第 17 节
作者:团团      更新:2021-02-19 00:28      字数:9322
  years in a vigilance for Confederate privateers which none of them ever
  surprised。  I had asked for the consulate at Munich; where I hoped to
  steep myself yet longer in German poetry; but when my appointment came;
  I found it was for Rome。  I was very glad to get Rome even; but the
  income of the office was in fees; and I thought I had better go on to
  Washington and find out how much the fees amounted to。  People in
  Columbus who had been abroad said that on five hundred dollars you could
  live in Rome like a prince; but I doubted this; and when I learned at the
  State Department that the fees of the Roman consulate came to only three
  hundred; I perceived that I could not live better than a baron; probably;
  and I despaired。  The kindly chief of the consular bureau said that the
  President's secretaries; Mr。 John Nicolay and Mr。 John Hay; were
  interested in my appointment; and he advised my going over to the White
  House and seeing them。  I lost no time in doing that; and I learned that
  as young Western men they were interested in me because I was a young
  Western man who had done something in literature; and they were willing
  to help me for that reason; and for no other that I ever knew。  They
  proposed my going to Venice; the salary was then seven hundred and fifty;
  but they thought they could get it put up to a thousand。  In the end they
  got it put up to fifteen hundred; and so I went to Venice; where if I did
  not live like a prince on that income; I lived a good deal more like a
  prince than I could have done at Rome on a fifth of it。
  If the appointment was not present fortune; it was the beginning of the
  best luck I have had in the world; and I am glad to owe it all to those
  friends of my verse; who could have been no otherwise friends of me。
  They were then beginning very early careers of distinction which have not
  been wholly divided。  Mr。 Nicolay could have been about twenty…five; and
  Mr。 Hay nineteen or twenty。  No one dreamed as yet of the opportunity
  opening to them in being so constantly near the man whose life they have
  written; and with whose fame they have imperishably interwrought their
  names。  I remember the sobered dignity of the one; and the humorous
  gaiety of the other; and how we had some young men's joking and laughing
  together; in the anteroom where they received me; with the great soul
  entering upon its travail beyond the closed door。  They asked me if I had
  ever seen the President; and I said that I had seen him at Columbus; the
  year before; but I could not say how much I should like to see him again;
  and thank him for the favor which I had no claim to at his hands; except
  such as the slight campaign biography I had written could be thought to
  have given me。  That day or another; as I left my friends; I met him in
  the corridor without; and he looked at the space I was part of with his
  ineffably melancholy eyes; without knowing that I was the
  indistinguishable person in whose 〃integrity and abilities he had reposed
  such special confidence〃 as to have appointed him consul for Venice and
  the ports of the Lombardo…Venetian Kingdom; though he might have
  recognized the terms of my commission if I had reminded him of them。
  I faltered a moment in my longing to address him; and then I decided that
  every one who forebore to speak needlessly to him; or to shake his hand;
  did him a kindness; and I wish I could be as sure of the wisdom of all my
  past behavior as I am of that piece of it。  He walked up to the
  watercooler that stood in the corner; and drew himself a full goblet from
  it; which he poured down his throat with a backward tilt of his head; and
  then went wearily within doors。  The whole affair; so simple; has always
  remained one of a certain pathos in my memory; and I would rather have
  seen Lincoln in that unconscious moment than on some statelier occasion。
  V。
  I went home to Ohio; and sent on the bond I was to file in the Treasury
  Department; but it was mislaid there; and to prevent another chance of
  that kind I carried on the duplicate myself。  It was on my second visit
  that I met the generous young Irishman William D。 O'Connor; at the house
  of my friend Piatt; and heard his ardent talk。  He was one of the
  promising men of that day; and he had written an anti…slavery novel in
  the heroic mood of Victor Hugo; which greatly took my fancy; and I
  believe he wrote poems too。  He had not yet risen to be the chief of Walt
  Whitman's champions outside of the Saturday Press; but he had already
  espoused the theory of Bacon's authorship of Shakespeare; then newly
