第 77 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:46      字数:9322
  this young woman had got up the genteel jargon so well;
  that a native could not speak it better; and it was only
  from her French being so good; that you could know she
  was not a born woman of fashion。
  George; who had left Emmy on her bench on entering
  the ball…room; very soon found his way back when
  Rebecca was by her dear friend's side。  Becky was just
  lecturing Mrs。 Osborne upon the follies which her
  husband was committing。  〃For God's sake; stop him from
  gambling; my dear;〃 she said; 〃or he will ruin himself。
  He and Rawdon are playing at cards every night; and you
  know he is very poor; and Rawdon will win every shilling
  from him if he does not take care。  Why don't you prevent
  him; you little careless creature?  Why don't you
  come to us of an evening; instead of moping at home
  with that Captain Dobbin?  I dare say he is tres aimable;
  but how could one love a man with feet of such size?
  Your husband's feet are darlingsHere he comes。  Where
  have you been; wretch?  Here is Emmy crying her eyes
  out for you。  Are you coming to fetch me for the quadrille?〃
  And she left her bouquet and shawl by Amelia's
  side; and tripped off with George to dance。  Women only
  know how to wound so。  There is a poison on the tips of
  their little shafts; which stings a thousand times more
  than a man's blunter weapon。  Our poor Emmy; who had
  never hated; never sneered all her life; was powerless in
  the hands of her remorseless little enemy。
  George danced with Rebecca twice or thricehow many
  times Amelia scarcely knew。  She sat quite unnoticed in
  her corner; except when Rawdon came up with some
  words of clumsy conversation:  and later in the evening;
  when Captain Dobbin made so bold as to bring her
  refreshments and sit beside her。  He did not like to ask her
  why she was so sad; but as a pretext for the tears which
  were filling in her eyes; she told him that Mrs。 Crawley
  had alarmed her by telling her that George would go on
  playing。
  〃It is curious; when a man is bent upon play; by what
  clumsy rogues he will allow himself to be cheated;〃
  Dobbin said; and Emmy said; 〃Indeed。〃 She was thinking of
  something else。  It was not the loss of the money that
  grieved her。
  At last George came back for Rebecca's shawl and
  flowers。  She was going away。  She did not even
  condescend to come back and say good…bye to Amelia。  The
  poor girl let her husband come and go without saying a
  word; and her head fell on her breast。  Dobbin had been
  called away; and was whispering deep in conversation
  with the General of the division; his friend; and had not
  seen this last parting。  George went away then with the
  bouquet; but when he gave it to the owner; there lay a
  note; coiled like a snake among the flowers。  Rebecca's
  eye caught it at once。  She had been used to deal with
  notes in early life。  She put out her hand and took the
  nosegay。  He saw by her eyes as they met; that she was
  aware what she should find there。  Her husband hurried her
  away; still too intent upon his own thoughts; seemingly;
  to take note of any marks of recognition which might
  pass between his friend and his wife。  These were;
  however; but trifling。  Rebecca gave George her hand with one
  of her usual quick knowing glances; and made a curtsey
  and walked away。  George bowed over the hand; said
  nothing in reply to a remark of Crawley's; did not hear it
  even; his brain was so throbbing with triumph and
  excitement; and allowed them to go away without a word。
  His wife saw the one part at least of the bouquet…scene。
  It was quite natural that George should come at Rebecca's
  request to get her her scarf and flowers:  it was no
  more than he had done twenty times before in the course
  of the last few days; but now it was too much for her。
  〃William;〃 she said; suddenly clinging to Dobbin; who was
  near her; 〃you've always been very kind to meI'm
  I'm not well。  Take me home。〃  She did not know she called
  him by his Christian name; as George was accustomed to
  do。  He went away with her quickly。  Her lodgings were
  hard by; and they threaded through the crowd without;
  where everything seemed to be more astir than even in the
  ball…room within。
  George had been angry twice or thrice at finding his
  wife up on his return from the parties which he
  frequented:  so she went straight to bed now; but although
  she did not sleep; and although the din and clatter; and
  the galloping of horsemen were incessant; she never heard
  any of these noises; having quite other disturbances to
  keep her awake。
  Osborne meanwhile; wild with elation; went off to a
