第 77 节
作者:圈圈      更新:2021-02-18 22:40      字数:9322
  hurl me down into the dwellings of Fiends; and flames; and
  Furies; and everlasting torments!  And 'tis you; who will accuse
  me!  'Tis you; who will cause my eternal anguish!  You; wretched
  Girl!  You!  You!'
  As He thundered out these words; He violently grasped Antonia's
  arm; and spurned the earth with delirious fury。
  Supposing his brain to be turned; Antonia sank in terror upon her
  knees:  She lifted up her hands; and her voice almost died away;
  ere She could give it utterance。
  'Spare me!  Spare me!' She murmured with difficulty。
  'Silence!' cried the Friar madly; and dashed her upon the
  ground
  He quitted her; and paced the dungeon with a wild and disordered
  air。  His eyes rolled fearfully:  Antonia trembled whenever She
  met their gaze。  He seemed to meditate on something horrible; and
  She gave up all hopes of escaping from the Sepulchre with life。
  Yet in harbouring this idea; She did him injustice。  Amidst the
  horror and disgust to which his soul was a prey; pity for his
  Victim still held a place in it。  The storm of passion once over;
  He would have given worlds had He possest them; to have restored
  to her that innocence of which his unbridled lust had deprived
  her。  Of the desires which had urged him to the crime; no trace
  was left in his bosom:  The wealth of India would not have
  tempted him to a second enjoyment of her person。  His nature
  seemed to revolt at the very idea; and fain would He have wiped
  from his memory the scene which had just past。  As his gloomy
  rage abated; in proportion did his compassion augment for
  Antonia。  He stopped; and would have spoken to her words of
  comfort; But He knew not from whence to draw them; and remained
  gazing upon her with mournful wildness。  Her situation seemed so
  hopeless; so woebegone; as to baffle mortal power to relieve
  her。  What could He do for her?  Her peace of mind was lost; her
  honour irreparably ruined。  She was cut off for ever from
  society; nor dared He give her back to it。  He was conscious
  that were She to appear in the world again; his guilt would be
  revealed; and his punishment inevitable。  To one so laden with
  crimes; Death came armed with double terrors。  Yet should He
  restore Antonia to light; and stand the chance of her betraying
  him; how miserable a prospect would present itself before her。
  She could never hope to be creditably established; She would be
  marked with infamy; and condemned to sorrow and solitude for the
  remainder of her existence。  What was the alternative?  A
  resolution far more terrible for Antonia; but which at least
  would insure the Abbot's safety。  He determined to leave the
  world persuaded of her death; and to retain her a captive in this
  gloomy prison:  There He proposed to visit her every night; to
  bring her food; to profess his penitence; and mingle his tears
  with hers。  The Monk felt that this resolution was unjust and
  cruel; but it was his only means to prevent Antonia from
  publishing his guilt and her own infamy。  Should He release her;
  He could not depend upon her silence:  His offence was too
  flagrant to permit his hoping for her forgiveness。  Besides; her
  reappearing would excite universal curiosity; and the violence
  of her affliction would prevent her from concealing its cause。
  He determined therefore; that Antonia should remain a Prisoner in
  the dungeon。
  He approached her with confusion painted on his countenance。  He
  raised her from the ground。  Her hand trembled; as He took it;
  and He dropped it again as if He had touched a Serpent。  Nature
  seemed to recoil at the touch。  He felt himself at once repulsed
  from and attracted towards her; yet could account for neither
  sentiment。  There was something in her look which penetrated him
  with horror; and though his understanding was still ignorant of
  it; Conscience pointed out to him the whole extent of his crime。
  In hurried accents yet the gentlest He could find; while his eye
  was averted; and his voice scarcely audible; He strove to console
  her under a misfortune which now could not be avoided。  He
  declared himself sincerely penitent; and that He would gladly
  shed a drop of his blood; for every tear which his barbarity had
  forced from her。  Wretched and hopeless; Antonia listened to him
  in silent grief:  But when He announced her confinement in the
  Sepulchre; that dreadful doom to which even death seemed
  preferable roused her from her insensibility at once。  To linger
  out a life of misery in a narrow loathsome Cell; known to exist
  by no human Being save her Ravisher; surrounded by mouldering
