第 6 节
作者:击水三千      更新:2021-02-19 01:13      字数:9322
  remembered the indisposed child above and the possibility of parents
  nervously or fussily anxious。
  〃What has that infant to do with ideas?〃 I asked。  〃Surely he can't
  tell one from another。  Has he read his father's novels?〃
  〃He's very precocious and very sensitive; and his mother thinks she
  can't begin to guard him too early。〃  Miss Ambient's head drooped a
  little to one side and her eyes fixed themselves on futurity。  Then
  of a sudden came a strange alteration; her face lighted to an effect
  more joyless than any gloom; to that indeed of a conscious insincere
  grimace; and she added 〃When one has children what one writes becomes
  a great responsibility。〃
  〃Children are terrible critics;〃 I prosaically answered。  〃I'm really
  glad I haven't any。〃
  〃Do you also write; then?  And in the same style as my brother?  And
  do you like that style?  And do people appreciate it in America?  I
  don't write; but I think I feel。〃  To these and various other
  inquiries and observations my young lady treated me till we heard her
  brother's step in the hall again and Mark Ambient reappeared。  He was
  so flushed and grave that I supposed he had seen something
  symptomatic in the condition of his child。  His sister apparently had
  another idea; she gazed at him from afaras if he had been a burning
  ship on the horizonand simply murmured 〃Poor old Mark!〃
  〃I hope you're not anxious;〃 I as promptly pronounced。
  〃No; but I'm disappointed。  She won't let me in。  She has locked the
  door; and I'm afraid to make a noise。〃  I daresay there might have
  been a touch of the ridiculous in such a confession; but I liked my
  new friend so much that it took nothing for me from his dignity。
  〃She tells mefrom behind the doorthat she'll let me know if he's
  worse。〃
  〃It's very good of her;〃 said Miss Ambient with a hollow sound。
  I had exchanged a glance with Mark in which it's possible he read
  that my pity for him was untinged with contempt; though I scarce know
  why he should have cared; and as his sister soon afterward got up and
  took her bedroom candlestick he proposed we should go back to his
  study。  We sat there till after midnight; he put himself into his
  slippers and an old velvet jacket; he lighted an ancient pipe; but he
  talked considerably less than before。  There were longish pauses in
  our communion; but they only made me feel we had advanced in
  intimacy。  They helped me further to understand my friend's personal
  situation and to imagine it by no means the happiest possible。  When
  his face was quiet it was vaguely troubled; showing; to my increase
  of interestif that was all that was wanted!that for him too life
  was the same struggle it had been for so many another man of genius。
  At last I prepared to leave him; and then; to my ineffable joy; he
  gave me some of the sheets of his forthcoming bookwhich; though
  unfinished; he had indulged in the luxury; so dear to writers of
  deliberation; of having 〃set up;〃 from chapter to chapter; as he
  advanced。  These early pages; the premices; in the language of
  letters; of that new fruit of his imagination; I should take to my
  room and look over at my leisure。  I was in the act of leaving him
  when the door of the study noiselessly opened and Mrs。 Ambient stood
  before us。  She observed us a moment; her candle in her hand; and
  then said to her husband that as she supposed he hadn't gone to bed
  she had come down to let him know Dolcino was more quiet and would
  probably be better in the morning。  Mark Ambient made no reply; he
  simply slipped past her in the doorway; as if for fear she might
  seize him in his passage; and bounded upstairs to judge for himself
  of his child's condition。  She looked so frankly discomfited that I
  for a moment believed her about to give him chase。  But she resigned
  herself with a sigh and her eyes turned; ruefully and without a ray;
  to the lamplit room where various books at which I had been looking
  were pulled out of their places on the shelves and the fumes of
  tobacco hung in mid…air。  I bade her good…night and then; without
  intention; by a kind of fatality; a perversity that had already made
  me address her overmuch on that question of her husband's powers; I
  alluded to the precious proof…sheets with which Ambient had entrusted
  me and which I nursed there under my arm。  〃They're the opening
  chapters of his new book;〃 I said。  〃Fancy my satisfaction at being
  allowed to carry them to my room!〃
  She turned away; leaving me to take my candlestick from the table in
  the hall; but before we separated; thinking it apparently a good
