第 56 节
作者:想聊      更新:2021-02-19 01:11      字数:9320
  period teems with such events。 Who does not remember that poor young
  woman who poisoned herself; overcome by jealousy; which was perhaps
  killing Madame de Mortsauf? Who has not shuddered at the fate of that
  enchanting young girl who perished after two years of marriage; like a
  flower torn by the wind; the victim of her chaste ignorance; the
  victim of a villain with whom Ronquerolles; Montriveau; and de Marsay
  shake hands because he is useful to their political projects? What
  heart has failed to throb at the recital of the last hours of the
  woman whom no entreaties could soften; and who would never see her
  husband after nobly paying his debts? Madame d'Aiglemont saw death
  beside her and was saved only by my brother's care。 Society and
  science are accomplices in crimes for which there are no assizes。 The
  world declares that no one dies of grief; or of despair; nor yet of
  love; of anguish hidden; of hopes cultivated yet fruitless; again and
  again replanted yet forever uprooted。 Our new scientific nomenclature
  has plenty of words to explain these things; gastritis; pericarditis;
  all the thousand maladies of women the names of which are whispered in
  the ear; all serve as passports to the coffin followed by hypocritical
  tears that are soon wiped by the hand of a notary。 Can there be at the
  bottom of this great evil some law which we do not know? Must the
  centenary pitilessly strew the earth with corpses and dry them to dust
  about him that he may raise himself; as the millionaire battens on a
  myriad of little industries? Is there some powerful and venomous life
  which feasts on these gentle; tender creatures? My God! do I belong to
  the race of tigers?
  Remorse gripped my heart in its scorching fingers; and my cheeks were
  furrowed with tears as I entered the avenue of Clochegourde on a damp
  October morning; which loosened the dead leaves of the poplars planted
  by Henriette in the path where once she stood and waved her
  handkerchief as if to recall me。 Was she living? Why did I feel her
  two white hands upon my head laid prostrate in the dust? In that
  moment I paid for all the pleasures that Arabella had given me; and I
  knew that I paid dearly。 I swore not to see her again; and a hatred of
  England took possession of me。 Though Lady Dudley was only a variety
  of her species; I included all Englishwomen in my judgment。
  I received a fresh shock as I neared Clochegourde。 Jacques; Madeleine;
  and the Abbe Dominis were kneeling at the foot of a wooden cross
  placed on a piece of ground that was taken into the enclosure when the
  iron gate was put up; which the count and countess had never been
  willing to remove。 I sprang from the carriage and went towards them;
  my heart aching at the sight of these children and that grave old man
  imploring the mercy of God。 The old huntsman was there too; with bared
  head; standing a little apart。
  I stooped to kiss Jacques and Madeleine; who gave me a cold look and
  continued praying。 The abbe rose from his knees; I took him by the arm
  to support myself; saying; 〃Is she still alive?〃 He bowed his head
  sadly and gently。 〃Tell me; I implore you for Christ's sake; why are
  you praying at the foot of this cross? Why are you here; and not with
  her? Why are the children kneeling here this chilly morning? Tell me
  all; that I may do no harm through ignorance。〃
  〃For the last few days Madame le comtesse has been unwilling to see
  her children except at stated times。Monsieur;〃 he continued after a
  pause; 〃perhaps you had better wait a few hours before seeing Madame
  de Mortsauf; she is greatly changed。 It is necessary to prepare her
  for this interview; or it might cause an increase in her sufferings
  death would be a blessed release from them。〃
  I wrung the hand of the good man; whose look and voice soothed the
  pangs of others without sharpening them。
  〃We are praying God to help her;〃 he continued; 〃for she; so saintly;
  so resigned; so fit to die; has shown during the last few weeks a
  horror of death; for the first time in her life she looks at others
  who are full of health with gloomy; envious eyes。 This aberration
  comes less; I think; from the fear of death than from some inward
  intoxication;from the flowers of her youth which ferment as they
  wither。 Yes; an evil angel is striving against heaven for that
  glorious soul。 She is passing through her struggle on the Mount of
  Olives; her tears bathe the white roses of her crown as they fall; one
