第 35 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:19      字数:9322
  showing every desire to befriend you; but you must give greater
  proof of stability and steadiness of character than you have given
  yet if this organ matter is not to prove in the end to be only one
  disappointment the more。
  〃I must insist on two things:  firstly that this new iron in the
  fire does not distract your attention from your Latin and Greek〃
  (〃They aren't mine;〃 thought Ernest; 〃and never have been〃)〃and
  secondly; that you bring no smell of glue or shavings into the house
  here; if you make any part of the organ during your holidays。〃
  Ernest was still too young to know how unpleasant a letter he was
  receiving。  He believed the innuendoes contained in it to be
  perfectly just。  He knew he was sadly deficient in perseverance。  He
  liked some things for a little while; and then found he did not like
  them any moreand this was as bad as anything well could be。  His
  father's letter gave him one of his many fits of melancholy over his
  own worthlessness; but the thought of the organ consoled him; and he
  felt sure that here at any rate was something to which he could
  apply himself steadily without growing tired of it。
  It was settled that the organ was not to be begun before the
  Christmas holidays were over; and that till then Ernest should do a
  little plain carpentering; so as to get to know how to use his
  tools。  Miss Pontifex had a carpenter's bench set up in an outhouse
  upon her own premises; and made terms with the most respectable
  carpenter in Roughborough; by which one of his men was to come for a
  couple of hours twice a week and set Ernest on the right way; then
  she discovered she wanted this or that simple piece of work done;
  and gave the boy a commission to do it; paying him handsomely as
  well as finding him in tools and materials。  She never gave him a
  syllable of good advice; or talked to him about everything's
  depending upon his own exertions; but she kissed him often; and
  would come into the workshop and act the part of one who took an
  interest in what was being done so cleverly as ere long to become
  really interested。
  What boy would not take kindly to almost anything with such
  assistance?  All boys like making things; the exercise of sawing;
  planing and hammering; proved exactly what his aunt had wanted to
  findsomething that should exercise; but not too much; and at the
  same time amuse him; when Ernest's sallow face was flushed with his
  work; and his eyes were sparkling with pleasure; he looked quite a
  different boy from the one his aunt had taken in hand only a few
  months earlier。  His inner self never told him that this was humbug;
  as it did about Latin and Greek。  Making stools and drawers was
  worth living for; and after Christmas there loomed the organ; which
  was scarcely ever absent from his mind。
  His aunt let him invite his friends; encouraging him to bring those
  whom her quick sense told her were the most desirable。  She
  smartened him up also in his personal appearance; always without
  preaching to him。  Indeed she worked wonders during the short time
  that was allowed her; and if her life had been spared I cannot think
  that my hero would have come under the shadow of that cloud which
  cast so heavy a gloom over his younger manhood; but unfortunately
  for him his gleam of sunshine was too hot and too brilliant to last;
  and he had many a storm yet to weather; before he became fairly
  happy。  For the present; however; he was supremely so; and his aunt
  was happy and grateful for his happiness; the improvement she saw in
  him; and his unrepressed affection for herself。  She became fonder
  of him from day to day in spite of his many faults and almost
  incredible foolishnesses。  It was perhaps on account of these very
  things that she saw how much he had need of her; but at any rate;
  from whatever cause; she became strengthened in her determination to
  be to him in the place of parents; and to find in him a son rather
  than a nephew。  But still she made no will。
  CHAPTER XXXV
  All went well for the first part of the following half year。  Miss
  Pontifex spent the greater part of her holidays in London; and I
  also saw her at Roughborough; where I spent a few days; staying at
  the 〃Swan。〃  I heard all about my godson in whom; however; I took
  less interest than I said I did。  I took more interest in the stage
  at that time than in anything else; and as for Ernest; I found him a
  nuisance for engrossing so much of his aunt's attention; and taking
  her so much from London。  The organ was begun; and made fair
  progress during the first two months of the half year。  Ernest was
