第 13 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2021-02-18 23:57      字数:9322
  could do the same for myself and for them; if I had the time and the
  strength。  Neither could I experience false shame in an unwonted
  occupation; no matter how surprising it might be to people; because;
  through not doing it; I had already experienced not false but real
  shame。
  And when I had reached this confession and the practical deduction
  from it; I was fully rewarded for not having quailed before the
  deductions of reason; and for following whither they led me。  On
  arriving at this practical deduction; I was amazed at the ease and
  simplicity with which all the problems which had previously seemed
  to me so difficult and so complicated; were solved。
  To the question; 〃What is it necessary to do?〃 the most indubitable
  answer presented itself:  first of all; that which it was necessary
  for me to do was; to attend to my own samovar; my own stove; my own
  water; my own clothing; to every thing that I could do for myself。
  To the question; 〃Will it not seem strange to people if you do
  this?〃 it appeared that this strangeness lasted only a week; and
  after the lapse of that week; it would have seemed strange had I
  returned to my former conditions of life。  With regard to the
  question; 〃Is it necessary to organize this physical labor; to
  institute an association in the country; on my land?〃 it appeared
  that nothing of the sort was necessary; that labor; if it does not
  aim at the acquisition of all possible leisure; and the enjoyment of
  the labor of others;like the labor of people bent on accumulating
  money;but if it have for its object the satisfaction of
  requirements; will itself be drawn from the city to the country; to
  the land; where this labor is the most fruitful and cheerful。  But
  it is not requisite to institute any association; because the man
  who labors; naturally and of himself; attaches himself to the
  existing association of laboring men。
  To the question; whether this labor would not monopolize all my
  time; and deprive me of those intellectual pursuits which I love; to
  which I am accustomed; and which; in my moments of self…conceit; I
  regard as not useless to others? I received a most unexpected reply。
  The energy of my intellectual activity increased; and increased in
  exact proportion with bodily application; while freeing itself from
  every thing superfluous。  It appeared that by dedicating to physical
  toil eight hours; that half of the day which I had formerly passed
  in the oppressive state of a struggle with ennui; eight hours
  remained to me; of which only five of intellectual activity;
  according to my terms; were necessary to me。  For it appeared; that
  if I; a very voluminous writer; who had done nothing for nearly
  forty years except write; and who had written three hundred printed
  sheets;if I had worked during all those forty years at ordinary
  labor with the working…people; then; not reckoning winter evenings
  and leisure days; if I had read and studied for five hours every
  day; and had written a couple of pages only on holidays (and I have
  been in the habit of writing at the rate of one printed sheet a
  day); then I should have written those three hundred sheets in
  fourteen years。  The fact seemed startling:  yet it is the most
  simple arithmetical calculation; which can be made by a seven…year…
  old boy; but which I had not been able to make up to this time。
  There are twenty…four hours in the day; if we take away eight hours;
  sixteen remain。  If any man engaged in intellectual occupations
  devote five hours every day to his occupation; he will accomplish a
  fearful amount。  And what is to be done with the remaining eleven
  hours?
