第 4 节
作者:天马行空      更新:2021-02-20 05:38      字数:9321
  looked  forward; after the engineering was abandoned; to his devoting  himself to the work of the Parliament House (as the Hall of the  Chief Court is called in Scotland; from the building having been  while yet there was a Scottish Parliament the place where it sat);  though truly one cannot help feeling how much Stevenson's very air  and figure would have been out of keeping among the bewigged;  pushing; sharp…set; hard…featured; and even red…faced and red…nosed  (some of them; at any rate) company; who daily walked the  Parliament House; and talked and gossiped there; often of other  things than law and equity。  〃Well; yes; perhaps it was all for the  best;〃 he said; with a sigh; on my having interjected the remark  that R。 L。 Stevenson was wielding far more influence than he ever  could have done as a Scottish counsel; even though he had risen  rapidly in his profession; and become Lord…Advocate or even a  judge。
  There was; indeed; a very pathetic kind of harking back on the  might…have…beens when I talked with him on this subject。  He had  reconciled himself in a way to the inevitable; and; like a sensible  man; was now inclined to make the most and the best of it。  The  marriage; which; on the report of it; had been but a new  disappointment to him; had; as if by magic; been transformed into a  blessing in his mind and his wife's by personal contact with Fanny  Van der Griff Stevenson; which no one who ever met her could wonder  at; but; nevertheless; his dream of seeing his only son walking in  the pathways of the Stevensons; and adorning a profession in  Edinburgh; and so winning new and welcome laurels for the family  and the name; was still present with him constantly; and by  contrast; he was depressed with contemplation of the real state of  the case; when; as I have said; I pointed out to him; as more than  once I did; what an influence his son was wielding now; not only  over those near to him; but throughout the world; compared with  what could have come to him as a lighthouse engineer; however  successful; or it may be as a briefless advocate or barrister;  walking; hardly in glory and in joy; the Hall of the Edinburgh  Parliament House。  And when I pictured the yet greater influence  that was sure to come to him; he only shook his head with that  smile which tells of hopes long…cherished and lost at last; and of  resignation gained; as though at stern duty's call and an honest  desire for the good of those near and dear to him。  It moved me  more than I can say; and always in the midst of it he adroitly; and  somewhat abruptly; changed the subject。  Such penalties do parents  often pay for the honour of giving geniuses to the world。  Here;  again; it may be true; 〃the individual withers but the world is  more and more。〃
  The impression of a kind of tragic fatality was but added to when  Stevenson would speak of his father in such terms of love and  admiration as quite moved one; of his desire to please him; of his  highest respect and gratitude to him; and pride in having such a  father。  It was most characteristic that when; in his travels in  America; he met a gentleman who expressed plainly his keen  disappointment on learning that he had but been introduced to the  son and not to the father … to the as yet but budding author … and  not to the builder of the great lighthouse beacons that constantly  saved mariners from shipwreck round many stormy coasts; he should  record the incident; as his readers will remember; with such a  strange mixture of a pride and filial gratitude; and half humorous  humiliation。  Such is the penalty a son of genius often pays in  heart…throbs for the inability to do aught else but follow his  destiny … follow his star; even though as Dante says:…
  〃Se tu segui tua stella Non puoi fallire a glorioso porto。〃 (3)
  What added a keen thrill as of quivering flesh exposed; was that  Thomas Stevenson on one side was exactly the man to appreciate such  attainments and work in another; and I often wondered how far the  sense of Edinburgh propriety and worldly estimates did weigh with  him here。
