第 47 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:19      字数:9321
  straightforwardness of character that was stamped upon his face; a
  love of humour; and a temper which was more easily appeased than
  ruffled made up for some awkwardness and want of savoir faire。  He
  soon became a not unpopular member of the best set of his year; and
  though neither capable of becoming; nor aspiring to become; a
  leader; was admitted by the leaders as among their nearer hangers…
  on。
  Of ambition he had at that time not one particle; greatness; or
  indeed superiority of any kind; seemed so far off and
  incomprehensible to him that the idea of connecting it with himself
  never crossed his mind。  If he could escape the notice of all those
  with whom he did not feel himself en rapport; he conceived that he
  had triumphed sufficiently。  He did not care about taking a good
  degree; except that it must be good enough to keep his father and
  mother quiet。  He did not dream of being able to get a fellowship;
  if he had; he would have tried hard to do so; for he became so fond
  of Cambridge that he could not bear the thought of having to leave
  it; the briefness indeed of the season during which his present
  happiness was to last was almost the only thing that now seriously
  troubled him。
  Having less to attend to in the matter of growing; and having got
  his head more free; he took to reading fairly wellnot because he
  liked it; but because he was told he ought to do so; and his natural
  instinct; like that of all very young men who are good for anything;
  was to do as those in authority told him。  The intention at
  Battersby was (for Dr Skinner had said that Ernest could never get a
  fellowship) that he should take a sufficiently good degree to be
  able to get a tutorship or mastership in some school preparatory to
  taking orders。  When he was twenty…one years old his money was to
  come into his own hands; and the best thing he could do with it
  would be to buy the next presentation to a living; the rector of
  which was now old; and live on his mastership or tutorship till the
  living fell in。  He could buy a very good living for the sum which
  his grandfather's legacy now amounted to; for Theobald had never had
  any serious intention of making deductions for his son's maintenance
  and education; and the money had accumulated till it was now about
  five thousand pounds; he had only talked about making deductions in
  order to stimulate the boy to exertion as far as possible; by making
  him think that this was his only chance of escaping starvationor
  perhaps from pure love of teasing。
  When Ernest had a living of 600 pounds or 700 pounds a year with a
  house; and not too many parishionerswhy; he might add to his
  income by taking pupils; or even keeping a school; and then; say at
  thirty; he might marry。  It was not easy for Theobald to hit on any
  much more sensible plan。  He could not get Ernest into business; for
  he had no business connectionsbesides he did not know what
  business meant; he had no interest; again; at the Bar; medicine was
  a profession which subjected its students to ordeals and temptations
  which these fond parents shrank from on behalf of their boy; he
  would be thrown among companions and familiarised with details which
  might sully him; and though he might stand; it was 〃only too
  possible〃 that he would fall。  Besides; ordination was the road
  which Theobald knew and understood; and indeed the only road about
  which he knew anything at all; so not unnaturally it was the one he
  chose for Ernest。
  The foregoing had been instilled into my hero from earliest boyhood;
  much as it had been instilled into Theobald himself; and with the
  same resultthe conviction; namely; that he was certainly to be a
  clergyman; but that it was a long way off yet; and he supposed it
  was all right。  As for the duty of reading hard; and taking as good
  a degree as he could; this was plain enough; so he set himself to
  work; as I have said; steadily; and to the surprise of everyone as
  well as himself got a college scholarship; of no great value; but
  still a scholarship; in his freshman's term。  It is hardly necessary
  to say that Theobald stuck to the whole of this money; believing the
  pocket…money he allowed Ernest to be sufficient for him; and knowing
  how dangerous it was for young men to have money at command。  I do
  not suppose it even occurred to him to try and remember what he had
  felt when his father took a like course in regard to himself。
  Ernest's position in this respect was much what it had been at
  school except that things were on a larger scale。  His tutor's and