  Corses; breathing the pestilential air of corruption; never more
  to behold the light; or drink the pure gale of heaven; the idea
  was more terrible than She could support。 It conquered even her
  abhorrence of the Friar。 Again She sank upon her knees:  She
  besought his compassion in terms the most pathetic and urgent。
  She promised; would He but restore her to liberty; to conceal her
  injuries from the world; to assign any reason for her
  reappearance which He might judge proper; and in order to
  prevent the least suspicion from falling upon him; She offered to
  quit Madrid immediately。  Her entreaties were so urgent as to
  make a considerable impression upon the Monk。  He reflected that
  as her person no longer excited his desires; He had no interest
  in keeping her concealed as He had at first intended; that He was
  adding a fresh injury to those which She had already suffered;
  and that if She adhered to her promises; whether She was confined
  or at liberty; his life and reputation were equally secure。  On
  the other hand; He trembled lest in her affliction Antonia should
  unintentionally break her engagement; or that her excessive
  simplicity and ignorance of deceit should permit some one more
  artful to surprize her secret。  However well…founded were these
  apprehensions; compassion; and a sincere wish to repair his fault
  as much as possible solicited his complying with the prayers of
  his Suppliant。  The difficulty of colouring Antonia's unexpected
  return to life; after her supposed death and public interment;
  was the only point which kept him irresolute。  He was still
  pondering on the means of removing this obstacle; when He heard
  the sound of feet approaching with precipitation。  The door of
  the Vault was thrown open; and Matilda rushed in; evidently much
  confused and terrified。
  On seeing a Stranger enter; Antonia uttered a cry of joy:  But
  her hopes of receiving succour from him were soon dissipated。
  The supposed Novice; without expressing the least surprize at
  finding a Woman alone with the Monk; in so strange a place; and
  at so late an hour; addressed him thus without losing a moment。
  'What is to be done; Ambrosio?  We are lost; unless some speedy
  means is found of dispelling the Rioters。  Ambrosio; the Convent
  of St。 Clare is on fire; The Prioress has fallen a victim to the
  fury of the Mob。  Already is the Abbey menaced with a similar
  fate。  Alarmed at the threats of the People; the Monks seek for
  you everywhere。 They imagine that your authority alone will
  suffice to calm this disturbance。  No one knows what is become
  of you; and your absence creates universal astonishment and
  despair。  I profited by the confusion; and fled hither to warn
  you of the danger。'
  'This will soon be remedied;' answered the Abbot; 'I will hasten
  back to my Cell:  a trivial reason will account for my having
  been missed。'
  'Impossible!' rejoined Matilda:  'The Sepulchre is filled with
  Archers。  Lorenzo de Medina; with several Officers of the
  Inquisition; searches through the Vaults; and pervades every
  passage。  You will be intercepted in your flight; Your reasons
  for being at this late hour in the Sepulchre will be examined;
  Antonia will be found; and then you are undone for ever!'
  'Lorenzo de Medina?  Officers of the Inquisition? What brings
  them here?  Seek they for me?  Am I then suspected?  Oh! speak;
  Matilda!  Answer me; in pity!'
  'As yet they do not think of you; but I fear that they will ere
  long。  Your only chance of escaping their notice rests upon the
  difficulty of exploring this Vault。  The door is artfully hidden:
  Haply it may not be observed; and we may remain concealed till
  the search is over。'
  'But Antonia 。 。 。 。 。 Should the Inquisitors draw near; and her
  cries be heard 。 。 。 。'
  'Thus I remove that danger!' interrupted Matilda。
  At the same time drawing a poignard; She rushed upon her devoted
  prey。
  'Hold! Hold!' cried Ambrosio; seizing her hand; and wresting from
  it the already lifted weapon。  'What would you do; cruel Woman?
  The Unfortunate has already suffered but too much; thanks to your
  pernicious consels!  Would to God that I had never followed them!
  Would to God that I had never seen your face!'
  Matilda darted upon him a look of scorn。
  'Absurd!' She exclaimed with an air of passion and majesty which
  impressed the Monk with awe。  'After robbing her of all that made
  it dear; can you fear to deprive her of a life so miserable?  But
  'tis well!  Let her live to convince you of your folly。  I
  abandon you to your evil destiny!  I disclaim your alliance!  Who
  trembles to commit so insignificant a crime; deserves not my
  protection。  Ha