with　locks　of　their　hair　when　they　were　little。　What　a　retreat　for　a
  woman　whose　appearance　in　the　great　world　of　fashion　would　have　made
  the　handsomest　of　her　sex　jealous！　Such　was　the　chamber　where　the
  daughter　of　an　illustrious　family　wept　out　her　days；　sunken　at　this
  moment　in　anguish；　and　denying　herself　the　love　that　might　have
  comforted　her。　Hidden；　irreparable　woe！　Tears　of　the　victim　for　her
  slayer；　tears　of　the　slayer　for　his　victim！　When　the　children　and
  waiting…woman　came　at　length　into　the　room　I　left　it。　The　count　was
  waiting　for　me；　he　seemed　to　seek　me　as　a　mediating　power　between
  himself　and　his　wife。　He　caught　my　hands；　exclaiming；　〃Stay；　stay　with
  us；　Felix！〃
  〃Unfortunately；〃　I　said；　〃Monsieur　de　Chessel　has　a　party；　and　my
  absence　would　cause　remark。　But　after　dinner　I　will　return。〃
  He　left　the　house　when　I　did；　and　took　me　to　the　lower　gate　without
  speaking；　then　he　accompanied　me　to　Frapesle；　seeming　not　to　know　what
  he　was　doing。　At　last　I　said　to　him；　〃For　heaven's　sake；　Monsieur　le
  comte；　let　her　manage　your　affairs　if　it　pleases　her；　and　don't
  torment　her。〃
  〃I　have　not　long　to　live；〃　he　said　gravely；　〃she　will　not　suffer　long
  through　me；　my　head　is　giving　way。〃
  He　left　me　in　a　spasm　of　involuntary　self…pity。　After　dinner　I
  returned　for　news　of　Madame　de　Mortsauf；　who　was　already　better。　If
  such　were　the　joys　of　marriage；　if　such　scenes　were　frequent；　how
  could　she　survive　them　long？　What　slow；　unpunished　murder　was　this？
  During　that　day　I　understood　the　tortures　by　which　the　count　was
  wearing　out　his　wife。　Before　what　tribunal　can　we　arraign　such　crimes？
  These　thoughts　stunned　me；　I　could　say　nothing　to　Henriette　by　word　of
  mouth；　but　I　spent　the　night　in　writing　to　her。　Of　the　three　or　four
  letters　that　I　wrote　I　have　kept　only　the　beginning　of　one；　with　which
  I　was　not　satisfied。　Here　it　is；　for　though　it　seems　to　me　to　express
  nothing；　and　to　speak　too　much　of　myself　when　I　ought　only　to　have
  thought　of　her；　it　will　serve　to　show　you　the　state　my　soul　was　in：
  To　Madame　de　Mortsauf：
  How　many　things　I　had　to　say　to　you　when　I　reached　the　house！　I
  thought　of　them　on　the　way；　but　I　forgot　them　in　your　presence。
  Yes；　when　I　see　you；　dear　Henriette；　I　find　my　thoughts　no　longer
  in　keeping　with　the　light　from　your　soul　which　heightens　your
  beauty；　then；　too；　the　happiness　of　being　near　you　is　so　ineffable
  as　to　efface　all　other　feelings。　Each　time　we　meet　I　am　born　into
  a　broader　life；　I　am　like　the　traveller　who　climbs　a　rock　and　sees
  before　him　a　new　horizon。　Each　time　you　talk　with　me　I　add　new
  treasures　to　my　treasury。　There　lies；　I　think；　the　secret　of　long
  and　inexhaustible　affections。　I　can　only　speak　to　you　of　yourself
  when　away　from　you。　In　your　presence　I　am　too　dazzled　to　see；　too
  happy　to　question　my　happiness；　too　full　of　you　to　be　myself；　too
  eloquent　through　you　to　speak；　too　eager　in　seizing　the　present
  moment　to　remember　the　past。　You　must　think　of　this　state　of
  intoxication　and　forgive　me　its　consequent　mistakes。
  When　near　you　I　can　only　feel。　Yet；　I　have　courage　to　say；　dear
  Henriette；　that　never；　in　all　the　many　joys　you　have　given　me；
  never　did　I　taste　such　joy　as　filled　my　soul　when；　after　that
  dreadful　storm　through　which　you　struggled　with　superhuman
  courage；　you　came　to　yourself　alone　with　me；　in　the　twilight　of
  your　chamber　where　that　unhappy　scene　had　brought　me。　I　alone
  know　the　light　that　shines　from　a　woman　when　through　the　portals
  of　death　she　re…enters　life　with　the　dawn　of　a　rebirth　tinting　her
  brow。　What　harmonies　were　in　your　voice！　How　words；　even　your
  words；　seemed　paltry　when　the　sound　of　that　adored　voicein
  itself　the　echo　of　past　pains　mingled　with　divine　consolations
  blessed　me　with　the　gift　of　your　first　thought。　I　knew　you　were
  brilliant　with　all　human　splendor；　but　yesterday　I　found　a　new
  Henriette；　who　might　be　mine　if　God　so　willed；　I　beheld　a　spirit
  freed　from　the　bodily　trammels　which　repress　the　ardors　of　the
  soul。　Ah！　thou　wert　beautiful　indeed　in　thy　weakness；　majestic　in
  thy　prostration。　Yesterday　I　found　something　more　beautiful　than
  thy　beauty；　sweeter　than　thy　voice；　lights　more　sparkling　than　the
  light　of　thine　eyes；　perfumes　for　which　there　are　no　words
  yesterday　thy　soul　was　visible　and　palpable。　Would　I　could　have
  opened　my　heart　and　made　thee　live　there！　Yesterday　I　lost　the
  respectful　timidity　with　which　thy　presence　inspires　me；　thy
