第 30 节
作者:南方网      更新:2021-02-19 00:20      字数:9322
  One troubled glance of a great love he cast backward from the
  door ere he closed it behind him; and then his countenance
  suddenly changed。  Stern and strong it grew; with a glow of
  anger in the steel…blue eyes that gave an entirely new
  character to it。
  He called Antonia into his study; and talked with her of
  the crisis which was approaching; and of the conduct of their
  affairs in it。  He showed her the places in which his gold
  coin was hidden。  He told her on whom to rely in any
  emergency。
  〃We have sure information that General Urrea; with the
  vanguard of a large Mexican army; will be here next month。
  Santa Anna will follow him quickly。  You see that the city
  must either be defended or our men must retreat。  I am going
  to Houston with this dilemma。  Luis and Dare will join Fannin
  at Goliad。  Now; my dear child; you have my place to fill。  If
  Santa Anna takes possession of San Antonio; what will you do?〃
  〃If we are not disturbed in any way; I will keep very quiet
  within my own home。〃
  〃If Fray Ignatius attempts to interfere with youwhat then?〃
  〃I will fly from him; and take Isabel and mi madre with me。〃
  〃That is your only safety。  I shall hear if the Americans
  desert the city; then I will send your brother Thomas; if by
  any possibility it can be done; to guard you to the eastern
  settlements。  But I may not be able to do thisthere may
  be no timeit cannot be depended uponLopez Navarro will
  help you all he can; and Ortiz。  You may always rely on
  Ortiz。〃
  〃My father; I cannot trust Ortiz。  Every man is a master to a
  peon。  He would mean to do kindly; but his cowardice might
  make him false。〃
  〃Ortiz is no peon。  He is a Mexican officer of high rank; whom
  Santa Anna ordered to be shot。  I saved his life。  He wears
  the clothes of a peonthat is necessary; but he has the honor
  and gratitude of a gentleman beneath them。  If necessary;
  trust Ortiz fully。  One thing above all others remember
  FLIGHT before a convent。〃
  〃Flight!  Yes; death before it!  I promise you; father。  When
  we meet again; you shall say; well done; Antonia。〃
  It was now about midnight。  They went back to the parlor。
  Luis and Dare sat by the dying fire。  They were bent forward;
  close together over it; talking in a low voice。  They rose
  when the doctor spoke; and silently kissed Antonia。
  〃It will be a hard ride; now;〃 said the doctor;〃 and Dare
  answered; mechanically; 〃but we shall manage it。〃  He
  held Antonia's hand; and she went with them to the rear of the
  house。  Their horses were standing ready saddled。   Silently
  the men mounted。  In a moment they had passed the gate; and
  the beat of their horses' hoofs gradually died away。
  But all through the clear spaces of the sky the Christmas
  bells were ringing; and the serenaders were musically telling
  each other;
  〃At twelve will the Child be born!〃
  CHAPTER  XII。
  DANGER AND HELP。
  〃A curious creed they weave;
  And; for the Church commands it;
  All men must needs believe;
  Though no man understands it。
  God loves his few pet lambs;
  And saves his one pet nation;
  The rest he largely damns;
  With swinging reprobation。〃
  〃The Church may loose and bind;
  But Mind; immortal Mind;
  As free as wave or wind;
  Came forth; O God; from Thee。〃
  BLACKIE。
  Dr。 Worth had set his daughter a task of no light magnitude。
  It was true; that Rachela and Fray Ignatius could no longer
  disturb the household by their actual presence; but their
  power to cause unhappiness was not destroyed。  Among the
  Mexican families loyal to Santa Anna the dismission of the
  priest and the duenna had been a source of much indignant
  gossip; for Rachela was one of those women who cry
  out when they are hurt; and compel others to share their
  trouble。  The priest had not therefore found it necessary to
  explain WHY the Senora had called upon a new confessor。  He
  could be silent; and possess his dignity in uncomplaining
  patience; for Rachela paraded his wrongs as a kind of set…off
  to her own。
  Such piety!  Such virtues!  And the outrageous conduct of
  the Senor Doctor!  To be sure there was cause for anger at the
  Senorita Antonia。  Oh; yes!  She could crow her mind abroad!
