第 50 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:19      字数:9322
  〃You know; my dearest boy;〃 she said to him; 〃that papa〃 (she always
  called Theobald 〃papa〃 when talking to Ernest) 〃is so anxious you
  should not go into the Church blindly; and without fully realising
  the difficulties of a clergyman's position。  He has considered all
  of them himself; and has been shown how small they are; when they
  are faced boldly; but he wishes you; too; to feel them as strongly
  and completely as possible before committing yourself to irrevocable
  vows; so that you may never; never have to regret the step you will
  have taken。〃
  This was the first time Ernest had heard that there were any
  difficulties; and he not unnaturally enquired in a vague way after
  their nature。
  〃That; my dear boy;〃 rejoined Christina; 〃is a question which I am
  not fitted to enter upon either by nature or education。  I might
  easily unsettle your mind without being able to settle it again。
  Oh; no!  Such questions are far better avoided by women; and; I
  should have thought; by men; but papa wished me to speak to you upon
  the subject; so that there might be no mistake hereafter; and I have
  done so。  Now; therefore; you know all。〃
  The conversation ended here; so far as this subject was concerned;
  and Ernest thought he did know all。  His mother would not have told
  him he knew allnot about a matter of that sortunless he actually
  did know it; well; it did not come to very much; he supposed there
  were some difficulties; but his father; who at any rate was an
  excellent scholar and a learned man; was probably quite right here;
  and he need not trouble himself more about them。  So little
  impression did the conversation make on him; that it was not till
  long afterwards that; happening to remember it; he saw what a piece
  of sleight of hand had been practised upon him。  Theobald and
  Christina; however; were satisfied that they had done their duty by
  opening their son's eyes to the difficulties of assenting to all a
  clergyman must assent to。  This was enough; it was a matter for
  rejoicing that; though they had been put so fully and candidly
  before him; he did not find them serious。  It was not in vain that
  they had prayed for so many years to be made 〃TRULY honest and
  conscientious。〃
  〃And now; my dear;〃 resumed Christina; after having disposed of all
  the difficulties that might stand in the way of Ernest's becoming a
  clergyman; 〃there is another matter on which I should like to have a
  talk with you。  It is about your sister Charlotte。  You know how
  clever she is; and what a dear; kind sister she has been and always
  will be to yourself and Joey。  I wish; my dearest Ernest; that I saw
  more chance of her finding a suitable husband than I do at
  Battersby; and I sometimes think you might do more than you do to
  help her。〃
  Ernest began to chafe at this; for he had heard it so often; but he
  said nothing。
  〃You know; my dear; a brother can do so much for his sister if he
  lays himself out to do it。  A mother can do very littleindeed; it
  is hardly a mother's place to seek out young men; it is a brother's
  place to find a suitable partner for his sister; all that I can do
  is to try to make Battersby as attractive as possible to any of your
  friends whom you may invite。  And in that;〃 she added; with a little
  toss of her head; 〃I do not think I have been deficient hitherto。〃
  Ernest said he had already at different times asked several of his
  friends。
  〃Yes; my dear; but you must admit that they were none of them
  exactly the kind of young man whom Charlotte could be expected to
  take a fancy to。  Indeed; I must own to having been a little
  disappointed that you should have yourself chosen any of these as
  your intimate friends。〃
  Ernest winced again。
  〃You never brought down Figgins when you were at Roughborough; now I
  should have thought Figgins would have been just the kind of boy
  whom you might have asked to come and see us。〃
  Figgins had been gone through times out of number already。  Ernest
  had hardly known him; and Figgins; being nearly three years older
  than Ernest; had left long before he did。  Besides he had not been a
  nice boy; and had made himself unpleasant to Ernest in many ways。
  〃Now;〃 continued his mother; 〃there's Towneley。  I have heard you
  speak of Towneley as having rowed with you in a boat at Cambridge。
  I wish; my dear; you would cultivate your acquaintance with
  Towneley; and ask him to pay us a visit。  The name has an
  aristocratic sound; and I think I have heard you say he is an eldest
  son。〃
  Ernest flushed at the sound of Towneley's name。
