第 34 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2021-02-18 21:46      字数:9322
  prolonged absence from the Annex。  Coming as
  it did so soon after her most disconcerting talk
  with Billy in regard to her own relations with
  him; it had filled her with frightened questionings。
  If Billy had seen things to make her think of
  linking their names together; perhaps Arkwright
  himself had heard some such idea put forth
  somewhere; and that was why he was staying
  awayto show the world that there was no
  foundation for such rumors。  Perhaps he was
  even doing it to show _her_ that
  Even in her thoughts Alice could scarcely
  bring herself to finish the sentence。  That Arkwright
  should ever suspect for a moment that
  she cared for him was intolerable。  Painfully
  conscious as she was that she did care for him;
  it was easy to fear that others must be conscious
  of it; too。  Had she not already proof that Billy
  suspected it?  Why; then; might not it be quite
  possible; even probable; that Arkwright suspected
  it; also; and; because he did suspect it; had
  decided that it would be just as well; perhaps; if
  he did not call so often。
  In spite of Alice's angry insistence to herself
  that; after all; this could not be the case
  that the man _knew_ she understood he still loved
  Billyshe could not help fearing; in the face
  of Arkwright's unusual absence; that it might
  yet be true。  When; therefore; he finally did
  appear; only to become at once obviously embarrassed
  in her presence; her fears instantly became
  convictions。  It was true; then。  The man
  did believe she cared for him; and he had been
  trying to teach herto save her。
  To teach her!  To save her; indeed!  Very
  well; he should see!  And forthwith; from that
  moment; Alice Greggory's chief reason for living
  became to prove to Mr。 M。 J。 Arkwright that
  he needed not to teach her; to save her; nor yet
  to sympathize with her。
  ‘‘How do you do?'' she greeted him; with a
  particularly bright smile。  ‘‘I'm sure I _hope_ you
  are well; such a beautiful day as this。''
  ‘‘Oh; yes; I'm well; I suppose。  Still; I have
  felt better in my life;'' smiled Arkwright; with
  some constraint。
  ‘‘Oh; I'm sorry;'' murmured the girl; striving
  so hard to speak with impersonal unconcern that
  she did not notice the inaptness of her reply。
  ‘‘Eh?  Sorry I've felt better; are you?''
  retorted Arkwright; with nervous humor。  Then;
  because he was embarrassed; he said the one
  thing he had meant not to say:  ‘‘Don't you think
  I'm quite a stranger?  It's been some time since
  I've been here。''
  Alice; smarting under the sting of what she
  judged to be the only possible cause for his
  embarrassment; leaped to this new opportunity to
  show her lack of interest。
  ‘‘Oh; has it?'' she murmured carelessly。
  ‘‘Well; I don't know but it has; now that I come
  to think of it。''
  Arkwright frowned gloomily。  A week ago he
  would have tossed back a laughingly aggrieved
  remark as to her unflattering indifference to his
  presence。  Now he was in no mood for such
  joking。  It was too serious a matter with him。
  ‘‘You've been busy; no doubt; withother
  matters;'' he presumed forlornly; thinking of
  Calderwell。
  ‘‘Yes; I have been busy;'' assented the girl。
  ‘‘One is always happier; I think; to be busy。
  Not that I meant that I needed the work to _be_
  happy;'' she added hastily; in a panic lest he
  think she had a consuming sorrow to kill。
  ‘‘No; of course not;'' he murmured abstractedly;
  rising to his feet and crossing the room to
  the piano。  Then; with an elaborate air of trying
  to appear very natural; he asked jovially:
  ‘‘Anything new to play to me?''
