第 34 节
作者:想聊      更新:2021-02-19 01:11      字数:9322
  effect as the sufferings of the early Christians; which strengthened
  their faith and made God visible to them。 In hearts that abound in
  love are there not incessant longings for a desired object; to which
  the glowing fire of our dreams gives higher value and a deeper tint?
  Are we not conscious of instigations which give to the beloved
  features the beauty of the ideal by inspiring them with thought? The
  past; dwelt on in all its details becomes magnified; the future teems
  with hope。 When two hearts filled with these electric clouds meet each
  other; their interview is like the welcome storm which revives the
  earth and stimulates it with the swift lightnings of the thunderbolt。
  How many tender pleasures came to me when I found these thoughts and
  these sensations reciprocal! With what glad eyes I followed the
  development of happiness in Henriette! A woman who renews her life
  from that of her beloved gives; perhaps; a greater proof of feeling
  than she who dies killed by a doubt; withered on her stock for want of
  sap; I know not which of the two is the more touching。
  The revival of Madame de Mortsauf was wholly natural; like the effects
  of the month of May upon the meadows; or those of the sun and of the
  brook upon the drooping flowers。 Henriette; like our dear valley of
  love; had had her winter; she revived like the valley in the
  springtime。 Before dinner we went down to the beloved terrace。 There;
  with one hand stroking the head of her son; who walked feebly beside
  her; silent; as though he were breeding an illness; she told me of her
  nights beside his pillow。
  For three months; she said; she had lived wholly within herself;
  inhabiting; as it were; a dark palace; afraid to enter sumptuous rooms
  where the light shone; where festivals were given; to her denied; at
  the door of which she stood; one glance turned upon her child; another
  to a dim and distant figure; one ear listening for moans; another for
  a voice。 She told me poems; born of solitude; such as no poet ever
  sang; but all ingenuously; without one vestige of love; one trace of
  voluptuous thought; one echo of a poesy orientally soothing as the
  rose of Frangistan。 When the count joined us she continued in the same
  tone; like a woman secure within herself; able to look proudly at her
  husband and kiss the forehead of her son without a blush。 She had
  prayed much; she had clasped her hands for nights together over her
  child; refusing to let him die。
  〃I went;〃 she said; 〃to the gate of the sanctuary and asked his life
  of God。〃
  She had had visions; and she told them to me; but when she said; in
  that angelic voice of hers; these exquisite words; 〃While I slept my
  heart watched;〃 the count harshly interrupted her。
  〃That is to say; you were half crazy;〃 he cried。
  She was silent; as deeply hurt as though it were a first wound;
  forgetting that for thirteen years this man had lost no chance to
  shoot his arrows into her heart。 Like a soaring bird struck on the
  wing by vulgar shot; she sank into a dull depression; then she roused
  herself。
  〃How is it; monsieur;〃 she said; 〃that no word of mine ever finds
  favor in your sight? Have you no indulgence for my weakness;no
  comprehension of me as a woman?〃
  She stopped short。 Already she regretted the murmur; and measured the
  future by the past; how could she expect comprehension? Had she not
  drawn upon herself some virulent attack? The blue veins of her temples
  throbbed; she shed no tears; but the color of her eyes faded。 Then she
  looked down; that she might not see her pain reflected on my face; her
  feelings guessed; her soul wooed by my soul; above all; not see the
  sympathy of young love; ready like a faithful dog to spring at the
  throat of whoever threatened his mistress; without regard to the
  assailant's strength or quality。 At such cruel moments the count's air
  of superiority was supreme。 He thought he had triumphed over his wife;
  and he pursued her with a hail of phrases which repeated the one idea;
  and were like the blows of an axe which fell with unvarying sound。
  〃Always the same?〃 I said; when the count left us to follow the
  huntsman who came to speak to him。
  〃Always;〃 answered Jacques。
  〃Always excellent; my son;〃 she said; endeavoring to withdraw Monsieur
  de Mortsauf from the judgment of his children。 〃You see only the
  present; you know nothing of the past; therefore you cannot criticise
