第 47 节
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  more; For that purpose He gave him in charge to his Friend; the
  former Superior of the Capuchins。  The Abbot; a very Monk; used
  all his endeavours to persuade the Boy that happiness existed
  not without the walls of a Convent。  He succeeded fully。  To
  deserve admittance into the order of St。 Francis was Ambrosio's
  highest ambition。  His Instructors carefully repressed those
  virtues whose grandeur and disinterestedness were ill…suited to
  the Cloister。  Instead of universal benevolence; He adopted a
  selfish partiality for his own particular establishment:  He was
  taught to consider compassion for the errors of Others as a crime
  of the blackest dye:  The noble frankness of his temper was
  exchanged for servile humility; and in order to break his natural
  spirit; the Monks terrified his young mind by placing before him
  all the horrors with which Superstition could furnish them:  They
  painted to him the torments of the Damned in colours the most
  dark; terrible; and fantastic; and threatened him at the
  slightest fault with eternal perdition。  No wonder that his
  imagination constantly dwelling upon these fearful objects should
  have rendered his character timid and apprehensive。  Add to this;
  that his long absence from the great world; and total
  unacquaintance with the common dangers of life; made him form of
  them an idea far more dismal than the reality。  While the Monks
  were busied in rooting out his virtues and narrowing his
  sentiments; they allowed every vice which had fallen to his
  share to arrive at full perfection。  He was suffered to be
  proud; vain; ambitious; and disdainful:  He was jealous of his
  Equals; and despised all merit but his own:  He was implacable
  when offended; and cruel in his revenge。 Still in spite of the
  pains taken to pervert them; his natural good qualities would
  occasionally break through the gloom cast over them so carefully:
  At such times the contest for superiority between his real and
  acquired character was striking and unaccountable to those
  unacquainted with his original disposition。  He pronounced the
  most severe sentences upon Offenders; which; the moment after;
  Compassion induced him to mitigate:  He undertook the most daring
  enterprizes; which the fear of their consequences soon obliged
  him to abandon:  His inborn genius darted a brilliant light upon
  subjects the most obscure; and almost instantaneously his
  Superstition replunged them in darkness more profound than that
  from which they had just been rescued。  His Brother Monks;
  regarding him as a Superior Being; remarked not this
  contradiction in their Idol's conduct。  They were persuaded that
  what He did must be right; and supposed him to have good reasons
  for changing his resolutions。  The fact was; that the different
  sentiments with which Education and Nature had inspired him
  were combating in his bosom:  It remained for his passions; which
  as yet no opportunity had called into play; to decide the
  victory。  Unfortunately his passions were the very worst Judges;
  to whom He could possibly have applied。  His monastic seclusion
  had till now been in his favour; since it gave him no room for
  discovering his bad qualities。  The superiority of his talents
  raised him too far above his Companions to permit his being
  jealous of them:  His exemplary piety; persuasive eloquence; and
  pleasing manners had secured him universal Esteem; and
  consequently He had no injuries to revenge:  His Ambition was
  justified by his acknowledged merit; and his pride considered as
  no more than proper confidence。  He never saw; much less
  conversed with; the other sex:  He was ignorant of the pleasures
  in Woman's power to bestow; and if He read in the course of his
  studies
  'That Men were fond; He smiled; and wondered how!'