  Alice arose at once。
  ‘‘Yes。  I have a little nocturne that I was
  playing to Mr。 Calderwell last night。''
  ‘‘Oh; to Calderwell!'' Arkwright had stiffened
  perceptibly。
  ‘‘Yes。  _He_ didn't like it。  I'll play it to you
  and see what you say;'' she smiled; seating herself
  at the piano。
  ‘‘Well; if he had liked it; it's safe to say I
  shouldn't;'' shrugged Arkwright。
  ‘‘Nonsense!'' laughed the girl; beginning to
  appear more like her natural self。  ‘‘I should
  think you were Mr。 Cyril Henshaw!  Mr。 Calderwell
  _is_ partial to ragtime; I'll admit。  But there
  are some good things he likes。''
  ‘‘There are; indeed; _some_ good things he likes;''
  returned Arkwright; with grim emphasis; his
  somber eyes fixed on what he believed to be the
  one especial object of Calderwell's affections at
  the moment。
  Alice; unaware both of the melancholy gaze
  bent upon herself and of the cause thereof;
  laughed again merrily。
  ‘‘Poor Mr。 Calderwell;'' she cried; as she let her
  fingers slide into soft; introductory chords。  ‘‘He
  isn't to blame for not liking what he calls our lost
  spirits that wail。  It's just the way he's made。''
  Arkwright vouchsafed no reply。  With an
  abrupt gesture he turned and began to pace the
  room moodily。  At the piano Alice slipped from
  the chords into the nocturne。  She played it
  straight through; then; with a charm and skill
  that brought Arkwright's feet to a pause before
  it was half finished。
  ‘‘By George; that's great!'' he breathed; when
  the last tone had quivered into silence。
  ‘‘Yes; isn't itbeautiful?'' she murmured。
  The room was very quiet; and in semi…darkness。
  The last rays of a late June sunset had been filling
  the room with golden light; but it was gone now。
  Even at the piano by the window; Alice had barely
  been able to see clearly enough to read the notes
  of her nocturne。
  To Arkwright the air still trembled with the
  exquisite melody that had but just left her fingers。
  A quick fire came to his eyes。  He forgot everything
  but that it was Alice there in the half…light
  by the windowAlice; whom he loved。  With a
  low cry he took a swift step toward her。
  ‘‘Alice!''
  Instantly the girl was on her feet。  But it was
  not toward him that she turned。  It was away
  resolutely; and with a haste that was strangely
  like terror。
  Alice; too; had forgotten; for just a moment。
  She had let herself drift into a dream world where
  there was nothing but the music she was playing
  and the man she loved。  Then the music had
  stopped; and the man had spoken her name。
  Alice remembered then。  She remembered Billy;
  whom this man loved。  She remembered the long
  days just passed when this man had stayed away;
  presumably to teach _her_to save _her_。  And
  now; at the sound of his voice speaking her name;
  she had almost bared her heart to him。
  No wonder that Alice; with a haste that looked
  like terror; crossed the floor and flooded the room
  with light。
  ‘‘Dear me!'' she shivered; carefully avoiding
  Arkwright's eyes。  ‘‘If Mr。 Calderwell were here
  now he'd have some excuse to talk about our lost
  spirits that wail。  That _is_ a creepy piece of music
  when you play it in the dark!''  And; for fear
  that he should suspect how her heart was aching;
  she gave a particularly brilliant and joyous smile。
  Once again at the mention of Calderwell's name
  Arkwright stiffened perceptibly。  The fire left
  his eyes。  For a moment he did not speak; then;
  gravely; he said:
  ‘‘Calderwell?  Yes; perhaps he would; and
  you ought to be a judge; I should think。  You see
  him quite frequently; don't you?''
  ‘‘Why; yes; of course。  He often comes out
  here; you know。''
  ‘‘Yes; I had heard that he didsince _you_
  came。''
  His meaning was unmistakable。  Alice looked
  up quickly。  A prompt denial of his implication
  was on her lips when the thought came to her
  that perhaps just here lay a sure way to prove to
  this man before her that there was; indeed; no
  need for him to teach her; to save her; or yet to
  sympathize with her。  She could not affirm; of
  course; but she need not denyyet。
  ‘‘Nonsense!'' she laughed lightly; pleased that
  she could feel what she hoped would pass for a
  telltale color burning her cheeks。  ‘‘Come; let
  us try some duets;'' she proposed; leading the
  way to the piano。  And Arkwright; interpreting
  the apparently embarrassed change of subject
  exactly as she had hoped that he would interpret
  it; followed her; sick at heart。
  ‘‘ ‘O wert thou in the cauld blast;' '' sang
  Arkwright's lips a few moments later。
  ‘‘I can't tell her nowwhen I _know_ she cares
  for Calderwell;'' gloomily ran his thoughts; the
  while。  ‘‘It would do no possible good; and would
  only make her unhappy to grieve me。''
  ‘‘ ‘O wert thou in the cauld blast;' '' chimed
  in Alice's alto; low and sweet。
  ‘‘I reckon now he won't be staying away from
  here any more just to _save_ me!'' ran Alice's
  thoughts; palpitatingly triumphant。
  CHAPTER XXI
  BILLY TAKES HER TURN AT QUESTIONING
  Arkwright did not call to see Alice Greggory
  for some days。  He did not want to see Alice now。
  He told himself wearily that she could not help
  him fight this tiger skin that la