第 39 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:46      字数:9322
  you think I have no heart?  Have you all loved me; and
  been so kind to the poor orphandesertedgirl; and
  am I to feel nothing?  O my friends!  O my benefactors!
  may not my love; my life; my duty; try to repay the
  confidence you have shown me?  Do you grudge me even
  gratitude; Miss Crawley?  It is too muchmy heart is
  too full〃; and she sank down in a chair so pathetically;
  that most of the audience present were perfectly melted
  with her sadness。
  〃Whether you marry me or not; you're a good little
  girl; Becky; and I'm your vriend; mind;〃 said Sir Pitt; and
  putting on his crape…bound hat; he walked awaygreatly
  to Rebecca's relief; for it was evident that her secret
  was unrevealed to Miss Crawley; and she had the
  advantage of a brief reprieve。
  Putting her handkerchief to her eyes; and nodding
  away honest Briggs; who would have followed her
  upstairs; she went up to her apartment; while Briggs and
  Miss Crawley; in a high state of excitement; remained
  to discuss the strange event; and Firkin; not less moved;
  dived down into the kitchen regions; and talked of it
  with all the male and female company there。  And so
  impressed was Mrs。 Firkin with the news; that she thought
  proper to write off by that very night's post; 〃with her
  humble duty to Mrs。 Bute Crawley and the family at the
  Rectory; and Sir Pitt has been and proposed for to marry
  Miss Sharp; wherein she has refused him; to the wonder
  of all。〃
  The two ladies in the dining…room (where worthy
  Miss Briggs was delighted to be admitted once more to
  confidential conversation with her patroness) wondered
  to their hearts' content at Sir Pitt's offer; and Rebecca's
  refusal; Briggs very acutely suggesting that there must
  have been some obstacle in the shape of a previous
  attachment; otherwise no young woman in her senses would
  ever have refused so advantageous a proposal。
  〃You would have accepted it yourself; wouldn't you;
  Briggs?〃 Miss Crawley said; kindly。
  〃Would it not be a privilege to be Miss Crawley's
  sister?〃 Briggs replied; with meek evasion。
  〃Well; Becky would have made a good Lady Crawley;
  after all;〃 Miss Crawley remarked (who was mollified by
  the girl's refusal; and very liberal and generous now there
  was no call for her sacrifices)。  〃She has brains in plenty
  (much more wit in her little finger than you have; my
  poor dear Briggs; in all your head)。  Her manners are
  excellent; now I have formed her。  She is a Montmorency;
  Briggs; and blood is something; though I despise it for
  my part; and she would have held her own amongst those
  pompous stupid Hampshire people much better than that
  unfortunate ironmonger's daughter。〃
  Briggs coincided as usual; and the 〃previous attachment〃
  was then discussed in conjectures。  〃You poor
  friendless creatures are always having some foolish
  tendre;〃 Miss Crawley said。  〃You yourself; you know;
  were in love with a writing…master (don't cry; Briggs
  you're always crying; and it won't bring him to life again);
  and I suppose this unfortunate Becky has been silly
  and sentimental toosome apothecary; or house…steward;
  or painter; or young curate; or something of that sort。〃
  〃Poor thing! poor thing!〃 says Briggs (who was thinking
  of twenty…four years back; and that hectic young
  writing…master whose lock of yellow hair; and whose
  letters; beautiful in their illegibility; she cherished in
  her old desk upstairs)。  〃Poor thing; poor thing!〃 says
  Briggs。  Once more she was a fresh…cheeked lass of eighteen;
  she was at evening church; and the hectic writing…master
  and she were quavering out of the same psalm…book。
  〃After such conduct on Rebecca's part;〃 Miss Crawley
  said enthusiastically; 〃our family should do something。
  Find out who is the objet; Briggs。  I'll set him up in a
  shop; or order my portrait of him; you know; or speak
  to my cousin; the Bishop and I'll doter Becky; and
  we'll have a wedding; Briggs; and you shall make the
  breakfast; and be a bridesmaid。〃
  Briggs declared that it would be delightful; and vowed
  that her dear Miss Crawley was always kind and generous;
  and went up to Rebecca's bedroom to console her
  and prattle about the offer; and the refusal; and the
  cause thereof; and to hint at the generous intentions of
  Miss Crawley; and to find out who was the gentleman
  that had the mastery of Miss Sharp's heart。
  Rebecca was very kind; very affectionate and affected
  responded to Briggs's offer of tenderness with grateful
  fervourowned there was a secret attachmenta
  delicious mysterywhat a pity Miss Briggs had not
  remained half a minute longer at the keyhole!  Rebecca
  might; perhaps; have told more: but five minutes after
  Miss Briggs's arrival in Rebecca's apartment; Miss Crawley
  actually made her appearance therean unheard…of
  honourher impatience had overcome her; she could not
  wait for the tardy operations of her ambassadress: so
  she came in person; and ordered Briggs out of the room。
  And expressing her approval of Rebecca's conduct; she
  asked particulars of the interview; and the previous
  transactions which had brought about the astonishing
  offer of Sir Pitt。
  Rebecca said she had long had some notion of the
  partiality with which Sir Pitt honoured her (for he was
  in the habit of making his feelings known in a very frank
  and unreserved manner) but; not to mention private
  reasons with which she would not for the present trouble
  Miss Crawley; Sir Pitt's age; station; and habits were
  such as to render a marriage quite impossible; and
  could a woman with any feeling of self…respect and any
  decency listen to proposals at such a moment; when
  the funeral of the lover's deceased wife had not actually
  taken place?