  For a time; spare diet; frequent watching; and severe penance
  cooled and represt the natural warmth of his constitution:  But
  no sooner did opportunity present itself; no sooner did He catch
  a glimpse of joys to which He was still a Stranger; than
  Religion's barriers were too feeble to resist the overwhelming
  torrent of his desires。  All impediments yielded before the force
  of his temperament; warm; sanguine; and voluptuous in the excess。
  As yet his other passions lay dormant; But they only needed to be
  once awakened; to display themselves with violence as great and
  irresistible。
  He continued to be the admiration of Madrid。  The Enthusiasm
  created by his eloquence seemed rather to increase than diminish。
  Every Thursday; which was the only day when He appeared in
  public; the Capuchin Cathedral was crowded with Auditors; and
  his discourse was always received with the same approbation。  He
  was named Confessor to all the chief families in Madrid; and no
  one was counted fashionable who was injoined penance by any
  other than Ambrosio。  In his resolution of never stirring out of
  his Convent; He still persisted。 This circumstance created a
  still greater opinion of his sanctity and self…denial。  Above
  all; the Women sang forth his praises loudly; less influenced by
  devotion than by his noble countenance; majestic air; and
  well…turned; graceful figure。  The Abbey door was thronged with
  Carriages from morning to night; and the noblest and fairest
  Dames of Madrid confessed to the Abbot their secret peccadilloes。
  The eyes of the luxurious Friar devoured their charms:  Had his
  Penitents consulted those Interpreters; He would have needed no
  other means of expressing his desires。  For his misfortune; they
  were so strongly persuaded of his continence; that the
  possibility of his harbouring indecent thoughts never once
  entered their imaginations。  The climate's heat; 'tis well known;
  operates with no small influence upon the constitutions of the
  Spanish Ladies:  But the most abandoned would have thought it an
  easier task to inspire with passion the marble Statue of St。
  Francis than the cold and rigid heart of the immaculate Ambrosio。
  On his part; the Friar was little acquainted with the depravity
  of the world; He suspected not that but few of his Penitents
  would have rejected his addresses。  Yet had He been better
  instructed on this head; the danger attending such an attempt
  would have sealed up his lips in silence。  He knew that it would
  be difficult for a Woman to keep a secret so strange and so
  important as his frailty; and He even trembled lest Matilda
  should betray him。  Anxious to preserve a reputation which was
  infinitely dear to him; He saw all the risque of committing it to
  the power of some vain giddy Female; and as the Beauties of
  Madrid affected only his senses without touching his heart; He
  forgot them as soon as they were out of his sight。  The danger of
  discovery; the fear of being repulsed; the loss of reputation;
  all these considerations counselled him to stifle his desires:
  And though He now felt for it the most perfect indifference; He
  was necessitated to confine himself to Matilda's person。
  One morning; the confluence of Penitents was greater than usual。
  He was detained in the Confessional Chair till a late hour。  At
  length the crowd was dispatched; and He prepared to quit the
  Chapel; when two Females entered and drew near him with
  humility。  They threw up their veils; and the youngest entreated
  him to listen to her for a few moments。  The melody of her voice;
  of that voice to which no Man ever listened without interest;
  immediately caught Ambrosio's attention。  He stopped。  The
  Petitioner seemed bowed down with affliction:  Her cheeks were
  pale; her eyes dimmed with tears; and her hair fell in disorder
  over her face and bosom。  Still her countenance was so sweet; so
  innocent; so heavenly; as might have charmed an heart less
  susceptible; than that which panted in the Abbot's breast。  With
  more than usual softness of manner He desired her to proceed; and
  heard her speak as follows with an emotion which increased every
  moment。
  'Reverend Father; you see an Unfortunate; threatened with the
  loss of her dearest; of almost her only Friend!  My Mother; my
  excellent Mother lies upon the bed of sickness。  A sudden and
  dreadful malady seized her last night; and so rapid has been its
  progress; that the Physicians despair of her life。  Human aid
  fails me; Nothing remains for me but to implore the mercy of
  Heaven。  Father; all Madrid rings with the report of your piety
  and virtue。  Deign to remember my Mother in your prayers:
  Perhaps they may prevail on the Almighty to spare her; and should
  that be the case; I engage myself every Thursday in the next
  three Months to illuminate the Shrine of St。 Francis in his
  honour。'
  'So!' thought the Monk; 'Here we have a second Vincentio della
  Ronda。  Rosario's adventure began thus;' and He wished secretly
  that this might have the same conclusion。
  He acceded to the request。  The Petitioner returned him thanks
  with every mark of gratitude; and then continued。
  'I have yet another favour to ask。  We are Strangers in Madrid;
  My Mother needs a Confessor; and knows not to whom She should
  apply。  We understand that you never quit the Abbey; and Alas! my
  poor Mother is unable to come hither!  If you would have the
  goodness; reverend Father; to name a proper person; whose wise
  a