第 80 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:46      字数:9322
  arms to defend him there; and all Europe to oust him。
  While the French nation and army were swearing fidelity
  round the eagles in the Champ de Mars; four mighty
  European hosts were getting in motion for the great
  chasse a l'aigle; and one of these was a British army; of
  which two heroes of ours; Captain Dobbin and Captain
  Osborne; formed a portion。
  The news of Napoleon's escape and landing was
  received by the gallant th with a fiery delight and
  enthusiasm; which everybody can understand who knows
  that famous corps。  From the colonel to the smallest
  drummer in the regiment; all were filled with hope and
  ambition and patriotic fury; and thanked the French Emperor
  as for a personal kindness in coming to disturb the peace
  of Europe。  Now was the time the th had so long
  panted for; to show their comrades in arms that they
  could fight as well as the Peninsular veterans; and that
  all the pluck and valour of the th had not been killed
  by the West Indies and the yellow fever。  Stubble and
  Spooney looked to get their companies without purchase。
  Before the end of the campaign (which she resolved
  to share); Mrs。 Major O'Dowd hoped to write
  herself Mrs。 Colonel O'Dowd; C。B。  Our two friends
  (Dobbin and Osborne) were quite as much excited as the
  rest: and each in his wayMr。 Dobbin very quietly; Mr。
  Osborne very loudly and energeticallywas bent upon
  doing his duty; and gaining his share of honour and
  distinction。
  The agitation thrilling through the country and army
  in consequence of this news was so great; that private
  matters were little heeded: and hence probably George
  Osborne; just gazetted to his company; busy with preparations
  for the march; which must come inevitably; and
  panting for further promotionwas not so much affected
  by other incidents which would have interested him at a
  more quiet period。  He was not; it must be confessed;
  very much cast down by good old Mr。 Sedley's catastrophe。
  He tried his new uniform; which became him
  very handsomely; on the day when the first meeting of
  the creditors of the unfortunate gentleman took place。
  His father told him of the wicked; rascally; shameful
  conduct of the bankrupt; reminded him of what he had
  said about Amelia; and that their connection was broken
  off for ever; and gave him that evening a good sum of
  money to pay for the new clothes and epaulets in which
  he looked so well。  Money was always useful to this free…
  handed young fellow; and he took it without many words。
  The bills were up in the Sedley house; where he had
  passed so many; many happy hours。  He could see
  them as he walked from home that night (to the Old
  Slaughters'; where he put up when in town) shining white
  in the moon。  That comfortable home was shut; then; upon
  Amelia and her parents: where had they taken refuge?
  The thought of their ruin affected him not a little。  He
  was very melancholy that night in the coffee…room at
  the Slaughters'; and drank a good deal; as his comrades
  remarked there。
  Dobbin came in presently; cautioned him about the
  drink; which he only took; he said; because he was
  deuced low; but when his friend began to put to him
  clumsy inquiries; and asked him for news in a significant
  manner; Osborne declined entering into conversation with
  him; avowing; however; that he was devilish disturbed
  and unhappy。
  Three days afterwards; Dobbin found Osborne in his
  room at the barrackshis head on the table; a number
  of papers about; the young Captain evidently in a state
  of great despondency。  〃Sheshe's sent me back some
  things I gave hersome damned trinkets。  Look here!〃
  There was a little packet directed in the well…known hand
  to Captain George Osborne; and some things lying about
  a ring; a silver knife he had bought; as a boy; for her
  at a fair; a gold chain; and a locket with hair in it。  〃It's
  all over;〃 said he; with a groan of sickening remorse。
  〃Look; Will; you may read it if you like。〃
  There was a little letter of a few lines; to which he
  pointed; which said:
  My papa has ordered me to return to you these
  presents; which you made in happier days to me; and I
  am to write to you for the last time。  I think; I know you
  feel as much as I do the blow which has come upon us。
  It is I that absolve you from an engagement which is
  impossible in our present misery。  I am sure you had no
  share in it; or in the cruel suspicions of Mr。 Osborne;
  which are the hardest of all our griefs to bear。  Farewell。
  Farewell。  I pray God to strengthen me to bear this and
  other calamities; and to bless you always。     A。
  I shall often play upon the pianoyour piano。  It was