  occasion to let me know once for all since I was beginning; it would
  seem; to be quite 〃thick〃 with my hostthat there was no fitness in
  my appealing to her for sympathy in such a case; before we separated;
  I say; she remarked to me with her quick fine well…bred inveterate
  curtness:  〃I daresay you attribute to me ideas I haven't got。  I
  don't take that sort of interest in my husband's proof…sheets。  I
  consider his writings most objectionable!〃
  CHAPTER III
  I had an odd colloquy the next morning with Miss Ambient; whom I
  found strolling in the garden before breakfast。  The whole place
  looked as fresh and trim; amid the twitter of the birds; as if; an
  hour before; the housemaids had been turned into it with their dust…
  pans and feather…brushes。  I almost hesitated to light a cigarette
  and was doubly startled when; in the act of doing so; I suddenly saw
  the sister of my host; who had; at the best; something of the
  weirdness of an apparition; stand before me。  She might have been
  posing for her photograph。  Her sad…coloured robe arranged itself in
  serpentine folds at her feet; her hands locked themselves listlessly
  together in front; her chin rested on a cinque…cento ruff。  The first
  thing I did after bidding her good…morning was to ask her for news of
  her little nephewto express the hope she had heard he was better。
  She was able to gratify this trustshe spoke as if we might expect
  to see him during the day。  We walked through the shrubberies
  together and she gave me further light on her brother's household;
  which offered me an opportunity to repeat to her what his wife had so
  startled and distressed me with the night before。  WAS it the sorry
  truth that she thought his productions objectionable?
  〃She doesn't usually come out with that so soon!〃 Miss Ambient
  returned in answer to my breathlessness。
  〃Poor lady;〃 I pleaded; 〃she saw I'm a fanatic。〃
  〃Yes; she won't like you for that。  But you mustn't mind; if the rest
  of us like you!  Beatrice thinks a work of art ought to have a
  'purpose。'  But she's a charming womandon't you think her charming?
  I find in her quite the grand air。〃
  〃She's very beautiful;〃 I produced with an effort; while I reflected
  that though it was apparently true that Mark Ambient was mismated it
  was also perceptible that his sister was perfidious。  She assured me
  her brother and his wife had no other difference but thisone that
  she thought his writings immoral and his influence pernicious。  It
  was a fixed idea; she was afraid of these things for the child。  I
  answered that it was in all conscience enough; the trifle of a
  woman's regarding her husband's mind as a well of corruption; and she
  seemed much struck with the novelty of my remark。  〃But there hasn't
  been any of the sort of trouble that there so often is among married
  people;〃 she said。  〃I suppose you can judge for yourself that
  Beatrice isn't at allwell; whatever they call it when a woman kicks
  over!  And poor Mark doesn't make love to other people either。  You
  might think he would; but I assure you he doesn't。  All the same of
  course; from her point of view; you know; she has a dread of my
  brother's influence on the child on the formation of his character;
  his 'ideals;' poor little brat; his principles。  It's as if it were a
  subtle poison or a contagionsomething that would rub off on his
  tender sensibility when his father kisses him or holds him on his
  knee。  If she could she'd prevent Mark from even so much as touching
  him。  Every one knows itvisitors see it for themselves; so there's
  no harm in my telling you。  Isn't it excessively odd?  It comes from
  Beatrice's being so religious and so tremendously moralso a cheval
  on fifty thousand riguardi。  And then of course we mustn't forget;〃
  my companion added; a little unexpectedly; to this polyglot
  proposition; 〃that some of Mark's ideas arewell; reallyrather
  impossible; don't you know?〃
  I reflected as we went into the house; where we found Ambient
  unfolding The Observer at the breakfast…table; that none of them were
  probably quite so 〃impossible; don't you know?〃 as his sister。  Mrs。
  Ambient; a little 〃the worse;〃 as was mentioned; for her
  ministrations; during the night; to Dolcino; didn't appear at
  breakfast。  Her husband described her; however; as hoping to go to
  church。  I afterwards learnt that she did go; but nothing naturally
  was less on the cards than that we should accompany her。  It was
  while the church…bell droned near at hand that the author of
  〃Beltraffio〃 led me forth for the ramble he had spoken of in his
  note。  I shall attempt here no record of where we went or of what we
  saw。  We kept to