第 20 节
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  adies express a misgiving as to the pecuniary value of my costume; ha! ha! Ohyoufoolish!Fancy noticing that! Why it is in little sneers that the approval of the ladies shows itself at a ball; and it is a much sincerer compliment than the gentlemen's bombastical praises: 'the fairest of her sex;' and so on; that none but the 'silliest of her sex' believe。〃
  〃Miss Dodd; I never said the fairest of her sex。 I said the loveliest。〃
  〃Oh; that alters the case entirely;〃 said Julia; whose spirits were mounting with the lights and music; and Alfred's company; 〃so now come and be reconciled to the best and wisest of her sex; ay; and the beautifullest; if you but knew her sweet; dear; darling face as I do。 There she is; let us fly。〃
  〃Mamma; here is a penitent for you; real or feigned; I don't know which。〃
  〃Real; Mrs。 Dodd;〃 said Alfred。 〃 I had no right to disobey you and risk a scene。 You served me right by abandoning me; I feel the rebuke and its justice。 Let me hope your vengeance will go no further。〃
  Mrs。 Dodd smiled at the grandiloquence of youth; and told him he had mistaken her character。 〃I saw I had acquired a generous; hot…headed ally; who was bent on doing battle with insects; so I withdrew; but so I should at Waterloo; or anywhere else where people put themselves in a passion。〃
  The band struck up again。
  〃Ah!〃 said Julia; 〃and I promised you this dance; but it is a waltz and my guardian angel objects to the _valse a deux temps。_〃
  〃Decidedly。 Should all the mothers in England permit their daughters to romp and wrestle in public; and call it waltzing; I must stand firm till they return to their senses。〃
  Julia looked at Alfred despondently。 He took his cue and said with a smile; 〃Well; perhaps it is a little rompy; a donkey's gallop and then twirl her like a mop。〃
  〃Since you admit that; perhaps you can waltz properly?〃 said Mrs。 Dodd。
  Alfred said he ought; he had given his whole soul to it in Germany last Long。
  〃Then I can have the pleasure of dropping the tyrant。 Away with you both while there is room to circulate。〃
  Alfred took his partner delicately; they made just two catlike steps forward; and melted into the old…fashioned waltz。
  It was an exquisite moment。 To most young people Love comes after a great deal of waltzing。 But this pair brought the awakened tenderness and trembling sensibilities of two burning hearts to this their first intoxicating whirl。 To them; therefore; everything was an event; everything was a thrillthe first meeting and timid pressure of their hands; the first delicate enfolding of her supple waist by his strong arm but trembling hand; the delightful unison of their unerring feet; the movement; the music; the soft delicious whirl; her cool breath saluting his neck; his ardent but now liquid eyes seeking hers tenderly; and drinking them deep; hers that now and then sipped his so sweetlyall these were new and separate joys; that linked themselves in one soft delirium of bliss。 It was not a waltz it was an Ecstasy。
  Starting almost alone; this peerless pair danced a gauntlet。 On each side admiration and detraction buzzed all the time。
  〃Beautiful! They are turning in the air。〃
  〃Quite gone by。 That's how the old fogies dance。〃
  Chorus of shallow males: 〃How well she waltzes。〃
  Chorus of shallow females: 〃How well he waltzes。〃
  But they noted neither praise nor detraction: they saw nothing; heard nothing; felt nothing; but themselves and the other music; till two valsers _a deux temps_ plunged into them。 Thus smartly reminded they had not earth all to themselves; they laughed good…humouredly and paused。
  〃Ah! I am happy!〃 gushed from Julia。 She hushed at herself; and said severely; 〃You dance very well; sir。〃 This was said to justify her unguarded admission; and did; after a fashion。 〃I think it is time to go to mamma;〃 said she demurely。
  〃So soon? And I had so much to say to you。〃
  〃Oh; very well。 I am all attention。〃
  The sudden facility offered set Alfred stammering a little。 〃I wanted to apologise to you for somethingyou are so good you seem to have forgotten itbut I dare not hope thatI mean at Henleywhen the beauty of your character; and your goodness; so overpowered me; that a fatal impulse〃
  〃What do you mean; sir?〃 said Julia; looking him full in the face; like an offended lion; while; with true feminine and Julian inconsistency her bosom fluttered like a dove。 〃I never exchanged one word with you in my life before to…day; and I never shall again if you pretend the contrary。〃
  Alfred stood stupified; and looked at her in piteous amazement。