  〃Nonsense; my dear; you would never have refused
  him had there not been some one else in the case;〃 Miss
  Crawley said; coming to her point at once。  〃Tell me the
  private reasons; what are the private reasons?  There is
  some one; who is it that has touched your heart?〃
  Rebecca cast down her eyes; and owned there was。
  〃You have guessed right; dear lady;〃 she said; with a
  sweet simple faltering voice。  〃You wonder at one so
  poor and friendless having an attachment; don't you?
  I have never heard that poverty was any safeguard
  against it。  I wish it were。〃
  〃My poor dear child;〃 cried Miss Crawley; who was
  always quite ready to be sentimental; 〃is our passion
  unrequited; then?  Are we pining in secret? Tell me all;
  and let me console you。〃
  〃I wish you could; dear Madam;〃 Rebecca said in the
  same tearful tone。  〃Indeed; indeed; I need it。〃 And she
  laid her head upon Miss Crawley's shoulder and wept
  there so naturally that the old lady; surprised into
  sympathy; embraced her with an almost maternal
  kindness; uttered many soothing protests of regard and
  affection for her; vowed that she loved her as a daughter;
  and would do everything in her power to serve her。  〃And
  now who is it; my dear?  Is it that pretty Miss Sedley's
  brother?  You said something about an affair with him。
  I'll ask him here; my dear。  And you shall have him:
  indeed you shall。〃
  〃Don't ask me now;〃 Rebecca said。  〃You shall know
  all soon。  Indeed you shall。  Dear kind Miss Crawley
  dear friend; may I say so?〃
  〃That you may; my child;〃 the old lady replied; kissing
  her。
  〃I can't tell you now;〃 sobbed out Rebecca; 〃I am
  very miserable。  But O! love me alwayspromise you will
  love me always。〃 And in the midst of mutual tearsfor
  the emotions of the younger woman had awakened the
  sympathies of the elderthis promise was solemnly given
  by Miss Crawley; who left her little protege; blessing
  and admiring her as a dear; artless; tender…hearted;
  affectionate; incomprehensible creature。
  And now she was left alone to think over the sudden
  and wonderful events of the day; and of what had been
  and what might have been。  What think you were the
  private feelings of Miss; no (begging her pardon) of
  Mrs。 Rebecca?  If; a few pages back; the present writer
  claimed the privilege of peeping into Miss Amelia
  Sedley's bedroom; and understanding with the omniscience
  of the novelist all the gentle pains and passions which
  were tossing upon that innocent pillow; why should he
  not declare himself to be Rebecca's confidante too;
  master of her secrets; and seal…keeper of that young
  woman's conscience?
  Well; then; in the first place; Rebecca gave way to
  some very sincere and touching regrets that a piece of
  marvellous good fortune should have been so near her;
  and she actually obliged to decline it。  In this natural
  emotion every properly regulated mind will certainly
  share。  What good mother is there that would not
  commiserate a penniless spinster; who might have been
  my lady; and have shared four thousand a year?  What
  well…bred young person is there in all Vanity Fair; who
  will not feel for a hard…working; ingenious; meritorious
  girl; who gets such an honourable; advantageous; provoking
  offer; just at the very moment when it is out of her
  power to accept it?  I am sure our friend Becky's
  disappointment deserves and will command every
  sympathy。
  I remember one night being in the Fair myself; at an
  evening party。  I observed old Miss Toady there also
  present; single out for her special att