  Mr Stevenson mentioned to me a peculiar fact which has since been  noted by his son; that; notwithstanding the kind of work he had so  successfully engaged in; he was no mathematician; and had to submit  his calculations to another to be worked out in definite  mathematical formulae。  Thomas Stevenson gave one the impression of  a remarkably sweet; great personality; grave; anxious; almost  morbidly forecasting; yet full of childlike hope and ready  affection; but; perhaps; so earnestly taken up with some points as  to exaggerate their importance and be too self…conscious and easily  offended in respect to them。  But there was no affectation in him。   He was simple…minded; sincere to the core; most kindly; homely;  hospitable; much intent on brotherly offices。  He had the Scottish  PERFERVIDUM too … he could tolerate nothing mean or creeping; and  his eye would lighten and glance in a striking manner when such was  spoken of。  I have since heard that his charities were very  extensive; and dispensed in the most hidden and secret ways。  He  acted here on the Scripture direction; 〃Let not thy left hand know  what thy right hand doeth。〃  He was much exercised when I saw him  about some defects; as he held; in the methods of Scotch education  (for he was a true lover of youth; and cared more for character  being formed than for heads being merely crammed)。  Sagacious; with  fine forecast; with a high ideal; and yet up to a certain point a  most tolerant temper; he was a fine specimen of the Scottish  gentleman。  His son tells that; as he was engaged in work  calculated to benefit the world and to save life; he would not for  long take out a patent for his inventions; and thus lost immense  sums。  I can well believe that:  it seems quite in keeping with my  impressions of the man。  There was nothing stolid or selfishly  absorbed in him。  He bore the marks of deep; true; honest feeling;  true benevolence; and open…handed generosity; and despite the son's  great pen…craft; and inventive power; would have forgiven my saying  that sometimes I have had a doubt whether the father was not; after  all; the greater man of the two; though certainly not; like the  hero of IN MEMORIAM; moulded 〃in colossal calm。〃
  In theological matters; in which Thomas Stevenson had been much and  deeply exercised; he held very strong views; leading decisively to  ultra…Calvinism; but; as I myself could well sympathise with such  views; if I did not hold them; knowing well the strange ways in  which they had gone to form grand; if sometimes sternly forbidding  characters; there were no cross…purposes as there might have been  with some on that subject。  And always I felt I had an original  character and a most interesting one to study。
  This is another very characteristic letter to me from Davos Platz:
  〃CHALET BUOL; DAVOS; GRISONS; SWITZERLAND。  (NO DATE。)
  〃MY DEAR DR JAPP; … You must think me a forgetful rogue; as indeed  I am; for I have but now told my publisher to send you a copy of  the FAMILIAR STUDIES。  However; I own I have delayed this letter  till I could send you the enclosed。  Remembering the night at  Braemar; when we visited the picture…gallery; I hoped they might  amuse you。
  〃You see we do some publishing hereaway。
  〃With kind regards; believe me; always yours faithfully; ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON。〃
  〃I shall hope to see you in town in May。〃
  The enclosed was the second series of MORAL EMBLEMS; by R。 L。  Stevenson; printed by Samuel Osbourne。  My answer to this letter  brought the following:
  〃CHALET…BUOL; DAVOS; APRIL 1st; 1882。
  〃MY DEAR DR JAPP; … A good day to date this letter; which is; in  fact; a confession of incapacity。  During my wife's wretched  illness … or I should say the worst of it; for she is not yet  rightly well … I somewhat lost my head; and entirely lost a great  quire of corrected proofs。  This is one of the results:  I hope  there are none more serious。  I was never so sick of any volume as  I was of that; I was continually receiving fresh proofs with fresh  infinitesimal difficulties。  I was ill; I did really fear; for my  wife was worse than ill。  Well; 'tis out now; and though I have  already observed several carelessnesses myself; and now here is  another of your finding … of which indeed; I ought to be ashamed …  it will only justify the sweeping humility of the preface。
  〃Symonds was actually dining with us when your letter came; and I  communicated your remarks; which pleased him。  He is a far better  and more interesting thing than his books。
  〃The elephant was my wife's; so she is proportionately elate you  should have picked it out for praise from a collection; let us add;  so replete with the highest qualities of art。
  〃My wicked carcass; as John Knox calls it; holds together  wonderfully。  In addition to many other things; and a volume of  travel; I find I have written since December ninety Cornhill pp。 of  Magazine work … essays and stories … 40;000 words; and I am none  the worse … I am better。  I begin to hope I may; if not outlive  this wolverine upon my shoulders; at least carry him bravely like  Symonds or Alexander Pope。  I begin to take