  〃I value your acquaintance highly; Mr。 Hardie; now I have made it; as acquaintances are made; but please to observe; I never saw you beforescarcely; not even in church。〃
  〃As you please;〃 said he; recovering his wits in part。 〃What you say I'll swear to。〃
  〃Then I say; never remind a lady of what you ought to wish her to forget。〃
  〃I was a fool; and you are an angel of tact and goodness。〃
  〃Oh; now I am sure it is time to join mamma;〃 said she in the driest; drollest way。 _〃Valsons。_〃
  They waltzed down to Mrs。 Dodd; exchanging hearts at every turn; and they took a good many in the space of a round table; for in truth both were equally loth to part。
  At two o'clock Mrs。 Dodd resumed common…place views of a daughter's health; and rose to go。
  Her fly had played her false; and; being our island home; it rained buckets。 Alfred ran; before they could stop him; and caught a fly。 He was dripping。 Mrs。 Dodd expressed her regrets; he told her it did not matter; for him the ball was now over; the flowers faded; and the lights darkness visible。
  〃The extravagance of these children!〃 said Mrs。 Dodd to Julia; with a smile; as soon as he was out of hearing。 Julia made no reply。
  Next day she was at evening church: the congregation was very sparse。 The first glance revealed Alfred Hardie standing in the very next pew。 He wore a calm front of conscious rectitude; under which peeped sheep…faced misgivings as to the result of this advance; for; like all true lovers; he was half impudence; half timidity; and both on the grand scale。
  Now Julia in a ball…room was one creature; another in church。 After the first surprise; which sent the blood for a moment to her cheek; she found he had come without a prayer…book。 She looked sadly and half reproachfully at him; then put her white hand calmly over the wooden partition; and made him read with her out of her book。 She shared her hymn…book with him; too; and sang her Maker's praise modestly and soberly; but earnestly; and quite undisturbed by her lover's presence。 It seemed as if this pure creature was drawing him to heaven holding by that good book; and by her touching voice。 He felt good all over。 To be like her; be tried to bend his whole mind on the prayers of the church; and for the first time realised how beautiful they are。
  After service he followed her to the door。 Island home again; by the pailful; and she had a thick shawl but no umbrella。 He had brought a large one on the chance; he would see her home。
  〃Quite unnecessary; it is so near。〃
  He insisted; she persisted; and; persisting; yielded。 They said but little; yet they seemed to interchange volumes; and; at each gaslight they passed; they stole a look and treasured it to feed on。
  That night was one broad step more towards the great happiness; or great misery; which awaits a noble love。 Such loves; somewhat rare in Nature; have lately become so very rare in Fiction that I have ventured; with many misgivings; to detail the peculiarities of its rise and progress。 But now for a time it advanced on beaten tracks。 Alfred had the right to call at Albion Villa; and he came twice; once when Mrs。 Dodd was out。 This was the time he stayed the two hours。 A Mrs。 James invited Jane and him to tea and exposition。 There he met Julia and Edward; who had just returned。 Edward was taken with Jane Hardie's face and dovelike eyes; eyes that dwelt with a soft and chastened admiration on his masculine face and his model form; and their owner felt she had received 〃a call〃 to watch over his spiritual weal。 So they paired off。
  Julia's fluctuating spirits settled now into a calm; demure; complacency。 Her mother; finding this strange remedial virtue in youthful society; gave young parties; inviting Jane and Alfred in their turn。 Jane hesitated; but; as she could no longer keep Julia from knowing her worldly brother; and hoped a way might be opened for her to rescue Edward; she relaxed her general rule; which was to go into no company unless some religious service formed part of the entertainment。 Yet her conscience was ill at ease; and; to set them an example; she took care; when she asked the Dodds in return; to have a clergyman there of her own party; who could pray and expound with unction。
  Mrs。 Dodd; not to throw cold water on what seemed to gratify her children; accepted Miss Hardie's invitation; but she never intended to go; and at the last moment wrote to say she was slightly indisposed。 The nature of her _indisposition_ she revealed to Julia alone。 〃That young lady keeps me on thorns。 I never feel secure she will not say or do something extravagant or unusual: she seems to suspect sobriety and good t