第 51 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-20 04:45      字数:9322
  express; when the last note fell and the girl laid the
  violin in the case; closed the door; locked it and hid the
  key in the rotting wood at the end of a log。  Then she came
  to him。  Philip stood looking at her curiously。
  〃I wonder;〃 he said; 〃what people would say to that?〃
  〃I played that in public once;〃 said Elnora。  〃I think
  they liked it; fairly well。  I had a note yesterday offering
  me the leadership of the high school orchestra in Onabasha。
  I can take it as well as not。  None of my talks to the
  grades come the first thing in the morning。  I can play
  a few minutes in the orchestra and reach the rooms in
  plenty of time。  It will be more work that I love; and like
  finding the money。  I would gladly play for nothing;
  merely to be able to express myself。〃
  〃With some people it makes a regular battlefield of the
  human heartthis struggle for self…expression;〃 said Philip。
  〃You are going to do beautiful work in the world; and do
  it well。  When I realize that your violin belonged to your
  father; that he played it before you were born; and
  it no doubt affected your mother strongly; and then couple
  with that the years you have roamed these fields and
  swamps finding in nature all you had to lavish your heart
  upon; I can see how you evolved。  I understand what you
  mean by self…expression。  I know something of what you
  have to express。  The world never so wanted your message
  as it does now。  It is hungry for the things you know。
  I can see easily how your position came to you。  What you
  have to give is taught in no college; and I am not sure but
  you would spoil yourself if you tried to run your mind
  through a set groove with hundreds of others。  I never
  thought I should say such a thing to any one; but I do say
  to you; and I honestly believe it; give up the college idea。
  Your mind does not need that sort of development。  Stick close
  to your work in the woods。  You are becoming so infinitely
  greater on it; than the best college girl I ever knew;
  that there is no comparison。  When you have money to
  spend; take that violin and go to one of the world's great
  masters and let the Limberlost sing to him; if he thinks he
  can improve it; very well。  I have my doubts。〃
  〃Do you really mean that you would give up all idea of
  going to college; in my place?〃
  〃I really mean it;〃 said Philip。  〃If I now held the
  money in my hands to send you; and could give it to you
  in some way you would accept I would not。  I do not
  know why it is the fate of the world always to want
  something different from what life gives them。  If you
  only could realize it; my girl; you are in college; and
  have been always。  You are in the school of experience;
  and it has taught you to think; and given you a heart。
  God knows I envy the man who wins it!  You have been in
  the college of the Limberlost all your life; and I never
  met a graduate from any other institution who could begin
  to compare with you in sanity; clarity; and interesting knowledge。
  I wouldn't even advise you to read too many books on your lines。
  You acquire your material first hand; and you know that
  you are right。  What you should do is to begin early
  to practise self…expression。  Don't wait too long to tell us
  about the woods as you know them。〃
  〃Follow the course of the Bird Woman; you mean?〃
  asked Elnora。
  〃In your own way; with your own light。  She won't
  live forever。  You are younger; and you will be ready
  to begin where she ends。  The swamp has given you all
  you need so far; now you give it to the world in payment。
  College be confounded!  Go to work and show people
  what there is in you!〃
  Not until then did he remember Mrs。 Comstock。
  〃Should we go out to the trail and see if your mother is
  coming?〃 he asked。
  〃Here she is now;〃 said Elnora。  〃Gracious; it's a mercy
  I got that violin put away in time!  I didn't expect her
  so soon;〃 whispered the girl as she turned and went
  toward her mother。  Mrs。 Comstock's expression was peculiar
  as she looked at Elnora。
  〃I forgot that you were making sun…preserves and they
  didn't require much cooking;〃 she said。  〃We should have
  waited for you。〃
  〃Not at all!〃 answered Mrs。 Comstock。  〃Have you
  found anything yet?〃
  〃Nothing that I can show you;〃 said Elnora。  〃I am
  almost sure I have found an idea that will revolutionize
  the whole course of my work; thought; and ambitions。〃
