第 12 节
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  She could not resist him。  She made Rachela lay out her
  prettiest dress; and when Jack said 〃how beautiful your hair
  is; mother; no one has hair like you!〃 she drew out the great
  shell pins; and let it fall like a cloud around her; and with
  a glad pride gave Rachela the order to get out her jewelled
  comb and gilded fan and finest mantilla。  And oh! how
  happy is that mother who has such pure and fervent admiration
  from her son; and how happy is that son to whom his mother is
  ever beautiful!
  Jack's presence drove all the evil spirits out of the house。
  The windows were thrown open; the sunshine came in。  He was
  running after Isabel; he was playing the mandolin; his voice;
  his laugh; his quick footstep; were everywhere。
  In spite of the trouble in the city; there was a real festival
  in the house。  The Senora came down in her sweetest temper and
  her finest garments。  She arranged Jack's dinner herself;
  selected the dishes and gave strict orders about their
  serving。  She took Jack's friend at once into her favor; and
  Dare thought her wonderfully lovely and gracious。  He sat with
  her on the balcony; and talked of Jack; telling her how clever
  he was; and how all his comrades loved him for his sunny
  temper and affectionate heart。
  It was a happy dinner; lengthened out with merry conversation。
  Every one thought that a few hours might be given to family
  love and family joy。  It would be good to have the memory of
  them in the days that were fast coming。  So they sat long
  over the sweetmeats; and fresh figs; and the pale wines of
  Xeres and Alicante。  And they rose up with laughter; looking
  into each others' faces with eyes that seemed to bespeak love
  and remembrance。  And then they went from the table; and saw
  not Destiny standing cold and pitiless behind them; marking
  two places for evermore vacant。
  There was not much siesta that day。  The Senora; Isabel and
  Jack sat together; the Senora dozed a little; but not enough
  to lose consciousness of Jack's presence and Jack's voice。
  The father; happy; and yet acutely anxious; went to and fro
  between his children and his study。  Antonia and Dare were in
  the myrtle walk or under the fig…tree。  This hour was the
  blossoming time of their lives。  And it was not the less sweet
  and tender because of the dark shadows on the edge of the
  sunshine。  Nor were they afraid to face the shadows; to
  inquire of them; and thus to taste the deeper rapture of love
  when love is gemmed with tears。
  It was understood that the young men were going away in the
  morning very early; so early that their adieus must be said
  with their good…nights。  It was at this hour that the
  Senora found courage to ask:
  〃My Juan; where do you go?
  〃To Gonzales; mi madre。〃
  〃But why?  Oh; Juan; do not desert your madre; and your
  country!
  〃Desert you; madre!  I am your boy to my last breath!  My
  country I love with my whole soul。  That is why I have come
  back to you and to her!  She is in trouble and her sons must
  stand by her。〃
  〃Do not talk with two meanings。  Oh; Juan! why do you go to
  Gonzales?〃
  〃We have heard that Colonel Ugartchea is to be there soon; and
  to take away the arms of the Americans。  That is not to be
  endured。  If you yourself were a man; you would have been away
  ere this to help them; I am sure。〃
  〃ME!!  The Blessed Virgin knows I would cut off my hands and
  feet first。  Juan; listen to me dear one!  You are a Mexican。〃
  〃My heart is Mexican; for it is yours。  But I must stand with
  my father and with my brother; and with my American
  compatriots。  Are we slaves; that we must give up our arms?
  No; but if we gave them up we should deserve to be
  slaves。〃
  〃God and the saints!〃 she answered; passionately。  〃What a
  trouble about a few guns!  One would think the Mexicans wanted
  the wives and children; the homes and lands of the Americans。
  They cry out from one end of Texas to the other。〃
  〃They cry out in old England and in New England; in New York;
  in New Orleans; and all down the Mississippi。  And men are
  crying back to them:  ‘Stand to your rifles and we will come
  and help you!'  The idea of disarming ten thousand Americans!〃
  Jack laughed with scornful amusement at the notion。  〃What a
  game it will be!  Mother; you can't tell how a man gets to
  love his rifle。  He that takes our purse takes trash; but our
  rifles!  By George Washington; that's a different story!〃
  Juan; my darling; you are my last hope。  Your brother was born
  with an American heart。  He has even become a heretic。  Fray
  Ignatius says he went into the Colorado and was what they call
  immersed; he that was baptized with holy water by the thrice
  holy bishop of Durango。  My beloved one; go and see Fray
  Ignatius; late as it is; he will rise and counsel you。
  〃My heart; my conscience; my country; my father; my brother;
  Santa Anna's despotism; have already counselled me。〃
  〃Speak no more。  I see that you also are a rebel and a
  heretic。  Mother of sorrows; give me thy compassion!〃  Then;
  turning to Juan; she cried out:  〃May God pardon me for having
  brought into this world such ingrates!  Go from me!  You have
  broken my heart!
