第 17 节
作者:淋雨      更新:2021-02-18 21:21      字数:9322
  had never gone down since the day I left; and I will not dwell on the emotions which the once familiar journey awakened in my unworthy bosom。  Paddington was alive with Old Boys of all。 ages … but very few of ours … if not as lively as we used to make it when we all。 landed back for the holidays。  More of us had moustaches and cigarettes and 〃loud〃 ties。  That was all。  Yet of the throng; though two or three looked twice and thrice at Raffles; neither he nor I knew a soul until we had to change at the junction near our journey's end; when; as I say; it was I who recognized Nipper Nasmyth at sight。
  The man was own son of the boy we both remembered。  He had grown a ragged beard and a moustache that hung about his face like a neglected creeper。  He was stout and bent and older than his years。 But he spurned the platform with a stamping stride which even I remembered in an instant; and which was enough for Raffles before he saw the man's face。
  〃The Nipper it is!〃 he cried。  〃I could swear to that walk in a pantomime procession!  See the independence in every step: that's his heel on the neck of the oppressor: it's the nonconformist conscience in baggy breeches。  I must speak to him; Bunny。  There was a lot of good in the old Nipper; though he and I did bar each other。〃
  And in a moment he had accosted the man by the boy's nickname; obviously without thinking of an affront which few would have read in that hearty open face and hand。
  〃My name's Nasmyth;〃 snapped the other; standing upright to glare。
  〃Forgive me;〃 said Raffles undeterred。  〃One remembers a nickname and forgets all。 it never used to mean。  Shake hands; my dear fellow! I'm Raffles。  It must be fifteen years since we met。〃
  〃At least;〃 replied Nasmyth coldly; but he could no longer refuse Raffles his hand。  〃So you are going down;〃 he sneered; 〃to this great gathering?〃  And I stood listening at my distance; as though still in the middle fourth。
  〃Rather!〃 cried Raffles。  〃I'm afraid I have let myself lose touch; but I mean to turn over a new leaf。  I suppose that isn't necessary in your case; Nasmyth?〃
  He spoke with an enthusiasm rare indeed in him: it had grown upon Raffles in the train; the spirit of his boyhood had come rushing back at fifty miles an hour。  He might have been following some honorable calling in town; he might have snatched this brief respite from a distinguished but exacting career。  I am convinced that it was I alone who remembered at that moment the life we were really leading at that time。  With me there walked this skeleton through every waking hour that was to follow。  I shall endeavor not to refer to it again。  Yet it should not be forgotten that my skeleton was always there。
  〃It certainly is not necessary in my case;〃 replied Nasmyth; still as stiff as any poker。  〃I happen to be a trustee。〃
  〃Of the school?〃
  〃Like my father before me。〃
  〃I congratulate you; my dear fellow!〃 cried the hearty Raffles … a younger Raffles than I had ever known in town。
  〃I don't know that you need;〃 said Nasmyth sourly。
  〃But it must be a tremendous interest。  And the proof is that you're going down to this show; like all。 the rest of us。〃
  〃No; I'm not。  I live there; you see。〃
  And I think the Nipper recalled that name as he ground his heel upon an unresponsive flagstone。
  〃But you're going to this meeting at the school…house; surely?〃
  〃I don't know。  If I do there may be squalls。  I don't know what you think about this precious scheme Raffles; but I 。 。 。〃
  The ragged beard stuck out; set teeth showed through the wild moustache; and in a sudden outpouring we had his views。  They were narrow and intemperate and perverse as any I had heard him advocate as the firebrand of the Debating Society in my first term。  But they were stated with all。 the old vim and venom。  The mind of Nasmyth had not broadened with the years; but neither had its natural force abated; nor that of his character either。  He spoke with great vigor at the top of his voice; soon we had a little crowd about us; but the tall collars and the broad smiles of the younger Old Boys did not deter our dowdy demagogue。  Why spend money on a man who had been dead two hundred years?  What good could it do him or the school?  Besides; he was only technically our founder。  He had not founded a great public school。  He had founded a little country grammar school which had pottered along for a century and a half。  The great public school was the growth of the last fifty years; and no credit to the pillar of piety。 Besides; he was only nominally pious。  Nasmyth had made researches; and he knew。  And why throw good money after a bad man?
