第 5 节
作者:猜火车      更新:2021-02-19 20:29      字数:9317
  Let me turn now to the kind of case; the religious case; namely;
  that immediately concerns us。  Here is one of the simplest
  possible type; an account of the conversion to the systematic
  religion of healthy…mindedness of a man who must already have
  been naturally of the healthy…minded type。  It shows how; when
  the fruit is ripe; a touch will make it fall。
  Mr。 Horace Fletcher; in his little book called Menticulture;
  relates that a friend with whom he was talking of the
  self…control attained by the Japanese through their practice of
  the Buddhist discipline said:
  〃'You must first get rid of anger and worry。'  'But;' said I;
  'is that possible?'  'Yes;' replied he; 'it is possible to the
  Japanese; and ought to be possible to us。'
  〃On my way back I could think of nothing else but the words get
  rid; get rid'; and the idea must have continued to possess me
  during my sleeping hours; for the first consciousness in the
  morning brought back the same thought; with the revelation of a
  discovery; which framed itself into the reasoning; 'If it is
  possible to get rid of anger and worry; why is it necessary to
  have them at all?'  I felt the strength of the argument; and at
  once accepted the reasoning。  The baby had discovered that it
  could walk。  It would scorn to creep any longer。
  〃From the instant I realized that these cancer spots of worry and
  anger were removable; they left me。  With the discovery of their
  weakness they were exorcised。  From that time life has had an
  entirely different aspect。
  〃Although from that moment the possibility and desirability of
  freedom from the depressing passions has been a reality to me; it
  took me some months to feel absolute security in my new position;
  but; as the usual occasions for worry and anger have presented
  themselves over and over again; and I have been unable to feel
  them in the slightest degree; I no longer dread or guard against
  them; and I am amazed at my increased energy and vigor of mind;
  at my strength to meet situations of all kinds and at my
  disposition to love and appreciate everything。
  〃I have had occasion to travel more than ten thousand miles by
  rail since that morning。  The same Pullman porter; conductor;
  hotel…waiter; peddler; book…agent; cabman; and others who were
  formerly a source of annoyance and irritation have been met; but
  I am not conscious of a single incivility。  All at once the whole
  world has turned good to me。  I have become; as it were;
  sensitive only to the rays of good。
  〃I could recount many experiences which prove a brand…new
  condition of mind; but one will be sufficient。  Without the
  slightest feeling of annoyance or impatience; I have seen a train
  that I had planned to take with a good deal of interested and
  pleasurable anticipation move out of the station without me;
  because my baggage did not arrive。  The porter from the hotel
  came running and panting into the station just as the train
  pulled out of sight。  When he saw me; he looked as if he feared a
  scolding。 and began to tell of being blocked in a crowded street
  and unable to get out。  When he had finished; I said to him:  'It
  doesn't matter at all; you couldn't help it; so we will try again
  to…morrow。  Here is your fee; I am sorry you had all this trouble
  in earning it。'  The look of surprise that came over his face was
  so filled with pleasure that I was repaid on the spot for the
  delay in my departure。  Next day he would not accept a cent for
  the service; and he and I are friends for life。
  〃During the first weeks of my experience I was on guard only
  against worry and anger; but; in the mean time; having noticed
  the absence of the other depressing and dwarfing passions; I
  began to trace a relationship; until I was convinced that they
  are all growths from the two roots I have specified。  I have felt
  the freedom now for so long a time that I am sure of my relation
  toward it; and I could no more harbor any of the thieving and
  depressing influences that once I nursed as a heritage of
  humanity than a fop would voluntarily wallow in a filthy gutter。
  〃There is no doubt in my mind that pure Christianity and pure
  Buddhism; and the Mental Sciences and all Religions fundamentally
  teach what has been a discovery to me; but none of them have
  presented it in the light of a simple and easy process of
  elimination。  At one time I wondered if the elimination would not
  yield to indifference and sloth。  In my experience; the contrary
  is the result。  I feel such an increased desire to do something
  useful that it seems as if I were a boy again and the energy for
  play had returned。  I could fight as readily as (and better than)
  ever; if there were occasion for it。  It does not make one a
  coward。  It can't; since fear is one of the things eliminated。  I
  notice the absence of timidity in the presence of any audience。
  When a boy; I was standing under a tree which was struck by
  lightning; and received a shock from the effects of which I never
  knew exemption until I had dissolved partnership with worry。
  Since then; lightning and thunder have been encountered under
  conditions which would formerly have caused great depression and
  discomfort; without 'my' experiencing a trace of either。
  Surprise is also greatly modified; and one is less liable to
  become startled by unexpected sights or noises。
  〃As far as I am individually concerned; I am not bothering myself
  at present as to what the results of this emancipated condition
  may be。  I have no doubt that the perfect health aimed at by
  Christian Science may be one of the possibilities; for I note a
  marked improvement in the way my stomach does its duty in
  assimilating the food I give it to handle; and I am sure it works
  better to the sound of a song than under the friction of a frown。
  Neither am I wasting any of this precious time formulating an
  idea of a future existence or a future Heaven。  The Heaven that I
  have within myself is as attractive as any that has been promised
  or that I can imagine; and I am willing to let the growth lead
  where it will; as long as the anger and their brood have no part
  in misguiding it。〃'95'
  '95' H。 Fletcher:  Menticulture; or the A…B…C of True Living; New
  York and Chicago; 1899; pp。 26; 36; abridged。
  The older medicine used to speak of two ways; lysis and crisis;
  one gradual; the other abrupt; in which one might recover from a
  bodily disease。  In the spiritual realm there are also two ways;
  one gradual; the other sudden; in which inner unification may
  occur。  Tolstoy and Bunyan may again serve us as examples;
  examples; as it happens; of the gradual way; though it must be
  confessed at the outset that it is hard to follow these windings
  of the hearts of others; and one feels that their words do not
  reveal their total secret。
  Howe'er this be; Tolstoy; pursuing his unending questioning;
  seemed to come to one insight after another。  First he
  perceived that his conviction that life was meaningless took only
  this finite life into account。  He was looking for the value of
  one finite term in that of another; and the whole result could
  only be one of those indeterminate equations in mathematics which
  end with infinity。  Yet this is as far as the reasoning intellect
  by itself can go; unless irrational sentiment or faith brings in
  the infinite。  Believe in the infinite as common people do; and
  life grows possible again。
  〃Since mankind has existed; wherever life has been; there also
  has been the faith that gave the possibility of living。  Faith is
  the sense of life; that sense by virtue of which man does not
  destroy himself; but continues to live on。  It is the force
  whereby we live。 If Man did not believe that he must live for
  something; he would not live at all。  The idea of an infinite
  God; of the divinity of the soul; of the union of men's actions
  with Godthese are ideas elaborated in the infinite secret
  depths of human thought。  They are ideas without which there
  would be no life; without which I myself;〃 said Tolstoy; 〃would
  not exist。  I began to see that I had no right to rely on my
  individual reasoning and neglect these answers given by faith;
  for they are the only answers to the question。〃
  Yet how believe as the common people believe; steeped as they are
  in grossest superstition?  It is impossiblebut yet