第 12 节
作者:击水三千      更新:2021-02-19 01:13      字数:6584
  Trust a mothera devoted mother; my dear friend!〃  With such words
  as these I tried to soothe and comfort him; and; marvellous to
  relate; I succeeded; with the help of many cigarettes; in making him
  walk about the garden and talk; or suffer me at least to do so; for
  near an hour。  When about that time had elapsed his sister
  reappeared; reaching us rapidly and with a convulsed face while she
  held her hand to her heart。
  〃Go for the Doctor; Markgo for the Doctor this moment!〃
  〃Is he dying?  Has she killed him?〃 my poor friend cried; flinging
  away his cigarette。
  〃I don't know what she has done!  But she's frightened; and now she
  wants the Doctor。〃
  〃He told me he'd be hanged if he came back!〃  I felt myself obliged
  to mention。
  〃Preciselytherefore Mark himself must go for him; and not a
  messenger。  You must see him and tell him it's to save your child。
  The trap has been orderedit's ready。〃
  〃To save him?  I'll save him; please God!〃 Ambient cried; bounding
  with his great strides across the lawn。
  As soon as he had gone I felt I ought to have volunteered in his
  place; and I said as much to Miss Ambient; but she checked me by
  grasping my arm while we heard the wheels of the dog…cart rattle away
  from the gate。  〃He's offhe's offand now I can think!  To get him
  awaywhile I thinkwhile I think!〃
  〃While you think of what; Miss Ambient?〃
  〃Of the unspeakable thing that has happened under this roof!〃
  Her manner was habitually that of such a prophetess of ill that I at
  first allowed for some great extravagance。  But I looked at her hard;
  and the next thing felt myself turn white。  〃Dolcino IS dying then
  he's dead?〃
  〃It's too late to save him。  His mother has let him die!  I tell you
  that because you're sympathetic; because you've imagination;〃 Miss
  Ambient was good enough to add; interrupting my expression of horror。
  〃That's why you had the idea of making her read Mark's new book!〃
  〃What has that to do with it?  I don't understand you。  Your
  accusation's monstrous。〃
  〃I see it allI'm not stupid;〃 she went on; heedless of my emphasis。
  〃It was the book that finished herit was that decided her!〃
  〃Decided her?  Do you mean she has murdered her child?〃 I demanded;
  trembling at my own words。
  〃She sacrificed him; she determined to do nothing to make him live。
  Why else did she lock herself in; why else did she turn away the
  Doctor?  The book gave her a horror; she determined to rescue himto
  prevent him from ever being touched。  He had a crisis at two o'clock
  in the morning。  I know that from the nurse; who had left her then;
  but whom; for a short time; she called back。  The darling got munch
  worse; but she insisted on the nurse's going back to bed; and after
  that she was alone with him for hours。〃
  I listened with a dread that stayed my credence; while she stood
  there with her tearless glare。  〃Do you pretend then she has no pity;
  that she's cruel and insane?〃
  〃She held him in her arms; she pressed him to her breast; not to see
  him; but she gave him no remedies; she did nothing the Doctor
  ordered。  Everything's there untouched。  She has had the honesty not
  even to throw the drugs away!〃
  I dropped upon the nearest bench; overcome with my dismayquite as
  much at Miss Ambient's horrible insistence and distinctness as at the
  monstrous meaning of her words。  Yet they came amazingly straight;
  and if they did have a sense I saw myself too woefully figure in it。
  Had I been then a proximate cause ?  〃You're a very strange woman
  and you say incredible things;〃 I could only reply。
  She had one of her tragic headshakes。  〃You think it necessary to
  protest; but you're really quite ready to believe me。  You've
  received an impression of my sister…in…lawyou've guessed of what
  she's capable。〃
  I don't feel bound to say what concession on this score I made to
  Miss Ambient; who went on to relate to me that within the last half…
  hour Beatrice had had a revulsion; that she was tremendously
  frightened at what she had done; that her fright itself betrayed her;
  and that she would now give heaven and earth to save the child。  〃Let
  us hope she will!〃 I said; looking at my watch and trying to time
  poor Ambient; whereupon my companion repeated all portentously
  〃Let us hope so!〃  When I asked her if she herself could do nothing;
  and whether she oughtn't to be with her sister…in…law; she replied:
  〃You had better go and judge!  She's like a wounded tigress!〃
  I never saw Mrs。 Ambient till six months after this; and therefore
  can't pretend to have verified the comparison。  At the latter period
  she was again the type of the perfect lady。  〃She'll treat him better
  after this;〃 I remember her sister…in…law's saying in response to
  some quick outburst; on my part; of compassion for her brother。
  Though I had been in the house but thirty…six hours this young lady
  had treated me with extraordinary confidence; and there was therefore
  a certain demand I might; as such an intimate; make of her。  I
  extracted from her a pledge that she'd never say to her brother what
  she had just said to me; that she'd let him form his own theory of
  his wife's conduct。  She agreed with me that there was misery enough
  in the house without her contributing a new anguish; and that Mrs。
  Ambient's proceedings might be explained; to her husband's mind; by
  the extravagance of a jealous devotion。  Poor Mark came back with the
  Doctor much sooner than we could have hoped; but we knew five minutes
  afterwards that it was all too late。  His sole; his adored little son
  was more exquisitely beautiful in death than he had been in life。
  Mrs。 Ambient's grief was frantic; she lost her head and said strange
  things。  As for Mark'sbut I won't speak of that。  Basta; basta; as
  he used to say。  Miss Ambient kept her secretI've already had
  occasion to say that she had her good pointsbut it rankled in her
  conscience like a guilty participation and; I imagine; had something
  to do with her ultimately retiring from the world。  And; apropos of
  consciences; the reader is now in a position to judge of my
  compunction for my effort to convert my cold hostess。  I ought to
  mention that the death of her child in some degree converted her。
  When the new book came out (it was long delayed) she read it over as
  a whole; and her husband told me that during the few supreme weeks
  before her deathshe failed rapidly after losing her son; sank into
  a consumption and faded away at Mentoneshe even dipped into the
  black 〃Beltraffio。〃
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