  〃Are there many of your opinion?〃 inquired Raffles; when the agitator paused for breath。  And Nasmyth beamed on us with flashing eyes。
  〃Not one to my knowledge as yet;〃 said he。  〃But we shall see after to…morrow night。  I hear it's to be quite an exceptional gathering this year; let us hope it may contain a few sane men。  There are none on the present staff; and I only know of one among the trustees!〃
  Raffles refrained from smiling as his dancing eye met mine。
  〃I can understand your view;〃 he said。  〃I am not sure that I don't share it to some extent。  But it seems to me a duty to support a general movement like this even if it doesn't take the direction or the shape of our own dreams。  I suppose you yourself will give something; Nasmyth?〃
  〃Give something?  I?  Not a brass farthing!〃 cried the implacable banker。  〃To do so would be to stultify my whole position。  I cordially and conscientiously disapprove of the whole thing; and shall use all。 my influence against it。  No; my good sir; I not only don't subscribe myself; but I hope to be the means of nipping a good many subscriptions in the bud。〃
  I was probably the only one who saw the sudden and yet subtle change in Raffles … the hard mouth; the harder eye。  I; at least; might have foreseen the sequel then and there。  But his quiet voice betrayed nothing; as he inquired whether Nasmyth was going to speak at next night's meeting。  Nasmyth said he might; and certainly warned us what to expect。  He was still fulminating when our train came in。
  〃Then we meet again at Philippi;〃 cried Raffles in gay adieu。  〃For you have been very frank with us all。; Nasmyth; and I'll be frank enough in my turn to tell you that I've every intention of speaking on the other side!〃
  It happened that Raffles had been asked to speak by his old college friend; the new head master。  Yet it was not at the school…house that he and I were to stay; but at the house that we had both been in as boys。  It also had changed hands: a wing had been added; and the double tier of tiny studies made brilliant with electric light。 But the quad and the fives…courts did not look a day older; the ivy was no thicker round the study windows; and in one boy's castle we found the traditional print of Charing Cross Bridge which had knocked about our studies ever since a son of the contractor first sold it when he left。  Nay; more; there was the bald remnant of a stuffed bird which had been my own daily care when it and I belonged to Raffles。  And when we all。 filed in to prayers; through the green baize door which still separated the master's part of the house from that of the boys; there was a small boy posted in the passage to give the sign of silence to the rest assembled in the hall; quite identically as in the dim old days; the picture was absolutely unchanged; it was only we who were out of it in body and soul。
  On our side of the baize door a fine hospitality and a finer flow of spirits were the order of the night。  There was a sound representative assortment of quite young Old Boys; to whom ours was a prehistoric time; and in the trough of their modem chaff and chat we old stagers might well have been left far astern of the fun。  Yet it was Raffles who was the life and soul of the party; and that not by meretricious virtue of his cricket。  There happened not to be another cricketer among us; and it was on their own subjects that Raffles laughed with the lot in turn and in the lump。  I never knew him in quite such form。  I will not say he was a boy among them; but he was that rarer being; the man of the world who can enter absolutely into the fun and fervor of the salad age。  My cares and my regrets had never been more acute; but Raffles seemed a man without either in his life。
  He was not; however; the hero of the Old Boys' Match; and that was expected of him by all。 the school。  There was a hush when he went in; a groan when he came out。  I had no reason to suppose he was not trying; these things happen to the cricketer who plays out of his class; but when the great Raffles went on to bowl; and was hit all。 over the field; I was not so sure。  It certainly failed to affect his spirits; he was more brilliant than ever at our hospitable board; and after dinner came the meeting at which he and Nasmyth were to speak。
  It was a somewhat frigid gathering until Nasmyth rose。  We had all。 dined with our respective hosts; and then repaired to this business in cold blood。  Many were lukewarm about it in their hearts; there was a certain amount of mild prejudice; and a greater amount of animal indifference; to be ove