第 46 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:46      字数:9322
  would be。  To account for your own hard…heartedness and
  ingratitude in such a case; you are bound to prove the
  other party's crime。  It is not that you are selfish; brutal;
  and angry at the failure of a speculationno; noit is
  that your partner has led you into it by the basest treachery
  and with the most sinister motives。  From a mere
  sense of consistency; a persecutor is bound to show that
  the fallen man is a villainotherwise he; the persecutor;
  is a wretch himself。
  And as a general rule; which may make all creditors
  who are inclined to be severe pretty comfortable in their
  minds; no men embarrassed are altogether honest; very
  likely。  They conceal something; they exaggerate chances
  of good luck; hide away the real state of affairs; say that
  things are flourishing when they are hopeless; keep a
  smiling face (a dreary smile it is) upon the verge of
  bankruptcyare ready to lay hold of any pretext for
  delay or of any money; so as to stave off the inevitable
  ruin a few days longer。  〃Down with such dishonesty;〃
  says the creditor in triumph; and reviles his sinking
  enemy。  〃You fool; why do you catch at a straw?〃 calm
  good sense says to the man that is drowning。  〃You villain;
  why do you shrink from plunging into the irretrievable
  Gazette?〃 says prosperity to the poor devil battling in
  that black gulf。  Who has not remarked the readiness with
  which the closest of friends and honestest of men suspect
  and accuse each other of cheating when they fall out
  on money matters? Everybody does it。  Everybody is right;
  I suppose; and the world is a rogue。
  Then Osborne had the intolerable sense of former
  benefits to goad and irritate him: these are always a
  cause of hostility aggravated。  Finally; he had to break off
  the match between Sedley's daughter and his son; and
  as it had gone very far indeed; and as the poor girl's
  happiness and perhaps character were compromised; it was
  necessary to show the strongest reasons for the rupture;
  and for John Osborne to prove John Sedley to be a very
  bad character indeed。
  At the meetings of creditors; then; he comported himself
  with a savageness and scorn towards Sedley; which
  almost succeeded in breaking the heart of that ruined
  bankrupt man。  On George's intercourse with Amelia he
  put an instant vetomenacing the youth with maledictions
  if he broke his commands; and vilipending the
  poor innocent girl as the basest and most artful of vixens。
  One of the great conditions of anger and hatred is; that
  you must tell and believe lies against the hated object; in
  order; as we said; to be consistent。
  When the great crash camethe announcement of
  ruin; and the departure from Russell Square; and the
  declaration that all was over between her and Georgeall
  over between her and love; her and happiness; her and
  faith in the worlda brutal letter from John Osborne
  told her in a few curt lines that her father's conduct had
  been of such a nature that all engagements between the
  families were at an endwhen the final award came; it
  did not shock her so much as her parents; as her mother
  rather expected (for John Sedley himself was entirely
  prostrate in the ruins of his own affairs and shattered
  honour)。  Amelia took the news very palely and calmly。
  It was only the confirmation of the dark presages which
  had long gone before。  It was the mere reading of the
  sentenceof the crime she had long ago been guiltythe
  crime of loving wrongly; too violently; against reason。
  She told no more of her thoughts now than she had
  before。  She seemed scarcely more unhappy now when
  convinced all hope was over; than before when she felt but
  dared not confess that it was gone。  So she changed from
  the large house to the small one without any mark or
  difference; remained in her little room for the most part;
  pined silently; and died away day by day。  I do not mean
  to say that all females are so。  My dear Miss Bullock; I
  do not think your heart would break in this way。  You are
  a strong…minded young woman with proper principles。
  I do not venture to say that mine would; it has suffered;
  and; it must be confessed; survived。  But there are some
  souls thus gently constituted; thus frail; and delicate; and
  tender。
  Whenever old John Sedley thought of the affair
  between George and Amelia; or alluded to it; it was with
  bitterness almost as great as Mr。 Osborne himself had
  shown。  He cursed Osborne and his family as heartless;
  wicked; and ungrateful。  No power on earth; he swore;
  would induce him to marry his daughter to the son of
  such a villain; and he ordered Emmy to banish George
  from her mind; and to return all the presents and letters
  which she had ever had from him。
  She promised acquiescence; and tried to obey。  She put
  up the two or three trinkets: and; as for the letters; she
  drew them out of the place。where she kept them; and
  read them overas if she did not know them by heart
  already: but she could not part with them。  That effort
  was too much for her; she placed them back in her
  bosom againas you have seen a woman nurse a child
  that is dead。  Young Amelia felt that she would die or lose
  her senses outright; if torn away from this last consolation。
  How she used to blush and lighten up when those
  letters came!  How she used to trip away with a beating
  heart; so that she might read unseen!  If they were cold;
  yet how perversely this fond little soul interpreted them
  into warmth。  If they were short or selfish; what excuses
  she found for the writer!