  What had really happened in respect of Ernest's friends was briefly
  this。  His mother liked to get hold of the names of the boys and
  especially of any who were at all intimate with her son; the more
  she heard; the more she wanted to know; there was no gorging her to
  satiety; she was like a ravenous young cuckoo being fed upon a grass
  plot by a water wag…tail; she would swallow all that Ernest could
  bring her; and yet be as hungry as before。  And she always went to
  Ernest for her meals rather than to Joey; for Joey was either more
  stupid or more impenetrableat any rate she could pump Ernest much
  the better of the two。
  From time to time an actual live boy had been thrown to her; either
  by being caught and brought to Battersby; or by being asked to meet
  her if at any time she came to Roughborough。  She had generally made
  herself agreeable; or fairly agreeable; as long as the boy was
  present; but as soon as she got Ernest to herself again she changed
  her note。  Into whatever form she might throw her criticisms it came
  always in the end to this; that his friend was no good; that Ernest
  was not much better; and that he should have brought her someone
  else; for this one would not do at all。
  The more intimate the boy had been or was supposed to be with Ernest
  the more he was declared to be naught; till in the end he had hit
  upon the plan of saying; concerning any boy whom he particularly
  liked; that he was not one of his especial chums; and that indeed he
  hardly knew why he had asked him; but he found he only fell on
  Scylla in trying to avoid Charybdis; for though the boy was declared
  to be more successful it was Ernest who was naught for not thinking
  more highly of him。
  When she had once got hold of a name she never forgot it。  〃And how
  is So…and…so?〃 she would exclaim; mentioning some former friend of
  Ernest's with whom he had either now quarrelled; or who had long
  since proved to be a mere comet and no fixed star at all。  How
  Ernest wished he had never mentioned So…and…so's name; and vowed to
  himself that he would never talk about his friends in future; but in
  a few hours he would forget and would prattle away as imprudently as
  ever; then his mother would pounce noiselessly on his remarks as a
  barn…owl pounces upon a mouse; and would bring them up in a pellet
  six months afterwards when they were no longer in harmony with their
  surroundings。
  Then there was Theobald。  If a boy or college friend had been
  invited to Battersby; Theobald would lay himself out at first to be
  agreeable。  He could do this well enough when he liked; and as
  regards the outside world he generally did like。  His clerical
  neighbours; and indeed all his neighbours; respected him yearly more
  and more; and would have given Ernest sufficient cause to regret his
  imprudence if he had dared to hint that he had anything; however
  little; to complain of。  Theobald's mind worked in this way:  〃Now;
  I know Ernest has told this boy what a disagreeable person I am; and
  I will just show him that I am not disagreeable at all; but a good
  old fellow; a jolly old boy; in fact a regular old brick; and that
  it is Ernest who is in fault all through。〃
  So he would behave very nicely to the boy at first; and the boy
  would be delighted with him; and side with him against Ernest。  Of
  course if Ernest had got the boy to come to Battersby he wanted him
  to enjoy his visit; and was therefore pleased that Theobald should
  behave so well; but at the same time he stood so much in need of
  moral support that it was painful to him to see one of his own
  familiar friends go over to the enemy's camp。  For no matter how
  well we may know a thinghow clearly we may see a certain patch of
  colour; for example; as red; it shakes us and knocks us about to
  find another see it; or be more than half inclined to see it; as
  green。
  Theobald had generally begun to get a little impatient before the
  end of the visit; but the impression formed during the earlier part
  was the one which the visitor had carried away with him。  Theobald
  never discussed any of the boys with Ernest。  It was Christina who
  did this。  Theobald let them come; because Christina in a quiet;
  persistent way insisted on it; when they did come he behaved; as I
  have said; civilly; but he did not like it; whereas Christina did
  like it very much; she would have had half Roughborough and half
  Cambridge to come and stay at Battersby if she could have managed
  it; and if it would not have cost so much money:  she liked their
  coming; so that she might make a new acquaintance; and she liked
  tearing them to pieces and flinging the bits over Ernest as soon as
  she had had enough of th