  by one; from the head of this wedded Jephtha。 Wait; do not see her
  yet。 You would bring to her the atmosphere of the court; she would see
  in your face the reflection of the things of life; and you would add
  to the bitterness of her regret。 Have pity on a weakness which God
  Himself forgave to His Son when He took our nature upon Him。 What
  merit would there be in conquering if we had no adversary? Permit her
  confessor or me; two old men whose worn…out lives cause her no pain;
  to prepare her for this unlooked…for meeting; for emotions which the
  Abbe Birotteau has required her to renounce。 But; in the things of
  this world there is an invisible thread of divine purpose which
  religion alone can see; and since you have come perhaps you are led by
  some celestial star of the moral world which leads to the tomb as to
  the manger〃
  He then told me; with that tempered eloquence which falls like dew
  upon the heart; that for the last six months the countess had suffered
  daily more and more; in spite of Monsieur Origet's care。 The doctor
  had come to Clochegourde every evening for two months; striving to
  rescue her from death; for her one cry had been; 〃Oh; save me!〃 〃To
  heal the body the heart must first be healed;〃 the doctor had
  exclaimed one day。
  〃As the illness increased; the words of this poor woman; once so
  gentle; have grown bitter;〃 said the Abbe。 〃She calls on earth to keep
  her; instead of asking God to take her; then she repents these murmurs
  against the divine decree。 Such alternations of feeling rend her heart
  and make the struggle between body and soul most horrible。 Often the
  body triumphs。 'You have cost me dear;' she said one day to Jacques
  and Madeleine; but in a moment; recalled to God by the look on my
  face; she turned to Madeleine with these angelic words; 'The happiness
  of others is the joy of those who cannot themselves be happy;'and
  the tone with which she said them brought tears to my eyes。 She falls;
  it is true; but each time that her feet stumble she rises higher
  towards heaven。〃
  Struck by the tone of the successive intimations chance had sent me;
  and which in this great concert of misfortunes were like a prelude of
  mournful modulations to a funereal theme; the mighty cry of expiring
  love; I cried out: 〃Surely you believe that this pure lily cut from
  earth will flower in heaven?〃
  〃You left her still a flower;〃 he answered; 〃but you will find her
  consumed; purified by the forces of suffering; pure as a diamond
  buried in the ashes。 Yes; that shining soul; angelic star; will issue
  glorious from the clouds and pass into the kingdom of the Light。〃
  As I pressed the hand of the good evangelist; my heart overflowing
  with gratitude; the count put his head; now entirely white; out of the
  door and immediately sprang towards me with signs of surprise。
  〃She was right! He is here! 'Felix; Felix; Felix has come!' she kept
  crying。 My dear friend;〃 he continued; beside himself with terror;
  〃death is here。 Why did it not take a poor madman like me with one
  foot in the grave?〃
  I walked towards the house summoning my courage; but on the threshold
  of the long antechamber which crossed the house and led to the lawn;
  the Abbe Birotteau stopped me。
  〃Madame la comtesse begs you will not enter at present;〃 he said to
  me。
  Giving a glance within the house I saw the servants coming and going;
  all busy; all dumb with grief; surprised perhaps by the orders Manette
  gave them。
  〃What has happened?〃 cried the count; alarmed by the commotion; as
  much from fear of the coming event as from the natural uneasiness of
  his character。
  〃Only a sick woman's fancy;〃 said the abbe。 〃Madame la comtesse does
  not wish to receive monsieur le vicomte as she now is。 She talks of
  dressing; why thwart her?〃
  Manette came in search of Madeleine; whom I saw leave the house a few
  moments after she had entered her mother's room。 We were all; Jacques
  and his father; the two abbes and I; silently walking up and down the
  lawn in front of the house。 I looked first at Montbazon and then at
  Azay; noticing the seared and yellow valley which answered in its
  mourning (as it ever did on all occasions) to the feelings of my
  heart。 Suddenly I beheld the dear 〃mignonne〃 gathering the autumn
  flowers; no doubt to make a bouquet at her mother's bidding。 Thinking
  of all which that signified; I was so convulsed within me that I
  staggered; my sight was blurred; and the two abbes; between whom I