  happier than he had ever been before; and was struggling upwards。
  The best boys took more notice of him for his aunt's sake; and he
  consorted less with those who led him into mischief。
  But much as Miss Pontifex had done; she could not all at once undo
  the effect of such surroundings as the boy had had at Battersby。
  Much as he feared and disliked his father (though he still knew not
  how much this was); he had caught much from him; if Theobald had
  been kinder Ernest would have modelled himself upon him entirely;
  and ere long would probably have become as thorough a little prig as
  could have easily been found。
  Fortunately his temper had come to him from his mother; who; when
  not frightened; and when there was nothing on the horizon which
  might cross the slightest whim of her husband; was an amiable; good…
  natured woman。  If it was not such an awful thing to say of anyone;
  I should say that she meant well。
  Ernest had also inherited his mother's love of building castles in
  the air; andso I suppose it must be calledher vanity。  He was
  very fond of showing off; and; provided he could attract attention;
  cared little from whom it came; nor what it was for。  He caught up;
  parrot…like; whatever jargon he heard from his elders; which he
  thought was the correct thing; and aired it in season and out of
  season; as though it were his own。
  Miss Pontifex was old enough and wise enough to know that this is
  the way in which even the greatest men as a general rule begin to
  develop; and was more pleased with his receptiveness and
  reproductiveness than alarmed at the things he caught and
  reproduced。
  She saw that he was much attached to herself; and trusted to this
  rather than to anything else。  She saw also that his conceit was not
  very profound; and that his fits of self…abasement were as extreme
  as his exaltation had been。  His impulsiveness and sanguine
  trustfulness in anyone who smiled pleasantly at him; or indeed was
  not absolutely unkind to him; made her more anxious about him than
  any other point in his character; she saw clearly that he would have
  to find himself rudely undeceived many a time and oft; before he
  would learn to distinguish friend from foe within reasonable time。
  It was her perception of this which led her to take the action which
  she was so soon called upon to take。
  Her health was for the most part excellent; and she had never had a
  serious illness in her life。  One morning; however; soon after
  Easter 1850; she awoke feeling seriously unwell。  For some little
  time there had been a talk of fever in the neighbourhood; but in
  those days the precautions that ought to be taken against the spread
  of infection were not so well understood as now; and nobody did
  anything。  In a day or two it became plain that Miss Pontifex had
  got an attack of typhoid fever and was dangerously ill。  On this she
  sent off a messenger to town; and desired him not to return without
  her lawyer and myself。
  We arrived on the afternoon of the day on which we had been
  summoned; and found her still free from delirium:  indeed; the
  cheery way in which she received us made it difficult to think she
  could be in danger。  She at once explained her wishes; which had
  reference; as I expected; to her nephew; and repeated the substance
  of what I have already referred to as her main source of uneasiness
  concerning him。  Then she begged me by our long and close intimacy;
  by the suddenness of the danger that had fallen on her and her
  powerlessness to avert it; to undertake what she said she well knew;
  if she died; would be an unpleasant and invidious trust。
  She wanted to leave the bulk of her money ostensibly to me; but in
  reality to her nephew; so that I should hold it in trust for him
  till he was twenty…eight years old; but neither he nor anyone else;
  except her lawyer and myself; was to know anything about it。  She
  would leave 5000 pounds in other legacies; and 15;000 pounds to
  Ernestwhich by the time he was twenty…eight would have accumulated
  to; say; 30;000 pounds。  〃Sell out the debentures;〃 she said; 〃where
  the money now isand put it into Midland Ordinary。〃
  〃Let him make his mistakes;〃 she said; 〃upon the money his
  grandfather left him。  I am no prophet; but even I can see that it
  will take that boy many years to see things as his neighbours see
  them。  He will get no help from his father and mother; who would
  never forgive him for his good luck if I left him the money
  outright; I daresay I am wrong; but I think he will have to lose the
  greater part or all of what he has; before he will know how to keep
  what he will get from me。〃
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