  He fell at her feet; and; in spite of her reluctance; took her
  hands
  〃Sweetest mother; wait but a little while。  You will see that
  we are right。  Do not be cross with Juan。  I am going away。
  Kiss me; mother。  Kiss me; and give me your blessing。〃
  〃No; I will not bless you。  I will not kiss you。  You want
  what is impossible; what is wicked。〃
  〃I want freedom。〃
  〃And to get freedom you tread upon your mother's heart。
  Let loose my hands。  I am weary to death of this everlasting
  talk of freedom。  I think indeed that the Americans know
  but two words: freedom and dollars。  Ring for Rachela。  She;
  at least; is faithful to me。〃
  〃Not till you kiss me; mother。  Do not send me away unblessed
  and unloved。  That is to doom me to misfortune。  Mi madre;
  I beg this favor from you。〃  He had risen; but he still held
  her hands; and he was weeping as innocent young men are not
  ashamed to weep。
  If she had looked at him!  Oh; if she had but once looked at
  his face; she could not have resisted its beauty; its sorrow;
  its imploration!  But she would not look。  She drew her hands
  angrily away from him。  She turned her back upon her suppliant
  son and imperiously summoned Rachela。
  〃Good…by; mi madre。〃
  〃Good…by; mi madre!〃
  She would not turn to him; or answer him a word。
  〃Mi madre; here comes Rachela!  Say ‘God bless you; Juan。'  It
  is my last word; sweet mother!〃
  She neither moved nor  spoke。 The next moment Rachela
  entered; and the wretched woman abandoned herself to her care
  with vehement sobs and complainings。
  Jack was inexpressibly sorrowful。  He went into the garden;
  hoping in its silence and solitude to find some relief。  He
  loved his mother with his strongest affection。  Every one of
  her sobs wrung his heart。  Was it right to wound and disobey
  her for the sake offreedom?  Mother was a certain good;
  freedom only a glorious promise。  Mother was a living fact;
  freedom an intangible idea。
  Ah; but men have always fought more passionately for ideas
  than for facts!  Tyrants are safe while they touch only silver
  and gold; but when they try to bind a man's idealsthe
  freedom of his citizenshipthe purity of his faithhe will
  die to preserve them in their integrity。
  Besides; freedom for every generation has but her hour。  If
  that hour is not seized; no other may come  for the men who
  have suffered it to pass。  But mother would grow more loving
  as the days went by。  And this was ever the end of Jack's
  reasoning; for no man knows how deep the roots of his nature
  strike into his native land; until he sees her in the
  grasp of a tyrant; and hears her crying to him for
  deliverance。
  The struggle left the impress on his face。  He passed a
  boundary in it。  Certain boyish feelings and graces would
  never again be possible to him。  He went into the house;
  weary; and longing for companionship that would comfort or
  strengthen him。  Only Isabel was in the parlor。  She appeared
  to be asleep among the sofa cushions; but she opened her eyes
  wide as he took a chair beside her。
  〃I have been waiting to kiss you again; Juan; do you think
  this trouble will last very long?〃
  〃It will be over directly; Iza。  Do not fret yourself about
  it; angel mio。  The Americans are great fighters; and their
  quarrel is just。  Well; then; it will be settled by the good
  God quickly。〃
  〃Rachela says that Santa Anna has sent off a million of men to
  fight the Americans。  Some they will cut in pieces; and some
  are to be sent to the mines to work in chains。〃
  〃God is not dead of old age; Iza。  Santa Anna is a miraculous
  tyrant。  He has  committed every crime under heaven; but
  I think he will not cut the Americans in pieces。〃
  〃And if the Americans should even make him go back to Mexico!〃
  〃I think that is very possible。〃
  〃What then; Juan?〃
  〃He would pay for some of his crimes here the rest he would
  settle for in purgatory。  And you; too; Iza; are you with the
  Americans?〃
  〃Luis Alveda says they are right。〃
  〃Oh…h!  I see!  So Luis is to be my brother too。  Is that so;
  little dear?〃
  〃Have you roo