make her acknowledge; that he had power。  It seemed to him another instance of the resistless fascination which the unattainable; however unworthy; has ever had for the conqueror temperament。
  〃You are leaving?〃 he said curtly; both a question and an affirmation。
  〃Yes。〃
  〃You are making a mistakea serious mistake。〃
  She stood before him listlessly; as if she had no interest either in what he was saying or in him。  That maddening indifference!
  〃It was a mistake to tattle your trouble to Tetlow。〃
  〃I did not tattle;〃 said she quietly; colorlessly。  〃I said only enough to make him help me。〃
  〃And what did he say about me?〃
  〃That I had misjudged youthat I must be mistaken。〃
  Norman laughed。  〃How seriously the little people of the world do take themselves!〃
  She looked at him。  His amused eyes met hers frankly。  〃You didn't mean it?〃 she said。
  He beamed on her。  〃Certainly I did。  But I'm not a lunatic or a wild beast。  Do you think I would take advantage of a girl in your position?〃
  Her eyes seemed to grow large and weary; and an expression of experience stole over her young face; giving it a strange appearance of age…in…youth。  〃It has been done;〃 said she。
  How reconcile such a look with the theory of her childlike innocence?  But then how reconcile any two of the many varied personalities he had seen in her? He said:  〃Yesit has been done。  But not by me。 I shall take from you only what you gladly give。〃
  〃You will get nothing else;〃 said she with quiet strength。
  〃That being settled〃 he went on; holding up a small package of papers bound together by an elastic 〃Here are the proposed articles of incorporation of the Chemical Research Company。  How do you like the name?〃
  〃What is it?〃
  〃The company that is to back your father。  Capital stock; twenty…five thousand dollars; one half paid up。  Your father to be employed as director of the laboratories at five thousand a year; with a fund of ten thousand to draw upon。  You to be employed as secretary