第 75 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-20 04:45      字数:9322
  said Billy。  〃Anyway; we need washing。〃
  〃You do indeed;〃 said Freckles。  〃I will head this
  procession to the garage; and there we will remove the
  first coat。〃 For the remainder of Billy's visit the nurse;
  chauffeur; and every servant of the O'More household had
  something of importance on their minds; and Billy's every
  step was shadowed。
  〃I have Billy's consent;〃 said Philip to Elnora; 〃and all
  the other consent you have stipulated。  Before you think
  of something more; give me your left hand; please。〃
  Elnora gave it gladly; and the emerald slipped on her finger。
  Then they went together into the forest to tell each other
  all about it; and talk it over。
  〃Have you seen Edith?〃 asked Philip。
  〃No;〃 answered Elnora。  〃But she must be here; or she
  may have seen me when we went to Petoskey a few days ago。
  Her people have a cottage over on the bluff; but the
  Angel never told me until to…day。  I didn't want to make
  that trip; but the folks were so anxious to entertain me;
  and it was only a few days until I intended to let you know
  myself where I was。〃
  〃And I was going to wait just that long; and if I didn't
  hear then I was getting ready to turn over the country。
  I can scarcely realize yet that Edith sent me that telegram。〃
  〃No wonder!  It's a difficult thing to believe。  I can't
  express how I feel for her。〃
  〃Let us never speak of it again;〃 said Philip。  〃I came
  nearer feeling sorry for her last night than I have yet。
  I couldn't sleep on that boat coming over; and I couldn't
  put away the thought of what sending that message cost her。
  I never would have believed it possible that she would do it。
  But it is done。  We will forget it。〃
  〃I scarcely think I shall;〃 said Elnora。  〃It is something
  I like to remember。  How suffering must have changed her!
  I would give anything to bring her peace。〃
  〃Henderson came to see me at the hospital a few days ago。
  He's gone a rather wild pace; but if he had been held
  from youth by the love of a good woman he might have
  lived differently。  There are things about him one cannot
  help admiring。〃
  〃I think he loves her;〃 said Elnora softly。
  〃He does!  He always has!  He never made any secret
  of it。  He will cut in now and do his level best;
  but he told me that he thought she would send him away。
  He understands her thoroughly。〃
  Edith Carr did not understand herself。  She went to
  her room after her good…bye to Henderson; lay on her
  bed and tried to think why she was suffering as she was。
  〃It is all my selfishness; my unrestrained temper; my
  pride in my looks; my ambition to be first;〃 she said。
  〃That is what has caused this trouble。〃
  Then she went deeper。
  〃How does it happen that I am so selfish; that I never
  controlled my temper; that I thought beauty and social
  position the vital things of life?〃 she muttered。  〃I think
  that goes a little past me。  I think a mother who allows a
  child to grow up as I did; who educates it only for the
  frivolities of life; has a share in that child's ending。
  I think my mother has some responsibility in this;〃 Edith
  Carr whispered to the night。  〃But she will recognize none。
  She would laugh at me if I tried to tell her what I have
  suffered and the bitter; bitter lesson I have learned。
  No one really cares; but Hart。  I've sent him away; so
  there is no one!  No one!〃
  Edith pressed her fingers across her burning eyes and
  lay still。
  〃He is gone!〃 she whispered at last。   〃He would go at once。
  He would not see me again。  I should think he never would
  want to see me any more。  But I will want to see him!
  My soul!  I want him now!  I want him every minute!
  He is all I have。  And I've sent him away。  Oh; these
  dreadful days to come; alone!  I can't bear it。  Hart!