  weakness　brought　us　nearer　together。　Then；　when　the　crisis　passed
  and　thou　couldst　bear　our　atmosphere　once　more；　I　knew　what　it　was
  to　breathe　in　unison　with　thy　breath。　How　many　prayers　rose　up　to
  heaven　in　that　moment！　Since　I　did　not　die　as　I　rushed　through
  space　to　ask　of　God　that　he　would　leave　thee　with　me；　no　human
  creature　can　die　of　joy　nor　yet　of　sorrow。　That　moment　has　left
  memories　buried　in　my　soul　which　never　again　will　reappear　upon
  its　surface　and　leave　me　tearless。　Yes；　the　fears　with　which　my
  soul　was　tortured　yesterday　are　incomparably　greater　than　all
  sorrows　that　the　future　can　bring　upon　me；　just　as　the　joys　which
  thou　hast　given　me；　dear　eternal　thought　of　my　life！　will　be
  forever　greater　than　any　future　joy　God　may　be　pleased　to　grant
  me。　Thou　hast　made　me　comprehend　the　love　divine；　that　sure　love；
  sure　in　strength　and　in　duration；　that　knows　no　doubt　or　jealousy。
  Deepest　melancholy　gnawed　my　soul；　the　glimpse　into　that　hidden　life
  was　agonizing　to　a　young　heart　new　to　social　emotions；　it　was　an　awful
  thing　to　find　this　abyss　at　the　opening　of　life；a　bottomless　abyss；
  a　Dead　Sea。　This　dreadful　aggregation　of　misfortunes　suggested　many
  thoughts；　at　my　first　step　into　social　life　I　found　a　standard　of
  comparison　by　which　all　other　events　and　circumstances　must　seem
  petty。
  The　next　day　when　I　entered　the　salon　she　was　there　alone。　She　looked
  at　me　for　a　moment；　held　out　her　hand；　and　said；　〃My　friend　is　always
  too　tender。〃　Her　eyes　grew　moist；　she　rose；　and　then　she　added；　in　a
  tone　of　desperate　entreaty；　〃Never　write　thus　to　me　again。〃
  Monsieur　de　Mortsauf　was　very　kind。　The　countess　had　recovered　her
  courage　and　serenity；　but　her　pallor　betrayed　the　sufferings　of　the
  previous　night；　which　were　calmed；　but　not　extinguished。　That　evening
  she　said　to　me；　as　she　paced　among　the　autumn　leaves　which　rustled
  beneath　our　footsteps；　〃Sorrow　is　infinite；　joys　are　limited；〃words
  which　betrayed　her　sufferings　by　the　comparison　she　made　with　the
  fleeting　delights　of　the　previous　week。
  〃Do　not　slander　life；〃　I　said　to　her。　〃You　are　ignorant　of　love；　love
  gives　happiness　which　shines　in　heaven。〃
  〃Hush！〃　she　said。　〃I　wish　to　know　nothing　of　it。　The　Icelander　would
  die　in　Italy。　I　am　calm　and　happy　beside　you；　I　can　tell　you　all　my
  thoughts；　do　not　destroy　my　confidence。　Why　will　you　not　combine　the
  virtue　of　the　priest　with　the　charm　of　a　free　man。〃
  〃You　make　me　drink　the　hemlock！〃　I　cried；　taking　her　hand　and　laying
  it　on　my　heart；　which　was　beating　fast。
  〃Again！〃　she　said；　withdrawing　her　hand　as　if　it　pained　her。　〃Are　you
  determined　to　deny　me　the　sad　comfort　of　letting　my　wounds　be　stanched
  by　a　friendly　hand？　Do　not　add　to　my　sufferings；　you　do　not　know　them
  all；　those　that　are　hidden　are　the　worst　to　bear。　If　you　were　a　woman
  you　would　know　the　melancholy　disgust　that　fills　her　soul　when　she
  sees　herself　the　object　of　attentions　which　atone　for　nothing；　but　are
  thought　to　atone　for　all。　For　the　next　few　days　I　shall　be　courted　and
  caressed；　that　I　may　pardon　the　wrong　that　has　been　done。　I　could　then
  obtain　consent　to　any　wish　of　mine；　however　unreasonable。　I　am
  humiliated　by　his　humility；　by　caresses　which　will　cease　as　soon　as　he
  imagines　that　I　have　forgotten　that　scene。　To　owe　our　master's　good
  graces　to　his　faults〃
  〃His　crimes！〃　I　interrupted　quickly。
  〃Is　not　that　a　frightful　condition　of　existence？〃　she　continued；　with
  a　sad　smile。　〃I　cannot　use　this　transient　power。　At　such　times　I　am
  like　the　knights　who　could　not　strike　a　fallen　adversary。　To　see　in
  the　dust　a　man　whom　we　ought　to　honor；　to　raise　him　only　to　enable　him
  to　deal　other　blows；　to　suffer　from　his　degradation　more　than　he
  suffers　himself；　to　feel　ourselves　degraded　if　we　profit　by　such
  influence　for　even　a　useful　end；　to　spend　our　strength；　to　waste　the
  vigor　of　our　souls　in　struggles　that　have　no　grandeur；　to　have　no
  power　except　for　a　moment　when　a　fatal　crisis　comesah；　better　death！
  If　I　had　no　children　I　would　let　myself　drift　on　the　wretched　current
  of　this　life；　but　if　I　lose　my　courage；　what　will　become　of　them？　I
  must　live　for　them；　however　cruel　this　life　may　be。　You　talk　to　me　of
  love。　Ah！　my　dear　friend；　think　of　the　hell　into　which　I　should　fling
  myself　if　I　gave　that　pitiless　being；　pitiless　like　all　weak
  creatures；　the　right　to　despise　me。　The　purity　of　my　con