第 25 节
作者:南方网      更新:2021-02-19 00:20      字数:9322
  The crown He wore was of the pointed thorn
  In purple He was crucified; not born。
  They who contend for place and high degree
  Are not His sons; but those of Zebedee。〃
  DRYDEN。
  The exalted state of mind which the victorious men had brought
  home with them did not vanish with sleep。  The same heroic
  atmosphere was in the house in the morning。  Antonia's face
  had a brightness upon it that never yet was the result of mere
  flesh and blood。  When she came into the usual sitting…room;
  Dare was already there; indeed; he had risen purposely for
  this hour。  Their smiles and glances met each other with
  an instantaneous understanding。  It was the old Greek
  greeting 〃REJOICE!〃 without the audible expression。
  Never again; perhaps; in all their lives would moments so full
  of sweetness and splendor come to them。  They were all the
  sweeter because blended with the homely duties that fell to
  Antonia's hands。  As she went about ordering the breakfast;
  and giving to the table a festal air; Dare thought of the old
  Homeric heroes; and the daughters of the kings who ministered
  to their wants。  The bravest of them had done no greater deeds
  of personal valor than had been done by the little band of
  American pioneers and hunters with whom he had fought the last
  four days。  The princes among them had been welcomed by no
  sweeter and fairer women than had welcomed his companions and
  himself。
  And; though his clothing was black with the smoke of the
  battle and torn with the fray; never had Dare himself looked
  so handsome。  There was an unspeakable radiance in his fair
  face。  The close; brown curls of his hair; his tall figure;
  supple and strong; his air of youth; and valor; and victory;
  the love…light in his eyes; the hopes in his heart; made
  him for the time really more than a mere mortal man。  He
  walked like the demi…gods he was thinking of。  The most
  glorious ideal of life; the brightest dream of love that he
  had ever had; found in this hour their complete realization。
  The Senora did not come down; but Isabel and Luis and the
  doctor joined the breakfast party。  Luis had evidently been to
  see Lopez Navarro before he did so; for he wore a new suit of
  dark blue velvet and silver; a sash of crimson silk; the
  neatest of patent leather shoes; and the most beautifully
  embroidered linen。  Dare gave him a little smile and nod of
  approbation。  He had not thought of fine clothing for himself;
  but then for the handsome; elegant; Mexican youth it seemed
  precisely the right thing。  And Isabel; in her scarlet satin
  petticoat; and white embroideries and satin slippers; looked
  his proper mate。  Dare and Antonia; and even the doctor;
  watched their almost childlike devotion to each other with
  sympathetic delight。
  Oh; if such moments could only last!  No; no; as a rule they
  last long enough。  Joy wearies as well as sorrow。  An
  abiding rapture would make itself a sorrow out of our very
  weakness to bear it。  We should become exhausted and exacting;
  and be irritated by the limitations of our nature; and our
  inability to create and to endure an increasing rapture。  It
  is because joy is fugitive that it leaves us a delightsome
  memory。  It is far better; then; not to hold the rose until it
  withers in our fevered hand。
  The three women watched their heroes go back to the city。  The
  doctor looked very little older than his companions。  He sat
  his horse superbly; and he lifted his hat to the proud Senora
  with a loving grace which neither of the young men could
  excel。  In that far back year; when he had wooed her with the
  sweet words she taught him; he had not looked more manly and
  attractive。  There is a perverse disposition in women to love
  personal prowess; and to adore the heroes of the battle…field;
  and never had the Senora loved her husband as she did at that
  hour。
  In his capacity of physician he had done unnoticed deeds of
  far greater braverygone into a Comanche camp that was being
  devastated by smallpoxor galloped fifty miles; alone in
  the night; through woods haunted by savage men and beasts; to
  succor some little child struggling with croup; or some
  frontiersman pierced with an arrow。  The Senora had always
  fretted and scolded a little when he thus exposed his life。
  But the storming of the Alamo!  That was a bravery she could
  understand。  Her Roberto was indeed a hero!  Though she could
  not bring herself to approve the cause for which he fought;
  she was as sensitive as men and women always are to victorious
  valor and a successful cause。