  Hart!〃 she cried aloud。  〃I want you!  No one cares but you。
  No one understands but you。  Oh; I want you!〃
  She sprang from her bed and felt her way to her desk。
  〃Get me some one at the Henderson cottage;〃 she said
  to Central; and waited shivering。
  〃They don't answer。〃
  〃They are there!  You must get them。  Turn on the buzzer。〃
  After a time the sleepy voice of Mrs。 Henderson answered。
  〃Has Hart gone?〃 panted Edith Carr。
  〃No!  He came in late and began to talk about starting
  to California。  He hasn't slept in weeks to amount
  to anything。  I put him to bed。  There is time enough to
  start to California when he awakens。  Edith; what are you
  planning to do next with that boy of mine?〃
  〃Will you tell him I want to see him before he goes?〃
  〃Yes; but I won't wake him。〃
  〃I don't want you to。  Just tell him in the morning。〃
  〃Very well。〃
  〃You will be sure?〃
  〃Sure!〃
  Hart was not gone。  Edith fell asleep。  She arose at
  noon the next day; took a cold bath; ate her breakfast;
  dressed carefully; and leaving word that she had gone to
  the forest; she walked slowly across the leaves。  It was
  cool and quiet there; so she sat where she could see him
  coming; and waited。  She was thinking deep and fast。
  Henderson came swiftly down the path。  A long sleep;
  food; and Edith's message had done him good。  He had
  dressed in new light flannels that were becoming。
  Edith arose and went to meet him。
  〃Let us walk in the forest;〃 she said。
  They passed the old Catholic graveyard; and entered
  the deepest wood of the Island; where all shadows were
  green; all voices of humanity ceased; and there was no
  sound save the whispering of the trees; a few bird notes and
  squirrel rustle。  There Edith seated herself on a mossy old
  log; and Henderson studied her。  He could detect a change。
  She was still pale and her eyes tired; but the dull; strained
  look was gone。  He wanted to hope; but he did not dare。
  Any other man would have forced her to speak。  The mighty
  tenderness in Henderson's heart shielded her in every way。
  〃What have you thought of that you wanted yet; Edith?〃
  he asked lightly as he stretched himself at her feet。
  〃You!〃
  Henderson lay tense and very still。
  〃Well; I am here!〃
  〃Thank Heaven for that!〃
  Henderson sat up suddenly; leaning toward her with
  questioning eyes。  Not knowing what he dared say;
  afraid of the hope which found birth in his heart; he tried
  to shield her and at the same time to feel his way。
  〃I am more thankful than I can express that you feel
  so;〃 he said。  〃I would be of use; of comfort; to you if I
  knew how; Edith。〃
  〃You are my only comfort;〃 she said。  〃I tried to send
  you away。  I thought I didn't want you。  I thought I
  couldn't bear the sight of you; because of what you have
  seen me suffer。  But I went to the root of this thing last
  night; Hart; and with self in mind; as usual; I found that
  I could not live without you。〃
  Henderson began breathing lightly。  He was afraid to
  speak or move。
  〃I faced the fact that all this is my own fault;〃
  continued Edith; 〃and came through my own selfishness。
  Then I went farther back and realized that I am as I
  was reared。  I don't want to blame my parents; but I
  was carefully trained into what I am。  If Elnora Comstock had
  been like me; Phil would have come back to me。  I can see
  how selfish I seem to him; and how I appear to you; if you
  would admit it。〃
  〃Edith;〃 said Henderson desperately; 〃there is no use
  to try to deceive you。  You have known from the first
  that I found you wrong in this。  But it's the first time in
  your life I ever thought you wrong about anythingand
  it's the only time I ever shall。  Understand; I think you
  the bravest; most beautiful woman on earth; the one most
  worth loving。〃
  〃I'm not to be considered in the same class with her。〃
  〃I don't grant that; but if I did; you; must remember
  how I compare with Phil。  He's my superior at every point。
  There's no use in discussing that。  You wanted to see me; Edith。
  What did you want?〃
  〃I wanted you to not go away。〃
  〃Not at all?〃
  〃Not at all!  Not ever!  Not unless you take me with
  you; Hart。〃
  She slightly extended one hand to him。  Henderson took
  that hand; kissing it again and again。
  〃Anything you want; Edith;〃 he said brokenly。  〃Just as
  you wish it。  Do you want me to stay here; and go on as
  we have been?〃
  〃Yes; only with a difference。〃
  〃Can you tell me; Edith?〃
  〃First; I want you to know that you are the dearest
  thing on earth to me; right now。  I would give up
  everything else; before I would you。  I can't honestly say
  that I love you with the love you deserve。  My heart is
  too sore。  It's too soon to know。  But I love you some way。
  You are necessary to me。  You are my comfort; my shield。
  If you want me; as you know me to be; Hart; you may consider
  me yours。  I give you my word of honour I will try to be
  as you would have me; just as soon as I can。〃
  Henderson kissed her hand passionately。  〃Don't;