  exploited by the poor lady of Bacon's name; who died constant to it in an
  insane asylum。  He used to speak of the reputed dramatist as 〃the fat
  peasant of Stratford;〃 and he was otherwise picturesque of speech in a
  measure that consoled; if it did not convince。  The great war was then
  full upon us; and when in the silences of our literary talk its awful
  breath was heard; and its shadow fell upon the hearth where we gathered
  round the first fires of autumn; O'Connor would lift his beautiful head
  with a fine effect of prophecy; and say; 〃Friends; I feel a sense of
  victory in the air。〃  He was not wrong; only the victory was for the
  other aide。
  Who beside O'Connor shared in these saddened symposiums I cannot tell
  now; but probably other young journalists and office…holders; intending
  litterateurs; since more or less extinct。  I make certain only of the
  young Boston publisher who issued a very handsome edition of 'Leaves of
  Grass'; and then failed promptly if not consequently。  But I had already
  met; in my first sojourn at the capital; a young journalist who had given
  hostages to poetry; and whom I was very glad to see and proud to know。
  Mr。 Stedman and I were talking over that meeting the other day; and I can
  be surer than I might have been without his memory; that I found him at a
  friend's house; where he was nursing himself for some slight sickness;
  and that I sat by his bed while our souls launched together into the
  joyful realms of hope and praise。  In him I found the quality of Boston;
  the honor and passion of literature; and not a mere pose of the literary
  life; and the world knows without my telling how true he has been to his
  ideal of it。  His earthly mission then was to write letters from
  Washington for the New York World; which started in life as a good young
  evening paper; with a decided religious tone; so that the Saturday Press
  could call it the Night…blooming Serious。  I think Mr。 Stedman wrote for
  its editorial page at times; and his relation to it as a Washington
  correspondent had an authority which is wanting to the function in these
  days of perfected telegraphing。  He had not yet achieved that seat in the
  Stock Exchange whose possession has justified his recourse to business;
  and has helped him to mean something more single in literature than many
  more singly devoted to it。  I used sometimes to speak about that with
  another eager young author in certain middle years when we were chafing
  in editorial harness; and we always decided that Stedman had the best of
  it in being able to earn his living in a sort so alien to literature that
  he could come to it unjaded; and with a gust unspoiled by kindred savors。
  But no man shapes his own life; and I dare say that Stedman may have been
  all the time envying us our tripods from his high place in the Stock
  Exchange。  What is certain is that he has come to stand for literature
  and to embody New York in it as no one else does。  In a community which
  seems never to have had a conscious relation to letters; he has kept the
  faith with dignity and fought the fight with constant courage。  Scholar
  and poet at once; he has spoken to his generation with authority which we
  can forget only in the charm which makes us forget everything else。
  But his fame was still before him when we met; and I could bring to him
  an admiration for work which had not yet made itself known to so many;
  but any admirer was welcome。  We talked of what we had done; and each
  said how much he liked certain thing of the other's; I even seized my
  advantage of his helplessness to read him a poem of mine which I had in
  my pocket; he advised me where to place it; and if the reader will not
  think it an unfair digression; I will tell here what became of that poem;
  for I think its varied fortunes were amusing; and I hope my own
  sufferings and final triumph with it will not be without encouragement to
  the young literary endeavorer。  It was a poem called; with no prophetic
  sense of fitness; 〃Forlorn;〃 and I tried it first with the 'Atlantic
  Monthly'; which would not have it。  Then I offered it in person to a
  former editor of 'Harper's Monthly'; but he could not see his advantage
  in it; and I carried it overseas to Venice with me。  From that point I
  sent it to all the English magazines as steadily as the post could carry
  it away and bring it back。  On my way home; four years later; I took it
  to London with me; where a friend who knew Lewes; then just beginning
  with the 'Fortnightly Review'; sent it to him for me。  It was promptly
  returned; with a letter wholly reserved as to its quality; but full of a
  poetic gratitude for my wish to cont