  your father without doing him injustice。 But even if you had the pain
  of seeing that your father was to blame; family honor requires you to
  bury such secrets in silence。〃
  〃How have the changes at the Cassine and the Rhetoriere answered?〃 I
  asked; to divert her mind from bitter thoughts。
  〃Beyond my expectations;〃 she replied。 〃As soon as the buildings were
  finished we found two excellent farmers ready to hire them; one at
  four thousand five hundred francs; taxes paid; the other at five
  thousand; both leases for fifteen years。 We have already planted three
  thousand young trees on the new farms。 Manette's cousin is delighted
  to get the Rabelaye; Martineau has taken the Baude。 All OUR efforts
  have been crowned with success。 Clochegourde; without the reserved
  land which we call the home…farm; and without the timber and
  vineyards; brings in nineteen thousand francs a year; and the
  plantations are becoming valuable。 I am battling to let the home…farm
  to Martineau; the keeper; whose eldest son can now take his place。 He
  offers three thousand francs if Monsieur de Mortsauf will build him a
  farm…house at the Commanderie。 We might then clear the approach to
  Clochegourde; finish the proposed avenue to the main road; and have
  only the woodland and the vineyards to take care of ourselves。 If the
  king returns; OUR pension will be restored; WE shall consent after
  clashing a little with OUR wife's common…sense。 Jacques' fortune will
  then be permanently secured。 That result obtained; I shall leave
  monsieur to lay by as much as he likes for Madeleine; though the king
  will of course dower her; according to custom。 My conscience is easy;
  I have all but accomplished my task。 And you?〃 she said。
  I explained to her the mission on which the king had sent me; and
  showed her how her wise counsel had borne fruit。 Was she endowed with
  second sight thus to foretell events?
  〃Did I not write it to you?〃 she answered。 〃For you and for my
  children alone I possess a remarkable faculty; of which I have spoken
  only to my confessor; Monsieur de la Berge; he explains it by divine
  intervention。 Often; after deep meditation induced by fears about the
  health of my children; my eyes close to the things of earth and see
  into another region; if Jacques and Madeleine there appear to me as
  two luminous figures they are sure to have good health for a certain
  period of time; if wrapped in mist they are equally sure to fall ill
  soon after。 As for you; I not only see you brilliantly illuminated;
  but I hear a voice which explains to me without words; by some mental
  communication; what you ought to do。 Does any law forbid me to use
  this wonderful gift for my children and for you?〃 she asked; falling
  into a reverie。 Then; after a pause; she added; 〃Perhaps God wills to
  take the place of their father。〃
  〃Let me believe that my obedience is due to none but you;〃 I cried。
  She gave me one of her exquisitely gracious smiles; which so exalted
  my heart that I should not have felt a death…blow if given at that
  moment。
  〃As soon as the king returns to Paris; go there; leave Clochegourde;〃
  she said。 〃It may be degrading to beg for places and favors; but it
  would be ridiculous to be out of the way of receiving them。 Great
  changes will soon take place。 The king needs capable and trustworthy
  men; don't fail him。 It is well for you to enter young into the
  affairs of the nation and learn your way; for statesmen; like actors;
  have a routine business to acquire; which genius does not reveal; it
  must be learnt。 My father heard the Duc de Choiseul say this。 Think of
  me;〃 she said; after a pause; 〃let me enjoy the pleasures of
  superiority in a soul that is all my own; for are you not my son?〃
  〃Your son?〃 I said; sullenly。
  〃Yes; my son!〃 she cried; mocking me; 〃is not that a good place in my
  heart?〃
  The bell rang for dinner; she took my arm and leaned contentedly upon
  it。
  〃You have grown;〃 she said; as we went up the steps。 When we reached
  the portico she shook my arm a little; as if my looks were
  importunate; for though her eyes were lowered she knew that I saw only
  her。 Then she said; with a charming air of pretended impatience; full
  of grace and coquetry; 〃Come; why don't you look at our dear valley?〃
  She turned; held her white silk sun…shade over our heads and drew
  Jacques closely to her side。 The motion of her head as she looked
  towards the Indre; the punt; the meadows; showed me that in my absence
  she had come to many an understanding w