  cook's bills were paid for him; his father sent him his wine; over
  and above this he had 50 pounds a year with which to keep himself in
  clothes and all other expenses; this was about the usual thing at
  Emmanuel in Ernest's day; though many had much less than this。
  Ernest did as he had done at schoolhe spent what he could; soon
  after he received his money; he then incurred a few modest
  liabilities; and then lived penuriously till next term; when he
  would immediately pay his debts; and start new ones to much the same
  extent as those which he had just got rid of。  When he came into his
  5000 pounds and became independent of his father; 15 pounds or 20
  pounds served to cover the whole of his unauthorised expenditure。
  He joined the boat club; and was constant in his attendance at the
  boats。  He still smoked; but never took more wine or beer than was
  good for him; except perhaps on the occasion of a boating supper;
  but even then he found the consequences unpleasant; and soon learned
  how to keep within safe limits。  He attended chapel as often as he
  was compelled to do so; he communicated two or three times a year;
  because his tutor told him he ought to; in fact he set himself to
  live soberly and cleanly; as I imagine all his instincts prompted
  him to do; and when he fellas who that is born of woman can help
  sometimes doing?it was not till after a sharp tussle with a
  temptation that was more than his flesh and blood could stand; then
  he was very penitent and would go a fairly long while without
  sinning again; and this was how it had always been with him since he
  had arrived at years of indiscretion。
  Even to the end of his career at Cambridge he was not aware that he
  had it in him to do anything; but others had begun to see that he
  was not wanting in ability and sometimes told him so。  He did not
  believe it; indeed he knew very well that if they thought him clever
  they were being taken in; but it pleased him to have been able to
  take them in; and he tried to do so still further; he was therefore
  a good deal on the look…out for cants that he could catch and apply
  in season; and might have done himself some mischief thus if he had
  not been ready to throw over any cant as soon as he had come across
  another more nearly to his fancy; his friends used to say that when
  he rose he flew like a snipe; darting several times in various
  directions before he settled down to a steady straight flight; but
  when he had once got into this he would keep to it。
  CHAPTER XLVI
  When he was in his third year a magazine was founded at Cambridge;
  the contributions to which were exclusively by undergraduates。
  Ernest sent in an essay upon the Greek Drama; which he has declined
  to let me reproduce here without his being allowed to re…edit it。  I
  have therefore been unable to give it in its original form; but when
  pruned of its redundancies (and this is all that has been done to
  it) it runs as follows …
  〃I shall not attempt within the limits at my disposal to make a
  resume of the rise and progress of the Greek drama; but will confine
  myself to considering whether the reputation enjoyed by the three
  chief Greek tragedians; AEschylus; Sophocles and Euripides; is one
  that will be permanent; or whether they will one day be held to have
  been overrated。
  〃Why; I ask myself; do I see much that I can easily admire in Homer;
  Thucydides; Herodotus; Demosthenes; Aristophanes; Theocritus; parts
  of Lucretius; Horace's satires and epistles; to say nothing of other
  ancient writers; and yet find myself at once repelled by even those
  works of AEschylus; Sophocles and Euripides which are most generally
  admired。
  〃With the first…named writers I am in the hands of men who feel; if
  not as I do; still as I can understand their feeling; and as I am
  interested to see that they should have felt; with the second I have
  so little sympathy that I cannot understand how anyone can ever have
  taken any interest in them whatever。  Their highest flights to me
  are dull; pompous and artificial productions; which; if they were to
  appear now for the first time; would; I should think; either fall
  dead or be severely handled by the critics。  I wish to know whether
  it is I who am in fault in this matter; or whether part of the blame
  may not rest with the tragedians themselves。
  〃How far I wonder did the Athenians genuinely like these poets; and
  how far was the applause which was lavished upon them due to fashion
  or affectation?  How far; in fact; did admiration for the orthodox
  tragedians take that place among the Athenians which going to church
  does among ourselves?
  〃This is a venturesome question considering the verdict