  There were booksOh; infamous books!  Books not proper to be
  read; and the Senorita had them!  Well then; if the father
  burned them; that was a good deed done。  And he had almost
  been reviled for itsent out of the houseyes; it was quite
  possible that he had been struck!  Anything was possible from
  those American heretics。  As for her own treatment; after
  twenty years service; it had been cruel; abominable; more than
  thatiniquitous; but about these things she had spoken; and
  the day of atonement would come。  Justice was informing itself
  on the whole matter。
  Such conversations continually diversified; extended; repeated
  on all hands; quickly aroused a prejudice against the doctor's
  family。  Besides which; the Senora Alveda resented bitterly
  the visits of her son Luis to Isabel。  None of the customs of
  a Mexican betrothal had taken place; and Rachela did not spare
  her imagination in describing the scandalous American
  familiarity that had been permitted。  That; this familiarity
  had taken place under the eyes of the doctor and the Senora
  only intensified the insult。  She might have forgiven
  clandestine meetings; but that the formalities due to the
  Church and herself should have been neglected was indeed
  unpardonable。
  It soon became evident to the Senora that she had lost the
  good…will of her old friends; and the respect that had always
  been given to her social position。  It was difficult for her
  to believe this; and she only accepted the humiliating fact
  after a variety of those small insults which women reserve for
  their own sex。
  She was fond of visiting; she valued the good opinion of her
  caste; and in the very chill of the gravest calamities she
  worried her strength away over little grievances lying
  outside the walls of her home and the real affections of her
  life。  And perhaps with perfect truth she asserted that SHE
  had done nothing to deserve this social ostracism。  Others had
  made her miserable; but she could thank the saints none could
  make her guilty。
  The defeat of Cos had been taken by the loyal inhabitants as
  a mere preliminary to the real fight。  They were very little
  disturbed by it。  It was the overt act which was necessary to
  convince Mexico that her clemency to Americans was a mistake;
  and that the ungrateful and impious race must be wiped out of
  existence。  The newspapers not only reiterated this necessity;
  but proclaimed its certainty。  They heralded the coming of
  Santa Anna; the victorious avenger; with passionate
  gasconading。  It was a mere question of a few days or weeks;
  and in the meantime the people of San Antonio were 〃making a
  little profit and pleasure to themselves out of the
  extravagant reprobates。〃  There was not a day in which they
  did not anticipate their revenge in local military displays;
  in dances and illuminations; in bull…fights; and in
  splendid religious processions。
  And Antonia found it impossible to combat this influence。  It
  was in the house as certain flavors were in certain foods; or
  as heat was in fire。  She saw it in the faces of her servants;
  and felt it in their indifference to their duty。  Every hour
  she watched more anxiously for some messenger from her father。
  And as day after day went by in a hopeless sameness of grief;
  she grew more restless under the continual small trials that
  encompassed her。
  Towards the end of January; General Urrea; at the head of the
  vanguard of the Mexican army; entered Texas。  His destination
  was La Bahia or Goliad; a strong fortress garrisoned by
  Americans under Colonel Fanning。  Santa Anna was to leave in
  eight days after him。  With an army of twenty thousand men he
  was coming to the relief of San Antonio。
  The news filled the city with the wildest rejoicing。  The
  little bells of the processions; the big bells of the
  churches; the firing of cannon; the hurrahs of the tumultuous
  people; made an uproar which reached the three lonely
  women through the closed windows of their rooms。
  〃If only Lopez Navarro would come!  If he would send us some
  little message!  Holy Mary; even he has forgotten us!〃 cried
  the Senora in a paroxysm of upbraiding sorrow。
  At that moment the door opened; and Fray Ignatius passed the
  threshold with lifted hands and a muttered blessing。  He
  approached the Senora; and she fell on her knees and kissed
  the hand with which he crossed her。
  〃Holy father!〃 she cried; 〃the angels sent you to a despairing
  woman。〃
  〃My daughter; I have guided you since your first communion;
  how then could I forget you?  Your husband has deserted you
  you; the helpless; tender lamb; whom he swore to cherish; but
  the blessed fold of your church stands open。  Come; poor weary
  one; to its shelter。〃
  〃My father〃
  〃Listen to me!  The Mexican troops are soon to arrive。
  Vengeance without mercy is to be dealt out。  You are the wife
  of an American rebel; I cannot promise you your life; or your
  h