  〃‘Ambitions!'  My; what a hefty word!〃 laughed Mrs。 Comstock。
  〃Now who would suspect a little red…haired country girl
  of harbouring such a deadly germ in her body?  Can you tell
  mother about it?〃
  〃Not if you talk to me that way; I can't;〃 said Elnora。
  〃Well; I guess we better let ambition lie。  I've always
  heard it was safest asleep。  If you ever get a bona fide
  attack; it will be time to attend it。  Let's hunt specimens。
  It is June。  Philip and I are in the grades。  You have an
  hour to put an idea into our heads that will stick for a lifetime;
  and grow for good。  That's the way I look at your job。  Now; what
  are you going to give us?  We don't want any old silly stuff
  that has been hashed over and over; we want a big new idea
  to plant in our hearts。  Come on; Miss Teacher; what is the
  boiled…down; double…distilled essence of June?  Give it to
  us strong。  We are large enough to furnish it developing ground。
  Hurry up!  Time is short and we are waiting。  What is the
  miracle of June?  What one thing epitomizes the whole month;
  and makes it just a little different from any other?〃
  〃The birth of these big night moths;〃 said Elnora promptly。
  Philip clapped his hands。  The tears started to Mrs。
  Comstock's eyes。  She took Elnora in her arms; and kissed
  her forehead。
  〃You'll do!〃 she said。  〃June is June; not because it
  has bloom; bird; fruit; or flower; exclusive to it alone。
  It's half May and half July in all of them。  But to me;
  it's just June; when it comes to these great; velvet…winged
  night moths which sweep its moonlit skies; consummating
  their scheme of creation; and dropping like a bloomed…
  out flower。  Give them moths for June。  Then make that
  the basis of your year's work。  Find the distinctive feature
  of each month; the one thing which marks it a time apart;
  and hit them squarely between the eyes with it。  Even the
  babies of the lowest grades can comprehend moths when
  they see a few emerge; and learn their history; as it can be
  lived before them。  You should show your specimens in
  pairs; then their eggs; the growing caterpillars; and then
  the cocoons。  You want to dig out the red heart of every
  month in the year; and hold it pulsing before them。
  〃I can't name all of them off…hand; but I think of one
  more right now。  February belongs to our winter birds。
  It is then the great horned owl of the swamp courts his
  mate; the big hawks pair; and even the crows begin to
  take notice。  These are truly our birds。  Like the poor
  we have them always with us。  You should hear the musicians
  of this swamp in February; Philip; on a mellow night。
  Oh; but they are in earnest!  For twenty…one years I've
  listened by night to the great owls; all the smaller sizes;
  the foxes; coons; and every resident left in these woods;
  and by day to the hawks; yellow…hammers; sap…suckers;
  titmice; crows; and other winter birds。  Only just now it's
  come to me that the distinctive feature of February is not
  linen bleaching; nor sugar making; it's the love month of our
  very own birds。  Give them hawks and owls for February; Elnora。〃
  With flashing eyes the girl looked at Philip。  〃How's that?〃
  she said。  〃Don't you think I will succeed; with such help?
  You should hear the concert she is talking about!  It is
  simply indescribable when the ground is covered with snow;
  and the moonlight white。〃
  〃It's about the best music we have;〃 said Mrs。 Comstock。
  〃I wonder if you couldn't copy that and make a strong;
  original piece out of it for your violin; Elnora?〃
  There was one tense breath; then  〃I could try;〃 said
  Elnora simply。
  Philip rushed to the rescue。  〃We must go to work;〃 he
  said; and began examining a walnut branch for Luna moth eggs。
  Elnora joined him while Mrs。 Comstock drew her embroidery
  from her pocket and sat on a log。  She said she was tired;
  they could come for her when they were ready to go。
  She could hear their voices around her until she called
  them at supper time。  When they came to her she stood
  waiting on the trail; the sewing in one hand; the
  violin in the other。  Elnora became very white; but
  followed the trail without a word。  Philip; unable to see
  a woman carry a heavier load than he; reached for
  the instrument。  Mrs。 Comstock shook her head。  She carried
  the violin home; took it into her room and closed the door。
  Elnora turned to Philip。
  〃If she destroys that; I shall die!〃 cried the girl。
  〃She won't!〃 said Philip。  〃You misunderstand her。