第 53 节
作者:冥王      更新:2021-02-18 23:11      字数:9322
  position would have executed quite as brutally; he now endeavored; as
  the unfortunate Modeste approached him; to find plausible excuses for
  his conduct。
  〃Dear Modeste;〃 he began; in a coaxing tone; 〃considering the terms on
  which we stand to each other; shall I displease you if I say that your
  replies to the Duc d'Herouville were very painful to a man in love;
  above all; to a poet whose soul is feminine; nervous; full of the
  jealousies of true passion。 I should make a poor diplomatist indeed if
  I had not perceived that your first coquetries; your little
  premeditated inconsistencies; were only assumed for the purpose of
  studying our characters〃
  Modeste raised her head with the rapid; intelligent; half…coquettish
  motion of a wild animal; in whom instinct produces such miracles of
  grace。
  〃and therefore when I returned home and thought them over; they
  never misled me。 I only marvelled at a cleverness so in harmony with
  your character and your countenance。 Do not be uneasy; I never doubted
  that your assumed duplicity covered an angelic candor。 No; your mind;
  your education; have in no way lessened the precious innocence which
  we demand in a wife。 You are indeed a wife for a poet; a diplomatist;
  a thinker; a man destined to endure the chances and changes of life;
  and my admiration is equalled only by the attachment I feel to you。 I
  now entreat youif yesterday you were not playing a little comedy
  when you accepted the love of a man whose vanity will change to pride
  if you accept him; one whose defects will become virtues under your
  divine influenceI entreat you do not excite a passion which; in him;
  amounts to vice。 Jealousy is a noxious element in my soul; and you
  have revealed to me its strength; it is awful; it destroys everything
  Oh! I do not mean the jealousy of an Othello;〃 he continued;
  noticing Modeste's gesture。 〃No; no; my thoughts were of myself: I
  have been so indulged on that point。 You know the affection to which I
  owe all the happiness I have ever enjoyed;very little at the best〃
  (he sadly shook his head)。 〃Love is symbolized among all nations as a
  child; because it fancies the world belongs to it; and it cannot
  conceive otherwise。 Well; Nature herself set the limit to that
  sentiment。 It was still…born。 A tender; maternal soul guessed and
  calmed the painful constriction of my heart;for a woman who feels;
  who knows; that she is past the joys of love becomes angelic in her
  treatment of others。 The duchess has never made me suffer in my
  sensibilities。 For ten years not a word; not a look; that could wound
  me! I attach more value to words; to thoughts; to looks; than ordinary
  men。 If a look is to me a treasure beyond all price; the slightest
  doubt is deadly poison; it acts instantaneously; my love dies。 I
  believecontrary to the mass of men; who delight in trembling;
  hoping; expectingthat love can only exist in perfect; infantile; and
  infinite security。 The exquisite purgatory; where women delight to
  send us by their coquetry; is a base happiness to which I will not
  submit: to me; love is either heaven or hell。 If it is hell; I will
  have none of it。 I feel an affinity with the azure skies of Paradise
  within my soul。 I can give myself without reserve; without secrets;
  doubts or deceptions; in the life to come; and I demand reciprocity。
  Perhaps I offend you by these doubts。 Remember; however; that I am
  only talking of myself〃
  〃a good deal; but never too much;〃 said Modeste; offended in every
  hole and corner of her pride by this discourse; in which the Duchesse
  de Chaulieu served as a dagger。 〃I am so accustomed to admire you; my
  dear poet。〃
  〃Well; then; can you promise me the same canine fidelity which I offer
  to you? Is it not beautiful? Is it not just what you have longed for?〃
  〃But why; dear poet; do you not marry a deaf…mute; and one who is also
  something of an idiot? I ask nothing better than to please my husband。
  But you threaten to take away from a girl the very happiness you so
  kindly arrange for her; you are tearing away every gesture; every
  word; every look; you cut the wings of your bird; and then expect it
  to hover about you。 I know poets are accused of inconsistencyoh!