  It proved that physical labor not only does not exclude the
  possibility of mental activity; but that it improves its quality;
  and encourages it。
  In answer to the question; whether this physical toil does not
  deprive me of many innocent pleasures peculiar to man; such as the
  enjoyment of the arts; the acquisition of learning; intercourse with
  people; and the delights of life in general; it turned out exactly
  the reverse:  the more intense the labor; the more nearly it
  approached what is considered the coarsest agricultural toil; the
  more enjoyment and knowledge did I gain; and the more did I come
  into close and loving communion with men; and the more happiness did
  I derive from life。
  In answer to the question (which I have so often heard from persons
  not thoroughly sincere); as to what result could flow from so
  insignificant a drop in the sea of sympathy as my individual
  physical labor in the sea of labor ingulfing me; I received also the
  most satisfactory and unexpected of answers。  It appeared that all I
  had to do was to make physical labor the habitual condition of my
  life; and the majority of my false; but precious; habits and my
  demands; when physically idle; fell away from me at once of their
  own accord; without the slightest exertion on my part。  Not to
  mention the habit of turning day into night and vice versa; my
  habits connected with my bed; with my clothing; with conventional
  cleanliness;which are downright impossible and oppressive with
  physical labor;and my demands as to the quality of my food; were
  entirely changed。  In place of the dainty; rich; refined;
  complicated; highly…spiced food; to which I had formerly inclined;
  the most simple viands became needful and most pleasing of all to
  me;cabbage…soup; porridge; black bread; and tea v prikusku。 {3}
  So that; not to mention the influence upon me of the example of the
  simple working…people; who are content with little; with whom I came
  in contact in the course of my bodily toil; my very requirements
  underwent a change in consequence of my toilsome life; so that my
  drop of physical labor in the sea of universal labor became larger
  and larger; in proportion as I accustomed myself to; and
  appropriated; the habits of the laboring classes; in proportion;
  also; to the success of my labor; my demands for labor from others
  grew less and less; and my life naturally; without exertion or
  privations; approached that simple existence of which I could not
  even dream without fulfilling the law of labor。
  It proved that my dearest demands from life; namely; my demands for
  vanity; and diversion from ennui; arose directly from my idle life。
  There was no place for vanity; in connection with physical labor;
  and no diversions were needed; since my time was pleasantly
  occupied; and; after my fatigue; simple rest at tea over a book; or
  in conversation with my fellows; was incomparably more agreeable
  than theatres; cards; conceits; or a large company;all which
  things are needed in physical idleness; and which cost a great deal。
  In answer to the question; Would not this unaccustomed toil ruin
  that health which is indispensable in order to render service to the
  people possible? it appeared; in spite of the positive assertions of
  noted physicians; that physical exertion; especially at my age;
  might have the most injurious consequences (but that Swedish
  gymnastics; the massage treatment; and so on; and other expedients
  intended to take the place of the natural conditions of man's life;
  were better); that the more intense the toil; the stronger; more
  alert; more cheerful; and more kindly did I feel。  Thus it
  undoubtedly appeared; that; just as all those cunning devices of the
  human mind; newspapers; theatres; concerts; visits; balls; cards;
  journals; romances; are nothing else than expedients for maintaining
  the spiritual life of man outside his natural conditions of labor
  for others;just so all the hygienic and medical devices of the
  human mind for the preparation of food; drink; lodging; ventilation;
  heating; clothing; medicine; water; massage; gymnastics; electric;
  and other means of healing;all these clever devices are merely an
  expedient to sustain the bodily life of man removed from its natural
  conditions of labor。  It turned out that all these devices of the
  human mind for the agreeable arrangement of the physical existence
  of idle persons are precisely analogous to those artful contrivances
  which people might invent for the production in vessels hermetically
  sealed; by means of mechanical arrangements; of evaporation; and
  plants; of the air best fitted for breathing; when all that is
  needed is to open the window。  All the inventions of medicine and
  hygiene for persons of our sphere are much the same as though a
  mechanic should hit upon the idea of heating a steam…boiler which
  was not working; and should shut all the valves so that the boiler
  should not burst。  Only one thing is needed; instead of all these
  extremely complicated devices for pleasure; for comfort; and for
  medical and hygienic preparations; intended to save people from
  their spiritual and bodily ailments; which swallow up so much
  labor;to fulfil the law of life; to do that which is proper not
  only to man; but to the animal; to fire off the charge of energy
  taken win in the shape of food; by muscular exertion; to speak in
  plain language; to earn one's bread。  Those who do not work should
  not eat; or they should earn as much as they have eaten。
  And when I clearly comprehended all this; it struck me as
  ridiculous。  Through a whole series of doubts and sea