  Rachela was in a state of rebellion。  Nothing but the express
  orders of Fray Ignatius; to remain where she was; prevented
  her leaving the Worths; for the freedom so suddenly given to
  Isabel had filled her with indignation。  She was longing to be
  in some house where she could give adequate expression to the
  diabolical temper she felt it right to indulge。
  In the afternoon it was some relief to see the confessor
  coming up the garden。  He had resumed his usual deliberate
  pace。  His hands were folded upon his breast。  He looked as
  the mournful Jeremiah may have looked; when he had the
  burden of a heavy prophecy to deliver。
  The Senora sat down with a doggedly sullen air; which Antonia
  understood very well。  It meant; 〃I am not to be forced to
  take any way but my own; to…day〃; and the wise priest
  understood her mood as soon as he entered the room。  He put
  behind him the reproof he had been meditating。  He stimulated
  her curiosity; he asked her sympathy。  No man knew better than
  Fray Ignatius; when to assume sacerdotal authority and when to
  lay it aside。
  And the Senora was never proof against the compliment of his
  personal friendship。  The fight; as it affected himself and
  his brotherhood and the convent; was full of interest to her。
  She smiled at Brother Servando's childish alarm; she was angry
  at an insult offered to the venerable abbot; she condoled with
  the Sisters; wept at the danger that the famous statue of the
  Virgin de Los Reinedias had been exposed to; and was
  altogether as sympathetic as he could desire; until her own
  affairs were mentioned。
  〃And you also; my daughter?  The sword has pierced your
  heart too; I am sure!  To know that your husband and sons were
  fighting against your God and your country!  Holy Mother!  How
  great must have been your grief。  But; for your comfort; I
  tell you that the saints who have suffered a fiery martyrdom
  stand at the feet of those who; like you; endure the continual
  crucifixion of their affections。〃
  The Senora was silent; but not displeased and the priest then
  ventured a little further:
  〃But there is an end to all trials; daughter and I now absolve
  you from the further struggle。  Decide this day for your God
  and your country。  Make an offering to Almighty God and the
  Holy Mother of your earthly love。  Give yourself and your
  daughters and all that you have to the benign and merciful
  Church。  Show these rebels and hereticsthese ungrateful
  recipients of Mexican bountywhat a true Catholic is capable
  of。  His Divine Majesty and the Holy Mary demand this supreme
  sacrifice from you。〃
  〃Father; I have my husband; and my sons; to them; also; I owe
  some duties。〃
  〃The Church will absolve you from them。〃
  〃It would break my heart。〃
  〃Listen then:  If it is your right hand; or your right eye
  that is; if it is your husband; or your childyou are
  commanded to give them up; orit is God's wordthere is only
  hell fire。〃
  〃Mother of Sorrows; pity me!  What shall I do?〃
  She looked with the terror of a child into the dark; cruel
  face of the priest。  It was as immovably stern as if carved
  out of stone。  Then her eyes sought those of Antonia; who sat
  at a distant window with her embroidery in her hand。  She let
  it fall when her mother's pitiful; uncertain glance asked from
  her strength and counsel。  She rose and went to her。  Never
  had the tall; fair girl looked so noble。  A sorrowful majesty;
  that had something in it of pity and something of anger; gave
  to her countenance; her movements; and even her speech; a kind
  of authority。
  〃Dear mother; do as the beloved and kindhearted Ruth did。
  Like you; she married one not of her race and not of her
  religion。  Even when God had taken him from her; she chose
  to remain with his peopleto leave her own people and
  abide with his mother。 For this act God blessed her;
  and all nations in all ages have honored her。〃
  〃Ruth!  Ruth!  Ruth!  What has Ruth to do with the question?
  Presumptuous one!  Ruth was a heathen womana Moabitea race
  ten times accursed。〃
  〃Pardon; father。  Ruth was the ancestress of our blessed
  Saviour; and of the Virgin Mary。〃
  〃Believe not the wicked one; Senora?  She is blinded with
  false knowledge。  She is a heretic。  I have long suspected it。
  She has not been to confession for nine months。〃
  〃You wrong me; father。  Every day; twice a day; I confess my
  sins humbly。〃
  〃Chito!  You are in outrageous sin。  But; then; what else?  I
  hear; indeed; that you read wicked bookseven upon your knees
  you read them。〃
  〃I read my Bible; father。〃
  〃Bring it to me。  How could a child like you read the Bible?
  It is a book for bi