  like you to send it。
  Dobbin was very soft…hearted。  The sight of women
  and children in pain always used to melt him。  The idea
  of Amelia broken…hearted and lonely tore that good…
  natured soul with anguish。  And he broke out into an
  emotion; which anybody who likes may consider unmanly。
  He swore that Amelia was an angel; to which Osborne
  said aye with all his heart。  He; too; had been reviewing
  the history of their livesand had seen her from her
  childhood to her present age; so sweet; so innocent;
  so charmingly simple; and artlessly fond and tender。
  What a pang it was to lose all that: to have had it and
  not prized it!  A thousand homely scenes and recollections
  crowded on himin which he always saw her good
  and beautiful。  And for himself; he blushed with remorse
  and shame; as the remembrance of his own selfishness
  and indifference contrasted with that perfect purity。  For
  a while; glory; war; everything was forgotten; and the
  pair of friends talked about her only。
  〃Where are they?〃 Osborne asked; after a long talk;
  and a long pauseand; in truth; with no little shame at
  thinking that he had taken no steps to follow her。  〃Where
  are they? There's no address to the note。〃
  Dobbin knew。  He had not merely sent the piano; but
  had written a note to Mrs。 Sedley; and asked permission
  to come and see herand he had seen her; and Amelia
  too; yesterday; before he came down to Chatham; and;
  what is more; he had brought that farewell letter and
  packet which had so moved them。
  The good…natured fellow had found Mrs。 Sedley only
  too willing to receive him; and greatly agitated by the
  arrival of the piano; which; as she conjectured; MUST have
  come from George; and was a signal of amity on his
  part。  Captain Dobbin did not correct this error of the
  worthy lady; but listened to all her story of complaints
  and misfortunes with great sympathycondoled with
  her losses and privations; and agreed in reprehending the
  cruel conduct of Mr。 Osborne towards his first benefactor。
  When she had eased her overflowing bosom somewhat;
  and poured forth many of her sorrows; he had the
  courage to ask actually to see Amelia; who was above in
  her room as usual; and whom her mother led trembling
  downstairs。
  Her appearance was so ghastly; and her look of despair
  so pathetic; that honest William Dobbin was frightened
  as he beheld it; and read the most fatal forebodings in
  that pale fixed face。  After sitting in his company a minute
  or two; she put the packet into his hand; and said;
  〃Take this to Captain Osborne; if you please; andand I
  hope he's quite welland it was very kind of you to
  come and see usand we like our new house very much。
  And II think I'll go upstairs; Mamma; for I'm not very
  strong。〃 And with this; and a curtsey and a smile; the
  poor child went her way。  The mother; as she led her up;
  cast back looks of anguish towards Dobbin。  The good
  fellow wanted no such appeal。  He loved her himself too
  fondly for that。  Inexpressible grief; and pity; and terror
  pursued him; and he came away as if he was a criminal
  after seeing her。
  When Osborne heard that his friend had found her;
  he made hot and anxious inquiries regarding the poor
  child。  How was she?  How did she look?  What did she
  say?  His comrade took his hand; and looked him in the
  face。
  〃George; she's dying;〃 William Dobbin saidand could
  speak no more。
  There was a buxom Irish servant…girl; who performed
  all the duties of the little house where the Sedley family
  had found refuge: and this girl had in vain; on many
  previous days; striven to give Amelia aid or consolation。
  Emmy was much too sad to answer; or even to be aware
  of the attempts the other was making in her favour。
  Four hours after the talk between Dobbin and Osborne;
  this servant…maid came into Amelia's room; where she
  sate as usual; brooding silently over her lettersher
  little treasures。  The girl; smiling; and looking arch and
  happy; made many trials to attract poor Emmy's
  attention; who; however; took no heed of her。
  〃Miss Emmy;〃 said the girl。
  〃I'm coming;〃 Emmy said; not looking round。
  〃There's a message;〃 the maid went on。  〃There's
  somethingsomebodysure; here's a new letter for you
  don't be reading them old ones any more。〃 And she gave
  her a letter; which Emmy took; and read。
  〃I must see you;〃 the letter said。  〃Dearest Emmy
  dearest lovedearest wife; come to me。〃
  George and her mother were outside; waiting until she
  had read the letter。
  CHAPTER XXX
  〃The Girl I Left Behind Me〃
  We do not claim to rank among the military novelists。
  Our place is with the non…combatants。  When the decks
  are cleared for action we go