  play…table; and began to bet frantically。  He won repeatedly。
  〃Everything succeeds with me to…night;〃 he said。
  But his luck at play even did not cure him of his restlessness;
  and he started up after awhile; pocketing his winnings;
  and went to a buffet; where he drank off many
  bumpers of wine。
  Here; as he was rattling away to the people around;
  laughing loudly and wild with spirits; Dobbin found him。
  He had been to the card…tables to look there for his
  friend。  Dobbin looked as pale and grave as his comrade
  was flushed and jovial。
  ''Hullo; Dob!  Come and drink; old Dob!  The Duke's
  wine is famous。  Give me some more; you sir〃; and he
  held out a trembling glass for the liquor。
  〃Come out; George;〃 said Dobbin; still gravely; 〃don't
  drink。〃
  〃Drink!  there's nothing like it。  Drink yourself; and
  light up your lantern jaws; old boy。  Here's to you。〃
  Dobbin went up and whispered something to him; at
  which George; giving a start and a wild hurray; tossed off
  his glass; clapped it on the table; and walked away
  speedily on his friend's arm。  〃The enemy has passed the
  Sambre;〃 William said; 〃and our left is already engaged。
  Come away。  We are to march in three hours。〃
  Away went George; his nerves quivering with excitement
  at the news so long looked for; so sudden when it
  came。  What were love and intrigue now?  He thought
  about a thousand things but these in his rapid walk to his
  quartershis past life and future chancesthe fate which
  might be before himthe wife; the child perhaps; from
  whom unseen he might be about to part。  Oh; how he
  wished that night's work undone!  and that with a clear
  conscience at least he might say farewell to the tender
  and guileless being by whose love he had set such little
  store!
  He thought over his brief married life。  In those few
  weeks he had frightfully dissipated his little capital。  How
  wild and reckless he had been!  Should any mischance
  befall him:  what was then left for her?  How unworthy he
  was of her。  Why had he married her?  He was not fit for
  marriage。  Why had he disobeyed his father; who had been
  always so generous to him?  Hope; remorse; ambition;
  tenderness; and selfish regret filled his heart。  He sate
  down and wrote to his father; remembering what he had
  said once before; when he was engaged to fight a duel。
  Dawn faintly streaked the sky as he closed this farewell
  letter。  He sealed it; and kissed the superscription。  He
  thought how he had deserted that generous father; and of
  the thousand kindnesses which the stern old man had
  done him。
  He had looked into Amelia's bedroom when he entered;
  she lay quiet; and her eyes seemed closed; and he
  was glad that she was asleep。  On arriving at his quarters
  from the ball; he had found his regimental servant already
  making preparations for his departure:  the man
  had understood his signal to be still; and these arrangements
  were very quickly and silently made。  Should he go
  in and wake Amelia; he thought; or leave a note for her
  brother to break the news of departure to her?  He went
  in to look at her once again。
  She had been awake when he first entered her room;
  but had kept her eyes closed; so that even her wakefulness
  should not seem to reproach him。  But when he had
  returned; so soon after herself; too; this timid little heart
  had felt more at ease; and turning towards him as he
  stept softly out of the room; she had fallen into a light
  sleep。  George came in and looked at her again; entering
  still more softly。  By the pale night…lamp he could see her
  sweet; pale facethe purple eyelids were fringed and
  closed; and one round arm; smooth and white; lay outside
  of the coverlet。  Good God!  how pure she was; how
  gentle; how tender; and how friendless!  and he; how
  selfish; brutal; and black with crime!  Heart…stained; and
  shame…stricken; he stood at the bed's foot; and looked at
  the sleeping girl。  How dared hewho was he; to pray for
  one so spotless!  God bless her!  God bless her!  He came to
  the bedside; and looked at the hand; the little soft hand;
  lying asleep; and he bent over the pillow noiselessly
  towards the gentle pale face。
  Two fair arms closed tenderly round his neck as he
  stooped down。  〃I am awake; George;〃 the poor child said;
  with a sob fit to break the little heart that nestled so
  closely by his own。  She was awake; poor soul; and to
  railings and the beadle: who; if she walked ever so short
  a distance to buy a ribbon in Southampton Row; was
  followed by Black Sambo with an enormous cane: who
  was always cared for; dressed; put to bed; and watched
  over by ever so many guardian angels; with and without
  wages?  Bon Dieu; I say; is it not hard that the