  It was over these few worthless papers that she brooded
  and brooded。  She lived in her past lifeevery letter
  seemed to recall some circumstance of it。  How well she
  remembered them all!  His looks and tones; his dress;
  what he said and howthese relics and remembrances
  of dead affection were all that were left her in the world。
  And the business of her life; wasto watch the corpse
  of Love。
  To death she looked with inexpressible longing。  Then;
  she thought; I shall always be able to follow him。  I am not
  praising her conduct or setting her up as a model for
  Miss Bullock to imitate。  Miss B。 knows how to regulate
  her feelings better than this poor little creature。  Miss B。
  would never have committed herself as that imprudent
  Amelia had done; pledged her love irretrievably;
  confessed her heart away; and got back nothingonly a
  brittle promise which was snapt and worthless in a
  moment。  A long engagement is a partnership which one
  party is free to keep or to break; but which involves all
  the capital of the other。
  Be cautious then; young ladies; be wary how you
  engage。  Be shy of loving frankly; never tell all you feel; or
  (a better way still); feel very little。  See the consequences
  of being prematurely honest and confiding; and mistrust
  yourselves and everybody。  Get yourselves married as they
  do in France; where the lawyers are the bridesmaids and
  confidantes。  At any rate; never have any feelings which
  may make you uncomfortable; or make any promises
  which you cannot at any required moment command and
  withdraw。  That is the way to get on; and be respected;
  and have a virtuous character in Vanity Fair。
  If Amelia could have heard the comments regarding
  her which were made in the circle from which her father's
  ruin had just driven her; she would have seen what her
  own crimes were; and how entirely her character was
  jeopardised。  Such criminal imprudence Mrs。 Smith never
  knew of; such horrid familiarities Mrs。 Brown had
  always condemned; and the end might be a warning to HER
  daughters。  〃Captain Osborne; of course; could not marry
  a bankrupt's daughter;〃 the Misses Dobbin said。  〃It was
  quite enough to have been swindled by the father。  As for
  that little Amelia; her folly had really passed all〃
  〃All what?〃 Captain Dobbin roared out。  〃Haven't they
  been engaged ever since they were children?  Wasn't it
  as good as a marriage?  Dare any soul on earth breathe a
  word against the sweetest; the purest; the tenderest; the
  most angelical of young women?〃
  〃La; William; don't be so highty…tighty with US。  We're
  not men。  We can't fight you;〃 Miss Jane said。  〃We've said
  nothing against Miss Sedley: but that her conduct
  throughout was MOST IMPRUDENT; not to call it by any
  worse name; and that her parents are people who
  certainly merit their misfortunes。〃
  〃Hadn't you better; now that Miss Sedley is free;
  propose for her yourself; William?〃 Miss Ann asked
  sarcastically。  〃It would be a most eligible family
  connection。  He!  he!〃
  〃I marry her!〃 Dobbin said; blushing very much; and
  talking quick。  〃If you are so ready; young ladies; to chop
  and change; do you suppose that she is?  Laugh and sneer
  at that angel。  She can't hear it; and she's miserable and
  unfortunate; and deserves to be laughed at。  Go on
  joking; Ann。  You're the wit of the family; and the others
  like to hear it。〃
  〃I must tell you again we're not in a barrack; William;〃
  Miss Ann remarked。
  〃In a barrack; by JoveI wish anybody in a barrack
  would say what you do;〃 cried out this uproused British
  lion。  〃I should like to hear a man breathe a word against
  her; by Jupiter。  But men don't talk in this way; Ann: it's
  only women; who get together and hiss; and shriek; and
  cackle。  There; get awaydon't begin to cry