  very unjustly;〃 she added; as Canalis made a gesture of denial; 〃that
  alleged defect which comes from the brilliant activity of their minds
  which commonplace people cannot take into account。 I do not believe;
  however; that a man of genius can invent such irreconcilable
  conditions and call his invention life。 You are requiring the
  impossible solely for the pleasure of putting me in the wrong;like
  the enchanters in fairy…tales; who set tasks to persecuted young girls
  whom the good fairies come and deliver。〃
  〃In this case the good fairy would be true love;〃 said Canalis in a
  curt tone; aware that his elaborate excuse for a rupture was seen
  through by the keen and delicate mind which Butscha had piloted so
  well。
  〃My dear poet; you remind me of those fathers who inquire into a
  girl's 'dot' before they are willing to name that of their son。 You
  are quarrelling with me without knowing whether you have the slightest
  right to do so。 Love is not gained by such dry arguments as yours。 The
  poor duke on the contrary abandons himself to it like my Uncle Toby;
  with this difference; that I am not the Widow Wadman;though widow
  indeed of many illusions as to poetry at the present moment。 Ah; yes;
  we young girls will not believe in anything that disturbs our world of
  fancy! I was warned of all this beforehand。 My dear poet; you are
  attempting to get up a quarrel which is unworthy of you。 I no longer
  recognize the Melchior of yesterday。〃
  〃Because Melchior has discovered a spirit of ambition in you which〃
  Modeste looked at him from head to foot with an imperial eye。
  〃But I shall be peer of France and ambassador as well as he;〃 added
  Canalis。
  〃Do you take me for a bourgeois;〃 she said; beginning to mount the
  steps of the portico; but she instantly turned back and added; 〃That
  is less impertinent than to take me for a fool。 The change in your
  conduct comes from certain silly rumors which you have heard in Havre;
  and which my maid Francoise has repeated to me。〃
  〃Ah; Modeste; how can you think it?〃 said Canalis; striking a dramatic
  attitude。 〃Do you think me capable of marrying you only for your
  money?〃
  〃If I do you that wrong after your edifying remarks on the banks of
  the Seine can you easily undeceive me;〃 she said; annihilating him
  with her scorn。
  〃Ah!〃 thought the poet; as he followed her into the house; 〃if you
  think; my little girl; that I'm to be caught in that net; you take me
  to be younger than I am。 Dear; dear; what a fuss about an artful
  little thing whose esteem I value about as much as that of the king of
  Borneo。 But she has given me a good reason for the rupture by accusing
  me of such unworthy sentiments。 Isn't she sly? La Briere will get a
  burden on his backidiot that he is! And five years hence it will be
  a good joke to see them together。〃
  The coldness which this altercation produced between Modeste and
  Canalis was visible to all eyes that evening。 The poet went off early;
  on the ground of La Briere's illness; leaving the field to the grand
  equerry。 About eleven o'clock Butscha; who had come to walk home with
  Madame Latournelle; whispered in Modeste's ear; 〃Was I right?〃
  〃Alas; yes;〃 she said。
  〃But I hope you have left the door half open; so that he can come
  back; we agreed upon that; you know。〃
  〃Anger got the better of me;〃 said Modeste。 〃Such meanness sent the
  blood to my head and I told him what I thought of him。〃
  〃Well; so much the better。 When you are both so angry that you can't
  speak civilly to each other I engage to make him desperately in love
  and so pressing that you will be deceived yourself。〃
  〃Come; come; Butscha; he is a great poet; he is a gentleman; he is a
  man of intellect。〃
  〃Your father's eight millions are more to him than all that。〃
  〃Eight millions!〃 exclaimed Modeste。
  〃My master; who has sold his practice; is going to Provence to attend
  to the purchase of lands which your father's agent has suggested to
  him。 The sum that is to be paid for the estate of La Bastie is four
  millions; your father has agreed to it。 You are to have a 'dot' of two
  millions and another million for an establishment in Paris; a hotel
  and furniture。 Now; count up。〃
  〃Ah! then I can be Duchesse d'Herouville!〃 cried Modeste; glancing at
  Butscha。
  〃If it hadn't been for that comedian of a Canalis you would have kept
  HIS whip; thinking it came from me;〃 said the dwarf; indirectly
  pleading La Briere's cause。
  〃Monsieur Butscha; may I ask if I am to marry to please you?〃 said
  Modeste; laughing。
  〃That fine fellow loves you as well as I do;and you loved him for
  eight days;〃 retorted Butscha; 〃and HE has got a heart。〃
  〃Can he compete; pray; with an off